No Extra Credit

“Okay, wow. Take a joke and run a mile into offence.” Jonathan chuckled, shaking his head. “Honestly, you’re making a bigger deal out of it than needs be.” Jonathan watched as Fitz reacted to his words and his eyes widened slightly. Okay, that was unexpected. “Fitz, Fitz, wow, dude, chill. I didn’t actually mean it like that - I just meant that you’re smart about a lot of things but, like, oblivious to others. I don’t actually think you’re dumb, calm down.”

“Yikes. Did that touch a sore spot? Don’t get all grumpy on me. It was a joke. Do you know what a joke is?” Jonathan rolled his eyes, moving away from Fitz then. Why was he so defensive over a joke? Didn’t Fitz know anything about him now? And Fitz claimed they were boyfriends. “For a smart guy, you’re kind of dumb.”

“I wouldn’t go as far as to say that. She hates me and she always will. It’s kind of erotic, actually.” He chuckled at his own words, smirking before he saw Fitz’s expression. It only made him smirk more. “It’s a thing.” He shrugged, not bothering to get into too much detail. He didn’t want to scar Fitz. Not yet anyway. “You’ll learn sooner or later. I don’t know. You’re still pretty innocent.”

“Yankity spankity.” Jonathan winked before he chuckled. This would be fine for the first few weeks. He’d be fine for the first few weeks but then his commitment issues would kick in and the whole being Hydra thing would get between them. He hoped Fitz wouldn’t be too hurt by him - but who was he kidding? Fitz was going to be devastated. He continued to kiss him, getting a little harsher before he pulled back. “Skye is gonna kill me, you know?”

“What are you talking about? That was the best week of my life.” He joked, laughing a little. Maybe this wouldn’t be so bad. Their relationship wouldn’t get any deeper than this and when things started to get worse, he’d jut break it off with Fitz. That was his reputation anyway. He’d feel guilty but it would be what had to be done. “The cutest.” he muttered before leaning down to kiss him again.

Jonathan chuckled a little. “We’re going to be so bad at this for the first week or so.” he said, shaking his head a little. “It’ll be fine. It’ll jut be like extended friendship except we can totally kiss whenever we want.” He grinned at that before he found himself blushing at Fitz’s words. He did notice that he said it with a lot more confidence and Jonathan couldn’t help but feel a little proud of him, which was an entirely foreign concept to him. “I know.” he smiled. “You’re the cutest though, Koala.”

Jonathan was too shocked to kiss Fitz back right away but as soon as he was jolted from his stupor, he did just that. His hands moving to Fitz’s waist, he pulled him closer and kissed him harder. He was out of his mind, agreeing to this, but he did want it and when was he one to stop himself from getting what he wanted? Pulling away, he leaned his forehead against Fitz’s and half smiled. “It’s been a long time since I’ve been in a relationship. So, I might be bad at this.” 

Jonathan stopped and stared at Fitz as he spoke, unable to form any words. His mind was sluggish, unable to keep up with what was happening. Did Fitz just say what he thought he did? Jonathan knew what he wanted but could he commit to it? What if Fitz found out he was Hydra? “I want…” Jonathan shook his head. “You. I want… I don’t want a fucking hook up or - or whatever it is between us.” He scrubbed a hand over his face. “I want an actual relationship… I want to be your.. your whatever the fuck it’s called.” He paused, deciding his native tongue would be better. “I want to be your Nán péngyǒu.”

“No… uh…” Jonathan shook his head. He was being stupid. Was this really the way to act right now when Fitz needed him? No, it wasn’t but yet here he was, pacing the floor and feeling bad for making this about something it wasn’t. He was a terrible person. “Look… I don’t… ugh, fuck. Don’t cry, okay? I didn’t mean to hurt you like that I just…” He sighed. “I don’t want you to get attached and then get hurt when all of this is over.”

“I’m fine.” Jonathan said. Would telling Fitz he’d be one of the one Hydra left alone be saying too much? Probably. “I doubt Hydra would willingly kill someone as handsome as me, so you don’t need to worry about me.” His entire demeanour changed with both the kiss and Fitz’s words. Suddenly, he shoved Fitz away from him before he stood up. “Fitz, you know I don’t… I can’t have you saying those things to me. It’s not right. I don’t do that. Why don’t you understand that?”

Jonathan smiled sadly at Fitz’s words. The sentiment was nice. He couldn’t tell Fitz the truth as that would result in a disaster. “You don’t need to worry about protecting me.” he said, with a slightly shrug. “If I’m still alive after a conversation with Skye, then I’m sure I can handle Hydra.” He forced a smile, trying to show Fitz that he wasn’t a horrible person and he chuckled. “You work on keeping yourself safe, okay?”

Jonathan froze instantly when Fitz hugged him. That was… unexpected. And the kiss too. What the hell with happening? Where had his cool gone? He was speaking about masturbating moments ago and now he and Fitz where having a… a moment. This was gross and far too heavy. He needed a break. “It’s no problem.” Jonathan said, blushing. “You’re my… You’re important. I don’t want those Hydra scum to hurt you.” And that was the truth. Even if he was on Hydra’s side, he’d call them all sorts of names if they ever hurt Fitz.

“Fitz, Fitz, wow, calm down.” Jonathan said quickly as soon as he heard Fitz go off. He was, kind of, insulting Jonathan’s employer. “This is probably just a warning or something. I highly doubt Hydra is going to do something like this again, they’re not that stupid.” He sighed, lifting a hand to put it on Fitz’s shoulder, squeezing it softly. “They won’t hurt you. I promise I won’t let them hurt you.” he said, knowing that wasn’t a promise he could keep. Fitz was part of Coulson’s team and Hydra would have a field day targeting them. Jonathan didn’t want to see them hurt Fitz but at the end of the day, he had no control over that. “I’ll keep you safe.”

“C’mon buddy, there’ll be other times when you can watch me masturbate.” Plopping down next to Fitz, he nudged him with his elbow. “You wanna talk about it or do you want to talk about something else?” he asked. He didn’t know what to do in these situations. Hydra agents knew how to deal with death and dead bodies and drunk co-workers who they were betraying. Jonathan made a mental note to go talk to Ward at some point. He knew how to handle things, right?

Looking at Fitz once more, he shrugged. “It’s not that bad. I’ve seen Hydra do worse.” And by that he meant he’d done worse but did Fitz have to know that? No. He didn’t. His usual go to method to dealing with these things was alcohol but it seemed as if Fitz had had enough and Jonathan definitely wasn’t the comforting type. Fitz should have gone to someone on his team instead of coming here, but Jonathan wasn’t going to complain. Fitz was… Fitz. “Listen… it’s not the end of the world, okay? Sure it sucks right now but over time, you’ll get over it and it’ll just be another nightmare to tuck into your reserve.” Jonathan knew a lot about nightmares. “You’re a strong dude, Fitz, don’t let Hydra be the ones to tear you down, they’re not worth it.”