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i am trying so hard to be normal about how sad i am for katseye. they look exhausted in every way. there was a moment in the coachella live where megan’s smile dropped right before the lights cut and she looked so upset. sophia was crying. i didnt really notice anything else but i was also tearing up soooo….

just watched katseye at coachella (the youtube live i cannot afford a plane ticket to get to cali let alone one to get in the festival) and i want to preface this post by saying i am so incredibly happy for dani, sofia, lara, yoonchae and megan. they looked and sounded beautiful and i hope they were genuinely as excited as they said they were. however,,, i almost started crying at golden bc what do you mean they got to sing with ejae, audrey nuna and rei ami but manon was cut last minute. they achieved their dreams except for manon. if hybe and geffen are seriously making her announce that she’s gone on april 30th i’m done. i love katseye and i will continue to support the members but this isnt fair to any of them. all six girls look emotionally exhausted. i hope WHEN (i refuse to say if rn) manon comes back in may they all have time to breathe and just be together and happy. idc if that means they all go on hiatus. i want them to be happy and healthy. I WANT THEM TO BE ABLE TO SING!!!! sophia said they wanted to sing and i hope singing golden can maybe push their management to let them have less pinky up and more my way. and mia!!! mia is still fast and fun but they actually get to show how talented they are :((

so pinky up is out now. its not good.

pinky up is real…

i love katseye sm but internet girl and sugar(?) (leaked song. i just heard it) are horrible. if the whole next album is like that (even if those two are just on the album tbh) i’m not buying it. i love sis and beautiful chaos but god. like is gnarly good? no. but at least its fun to dance to!!

i fear i am doing very very badly!!! i need to be held while watching cartoons in order to feel real again! but also i do not think that will do much!!! i fear i am not feeling much at all :D!!!

i am so grateful to travel out of the country and meet relatives i hadnt seen in person but i cannot stand being around my family anymore. i need to like curl up in a ball with my friends around me talking but not really interacting with me so i can decompress and relax for the first time in 2 1/2 weeks but also i need to be touched in some way like head pats or just like a hand on my side while im in a ball bc i am so incredibly touch starved rn but also i understand that most of my friends are not big touch people so its okay but also im about to cry so if one of the touch people could please just keep a hand on me at all times for the next 7-10 business days except when i decide its too much and then do it again in like 20 min when i decide i need affection again thatd be wonderful please

two coworkers in the past two day have pointed out my speech impediment!

hi!! i have a question for the muslim people of tumblr! my friend converted to the muslim faith about a year ago and i havent seen him much since he goes to school so far away. i think i will be able to see him more this summer and i love to bake for my friends.

lets normalize giving our coworkers silly valentines!!! they think its cute and they like it!!!

i love my friends. i got some silly valentines from dollar tree and some stickers to send to my friends at college that arent local and i got those, a hot wheels car, some little snacks and a little bucket thing to hold them for my friends here :)))