what did I do to deserve this piece of shit excuse of a life. I am so alone and empty. I have no real friends, nobody ever initiates conversation with me, and I’m never invited to anything. Fuck, I even sit by myself during lunch at school when the damn library isn’t open. I try so hard to make friends and reach out to people but I’m never important enough. Even for a few spare moments. All I want is friends who care about me and want to be around me. I probably ruined any chance of friendship ever possible because I was labeled a psycho crying girl because I can’t control my fucking anxiety and depression. People mock me all the fucking time about my panic attacks. Nobody understands. Really not even my fucking family. Nobody in my family cares about me and they all wish hell upon me. I can’t even pursue my career dreams because my parents are so damn selfish. I just fucking hate being so let down by everything. I want it all to end. I’m sick of being sad and empty. I’m sick of wasting my time here. Every waking moment is miserable.
Being alone is never easy or fun. But it makes you stronger and one day you'll look back and realize that you didn't need a bunch of people to make you happy, having you is enough. Right now is not a great time and that's okay. Part of being special is having absolutely nobody understand or get you. It will all unfold in the end and when you achieve your dreams & you will look back at this like its nothing. You'll shock them and it'll be the best feeling ever. You got this
