Dear Best Friend -

i thought of a new tattoo idea yesterday and i absolutely love it

i almost told you i missed you tonight. maybe it was the alcohol but it’s true and you should know that

i miss competing against you in everything and for everything because now it’s so difficult for me to get myself to do work… or anything

i’m starting to befriend someone new and it’s a struggle but it’s going alright and i’m supposed to see them again very soon but you texted and now… well, now i’m gonna keep accidentally comparing them to you

i went to a concert by myself last night and it was incredible. it made me feel things and i legitimately miss it

i had the most wonderful dream last night and you were in it

i miss my dog so i got a pet fish. it sounds stupid but it makes sense to me.

tonight i wish i was a smoker. don’t ask why. i just do. i know it’s bad for me but that’s what i’m feeling right now

my roommate had a mental breakdown today so i didn’t tell her i was on the verge of one today (really for the last week) because i didn’t want to complicate things

is it bad that all the people in the world that i want to see most are thousands of miles away?

i talked to someone new today. i put myself out there. it went well but i don’t know if i’ll see them again

i’m kind of dreading tomorrow

i had one of those dreams that’s good and leaves you just feeling kinda happy and peaceful when you wake up. it was really weird but it was good

sometimes i replay conversations endlessly in my head to try and figure out how i screwed it up - how i pushed them away - how i offended them somehow, you know?

every time i hear habits (stay high) by tove lo i think of you

i can’t stop arguing with myself over things that shouldn’t feel so important and it’s really annoying

i went camping by myself and i had such a good time. i really prefer being by myself