Please Dont Help

Some people see a happy go lucky kinda gal who takes shit in her stride. Others fail to see the good and just abuse. All I see is someone who is constantly not enough. Someone consumed so much by pain and fear she doesn’t know what to do or where to turn. Please just because someone looks good. Doesn’t mean they are good

'Go kill your self, your nothing but a fat cunt' How awful would that person feel if I actually went and did that now? How guilty would they feel if I actually did kill myself? It would be their fault right?

Posting to this helps! No one has time for me or my problems. No one ever thinks to fucking ask how fat stupid ugly depressed Lindsey is. Because they won't be able to understand the feelings I go through everyday. Like I have nothing. Actually nothing. No real friends. No one who wants me. Nothing. Not one person on this planet wants to know.

Every time things are going good something always has to jump in the way and bash me off course! So so fed up with everything right now. Can't ever seem to do anything right. Can't someone please give me a break?! Please? Just want some good news for once!?

Why is life so stressful?!!

WHY ARE FEELINGS SUCH HARD WORK 😫 It's like yeh.. I'll let you feel like that about this person.. Then bam, something happens and you realise that someone from the past is creeping up to talk to you.. I do not get it!

Here it goes again! People act like they care when they don't. They are only really happy when you are beat down on the floor with nothing left to give. They make you feel on top of the world then drop you like a used piece of gum! Life is shit! People are shit! Everything is shit!

I just want to end it all. This isn't a cry for help. Help can not help me. I am broken, I need to be thrown in the bin. Life isn't any good why do I bother?

The noises in my head are really annoying me now. I don't get what I'm meant to be doing with my life. Am I meant to be happy, sad, emotional? I just don't get it... I need help but I don't know where to go. I feel I can't ask anyone for help because they will just judge me... I give up on life