actually being in love with your kid is great actually bc they just be like oh mommy i wanted to tell u smth but i forgot 🥹 and youll get a wave of ridiculous affection and wish they were right next to u all the time…

idk i think if you find yourself wracked with shameful desires to have been abused in some way, or wishing that your childhood had been worse than it was, theres a possibility that there is actually some substance there and you're looking for validation. like yeah all those "damn i wish i had been sexually assaulted when i was younger" thoughts i had eventually led me to discovering my actual assault, because why the fuck else would I think that

well adjusted people do not crave abuse victim clout, they do not yearn to put a name to their soul sickness, they haven't been groomed by anyone and don't actually think statutory rape would be all that comforting. don't convince yourself you're fakeclaiming when you haven't even told anyone about it

i dunno if you're the type to be comforted by this, but trauma isn't special. its not some cool privilege that only real underdogs get to have. statistically, you probably aren't making it up.