Beware the Broken Doll

“In case you haven’t noticed, I’m weird. I’m a weirdo. I don’t fit in. And I don’t want to fit in. Have you ever seen me without this stupid hat on? That’s weird.”

My chest feels tight. My eyes water. There’s hundreds of thoughts swirling around in my head. All mocking me. I cover my ears. Try my hardest to make it all stop. It doesn’t. Nothings enough. Before I know it I’m crying. And my fears have consumed me. Why am I like this. What’s wrong with me. I don’t like this feeling. I despise it. I just want to feel normal again…but I don't think I ever will.

1/13 White lips, pale face Breathing in snowflakes Burnt lungs, sour taste Light's gone, day's end Struggling to pay rent Long nights, strange men And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries And they scream The worst things in life come free to us 'Cause we're just under the upper hand And go mad for a couple grams And she don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland Or sells love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly Angels to fly Ripped gloves, raincoat Tried to swim and stay afloat Dry house, wet clothes Loose change, bank notes Weary-eyed, dry throat Call girl, no phone And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries And they scream The worst things in life come free to us 'Cause we're just under the upper hand And go mad for a couple grams And she don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland Or sells love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly An angel will die Covered in white Closed eye And hoping for a better life This time, we'll fade out tonight Straight down the line And they say She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries They scream The worst things in life come free to us And we're all under the upper hand Go mad for a couple grams And we don't want to go outside tonight And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland Or sell love to another man It's too cold outside For angels to fly Angels to fly To fly, fly For angels to fly, to fly, to fly For angels to die

Once upon a time there was a girl. And everyday she would read of princesses and watch disney movies, she'd watch as the princess got swept off her feet and fall for the man who made her feel so special and safe. And the girl thought to herself one day, I'll find my prince the man who will always be there for me. Years past and after years of heartbreak and hurt she thought she found him. He was unlike the others. He took care of her in good and bad times, he loved her and held her and she finally felt safe. He foretold the future, a future he wanted with her and finally the girl was healed and at last believed she had found her knight in shining armour, her prince.. Then one day, the girl awoke to a message. A message from the prince. He told her he had changed his mind and needed time. And the girl felt her heart plummet to the floor and shatter into a million pieces she could never put back together Now the prince has found himself a new princess. And as for the girl, her emotions are locked in a tower. Never to be released again. And the four letter word she longed for as a child, is now the remnants of a broken promise and her own promise to never again let it leave her lips The End

Another drawing from this week If anyone's wondering the word is bordered by song lyrics ~the top is bittersweet tragedy by melanie martinez ~the bottom is addict with a pen by twenty one pilots ~the left is if you can't hang by sleeping with sirens ~and the right is gives you hell by all american reject

Sometimes you just gotta put on a happy face and pretend everything's okay

"One kiss was supposed to be so sweet, but I found grapefruit in your teeth"