your best is enough

its ok to relate to posts even if you don’t have PTSD or are unsure! There is definitely a cross between some PTSD situations/feels/reactions.

and I’m exhausted from picking myself back Over and over and over and over and over and over

I’m so bad off

I want to buy actual groceries. All I do is vent to friends how literally broke I am. How in debt I am. How anxious and paranoid I am. How hard it is to find a job where I don’t stand. How mad I am that the job I love screwed me over.

I try to say I’m becoming suicidal but I don’t want any ‘it gets better’ talk.

Me, taking one small dosage pill the first time: SUDDENLY I’M SO ITCHY BC I’M PARANOID NOW

@ptsdandflowers I'm sorry, I only wanted to share my personal experience in case it could help you somehow. You gave little information and I didn't expect an answer when I asked "for how long", it should be more of an indicator if what I write might be relevant for you (or maybe someone else who reads it) Doctors themselves are just humans - and sometimes it's shocking how little they seem to listen or care or take serious what they are told, I really feel you there.

It’s ok. I’m so used to people telling me unwanted advice that I just get so annoyed by any type of it. I know doctors are human but they are dealing with people anxieties and panic disorders and I wish they just took a little more care in how they listen and speak to us.

ty!

My therapist actually helped me understand the new med and she said the lady explained it ALL wrong and thank god.

and that’s fucking OK!

That’s valid and that doesn’t make them bad people. 

Sometimes our brains just don’t want to work with us here. Sometimes, you just can’t fix something, but you can help it and maintain it, and live a little easier thanks to meds.

 “owlsofstarlight “I think some people who prescribe depression and...”

Ah, I see. (I'm not 100% clear on whether or not you want to keep taking them, but if you don't, could you say that whatever potential benefits they have isn't worth the side effects you are currently experiencing? Because if they're making you feel worse, it's probably worth it to try something else,.)

Yea sorry I’m not good at explaining lol. The ones i’m on I said I don’t want to be on, there are no benefits to it. They make things worse and now I have side effects but she is transitioning me from them into another medicine I’m not comfortable taking, which I’m not going to take until I get a hold of her again. So I’m kinda stuck on shit meds for now u_u

shes a knew psychiatrist, the old one had a few options I was into exploring and this lady completely ignored her.

 “I think some people who prescribe depression and anxiety medicine just...”

My psych doesn't really listen to my side effects either. This time tho I have my mood tracker data which will hopefully get them to listen. So maybe do something that can give them "proof" of the side effects to get them to listen?

Its not that this new person doesn’t believe my side effects, it’s that these new ones that I don’t want to take take 8 weeks or more to reach a place where It will help me, and I gotta take these ones still for that 8 weeks and they make me feel worse and worse the more I take them and urg...

because I’m already sensitive to EVERY medication I take... and I’m VERY anxious always... and this is ALL I’m going to think about

abusers will take your honesty and twist it back at you as “too much oversharing” or “making me feel guilty” when all you did is share and explain why you may isolate or react a certain way.

abusers take that shit and RUN with it and it is a fuel to the fire, I’m afraid.

all these abuse survivor must be selfaware posts are a two edged sword.

This page is a zone that is critical and steers away from that.

‘abusers overshare’ I overshared because I wanted to be honest and communicate with my partner about why I’m antisocial, nervous around men and strangers, why I need to isolate sometimes. I didn’t want them to think it was their fault or that they have to stay and fix me/always be around.

‘abusers isolate you’ I wanted to isolate myself until I could reground myself and I specifically told my partner that they are welcome to stay with me or they can go out and do whatever with friends. They chose to stay with me, told me they wanted to, then they blamed me.

abusers DO do those things yes... but damn do they also take that info and twist it back around so fast you’re caught in between being honest and just burying it all down and letting it fester and having people misunderstand you.

please. please please be cautious and critical. 

I love you.

fuck abusers.