I might be in love for the first time

Bitch I wasted so much life on this dumbass website. Especially reposting pictures and quotes that I thought harvested so much relatability! That don’t mean shit to me. I can speak for myself now and find strength in my own words and it’s fucking cool. It’s fucking cool to learn and change and be confident and love myself and have everyone around me not be detrimental to my mental health. it’s cool not letting anyone break my heart and then fester in the fact. People are okay with being dull and being fake and going back to people who hurt you and fucking around with the same three friends and living in their safe place that actually isn’t safe but more... comfortable. It’s comfortable no matter how uncomfortable it is!! You’re okay with being used to it. You only know routines and you are miserable for it. My life changed in April when I learned to not be okay with that. Life actually feels like life and it is happiness and bliss and it’s so cool and I hope one day every one will learn but that’s optimistic because I know everyone won’t learn and they’ll just keep watching and feeling pitiful. You don’t have to be as helpless and as pitiful as you are!!! but anyway.