Lately i just feel so fed up . Since i received ur msg i cleaned my flat a little, did the dishes etc and tidied my clothes and put the laundry on . i had a warm shower and applied a tumeric vitamin c clay face mask too . Was a productive day as usual, work-gym-spa-.. but i cant lie i am just so fed up of it all. i want to be shown something different . Like i dontt want someone to say they love me and that they’re “sexually exclusive” with me but then not wish to be in a relationship or treat me right. thats like opening a jar of ben and jerrys cookie dough ice cream and only eating the cookie dough chunks. Im just over it investing emotionally and physically and spiritually into lame guys who do not know what they want . people tell me on a daily basis that I am beautiful and sexy or whatever but truthfully i just dont feel anything . I am intelligent, quantitative, boldly assuming and at best funny. i wish to be seen for who i am, and loved for that, rather for what i could potentially offer someone. people want the experience of intimacy without the responsibility of it.