𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫

❝   bless  you  … ❞     it’s  clear  he’s  annoyed,  if  his  clenched  jaw  is  anything  to  go  by.  of  all  the  times  to  sneeze,  did  it  really  need  to  be  when  they  were  kissing?  dong - hyun  isn’t  entirely  to  blame,  of  course;  they’d  been  battling  a  nasty  cold  for  a  few  days  now,  and  this  had  been  niko’s  idea.  still,  it’s  hard  to  remain  in  the  mood  after  something  like  that.     ❝   i  suppose  if  i  wasn’t  already  exposed,  i  certainly  am  now.  ❞     he  shifts,  their  hips  rolling  together  once  more  as  he  settles  his  weight  back,  straddling  dong’s  waist.     ❝   should  we  continue  or-?  ❞     a  huff  leaves  his  parted  lips,  something  akin  to  an  exasperated  laugh.    ❝   perhaps  you  should  be  resting  instead.  ❞  

i’ve been cultivating unkindness. i’ve been cultivating a lot of things — i’m a fertile field, it turns out — but unkindness is the most interesting.

it is unkind of me to try and play a trick on you.

i can hear everything, warped and distorted but broadcast somehow.

i can’t dig you out; i can’t reach my fingers deep enough inside my own brain, inside my own ribcage.

without you, divorced from even the idea of you, i have no substance, no form.

you are the antithesis that gives me definition.

another tragic love story, who needs that?

tragedy is the point.

do you think you have a monopoly on anger?

i’m not really anything like a person.

i love you and love you and love you, just as i am gone and gone and gone.

i can’t imagine a version of myself that would not love you.

i dream of you. sometimes in my dreams you are singing. sometimes you’re raging at me.

don’t leave me.

i killed someone. i killed someone.

i’ll set myself on fire to give you light.

i don’t want you to be lost. i don’t want you to be stuck. i just want you to be free, and joyous, and buoyant.

i woke up needing you, you artery ripped loose from me, all bloody and twining.

time rattles on its hinges.

i’ve come to barter.

do you think i’m as fickle as a human?

are those matches? what do you think you’re doing?

i do not have time for this. you can be angry at me later, you can scream and rage at me when you’re not in danger anymore.

am i the martyr or are you?

there are other ways to get me to shut up, you know.

i believe you. i always believe you.

you’re always so right. it must be such a burden.

i must hate you, is that it? that’s why i did all this, because i want you gone.

i am with you because i want to be. that’s all.

i will love you like a fire loves a forest.

time has made liars and cheats of us all.

i will make a bullet of my mouth. i will make a knife of my heart.