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you are life itself.
this is why you can experience anything, be anyone, have anything. because there was never a distance between you and those things. you just decided to change the way they show up.
I am and non-dualism by @fashiongirlyi
shifting became much simpler when i stopped asking, “how do i get there?” and started recognizing that awareness is already what every reality appears in.
you don’t shift by forcing the "physical" with a method
you shift because awareness is always shifting.
you shift the moment awareness shifts by @noseparate
you don’t need physical proof to ‘fully believe’ that you are there. remember, you are consciousness which means you are the source. as the source → you create forms of consciousness. so if i imagine a cake it’s no less real than one in the physical world.
awareness is simply reflecting what you declare as true. what is true will always bloom.
you (awareness) decide that you have shifted → treating the choice as proof rather than what you see → will be interpreted as reality.
non dualism and shifting by @h1ghergirl
The law of assumption teaches us that we can have all of these things if we shift our awareness to the life in our mind’s eye, rather than focusing solely on the mirror (physical reality) that reflects our predisposed perception of the physical. The problem that everyone runs into, and some people get stuck there while others abandon it, is the victim mentality.
accept that you’re not a freaking victim of a circumstance you mentally created. Stop the woe is me BS. Your imagination is your canvas, you’re the artist, so why are you painting a sad picture if you hate depressing art? You’re picking up the brush to paint your own problems, then you get mad and punch holes in the painting you made. Throw that shit in the trash and light it on fire, it doesn’t serve you.
What. you. focus. on. GROWS. I really don’t care if you feel like you’re lying to yourself or not. Think & speak of the things you WANT, not the stuff that stresses you out. You can feel your feelings, you can have bad or lazy days— what you can’t do, however, is spend every single day hating on everything that exists, only to ask yourself why everything sucks. It’s cause your mindset sucks.
Kill the victim mentality = Live your dream life by @angelicrevenge
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You don’t know how long it’s been. an hour? Two hours?
You lost track when Chan first pushed you back onto the bed, his mouth hot against yours, while Hyunjin’s hands slid up your thighs. Time blurred when they switched - Hyunjin’s lips capturing yours, all tongue and teeth, while Chan’s breath ghosted over your stomach, going lower, lower, until you arched off the mattress with a choked gasp.
Then it was Chan pinning you down, fingers tight around your wrists, as Hyunjin’s mouth worked between your legs. You whimpered, thighs trembling, but Chan just shushed you, his thumb brushing over your cheekbone like he was soothing you even as he held you in place.
When they swapped again - Hyunjin’s weight pressing you into the sheets, his hands roaming - you barely had time to catch your breath before Chan’s tongue dragged up your slit, slow and filthy, and you sobbed into Hyunjin’s shoulder.
Now, one of them - you dont remember who - turned on a playlist, some song by the weeknd playing in the background. you’re sprawled across Hyunjin’s lap, his cock hard beneath you, his fingers playing idly with your nipples, twisting, making you squirm.
Chan is inbetween your spread legs, one hand gripping your hip, the other guiding himself into you with a low groan. “Fuck,” he mutters, sliding in deep, and you gasp, head tipping back against Hyunjin’s chest.
Chan’s fingers tighten on your hip, pulling you down onto him, and you choke out a moan as he starts moving, slow at first, then deeper, rougher. “You take it so well,” Hyunjin murmurs in your ear, his breath hot against your skin. His thumbs circle your nipples, teasing them into stiff peaks before pinching just hard enough to make you whimper.
Hyunjin’s hand drifts lower, fingertips tracing circles over your stomach before dipping between your legs. His touch is light, teasing, just barely brushing your clit until you jerk against him with a sharp gasp. “Oh my- Fuckk” you whine, hips bucking involuntarily, but Chan’s grip tightens on your waist, holding you steady as he thrusts deeper, dragging a ragged moan from your throat.
Chan’s hands slide up your body, fingers tracing the curve of your throat before settling there, pressing justtt hard enough to make your breath hitch. His grip tightens as he fucks into you harder, his hips snapping forward in a rhythm that has your vision blurring.
Hyunjin’s fingers circle your clit faster, the pressure building until you’re writhing between them, gasping for air that won’t come.
“Please-” you manage, voice ragged, but Chan just shakes his head, “You can take it,” he murmurs, his own breath uneven. “Just a little longer.” His thrusts stutter, deeper now, and you choke on a moan, nails digging into Hyunjin’s thigh.
Hyunjin exhales sharply against your ear, “So fucking pretty like this,” he murmurs, voice full of admiration. His palm slides up your chest, tracing the curve of your breast before cradling your jaw, tilting your face toward his. “so perfect,” he breathes, and then his mouth is on yours, tongue sliding against yours in a slow, filthy drag. You moan into the kiss, the sound swallowed by his lips, as Chan’s hips snap forward, filling you so deep your toes curl.
Hyunjin breaks the kiss just enough to pant against your lips, his thumb brushing over your bottom lip. “Love hearing you,” he says, “Love feeling you shake.” His hand drops back to your breast, squeezing just shy of too hard, and you arch into it with a gasp, your hips rocking back against Chan’s thrusts.
“I can’t- I can’t take it,” you gasp, voice cracking, your body strung tight between them. “Please, please let me-”
Chan’s grip on your throat eases just enough for you to drag in a shuddering breath. His hips slow, grinding deep inside you instead of pulling out, his cock twitching where he’s buried to the hilt. “You wanna cum?” he murmurs. His other hand slides down your body, fingertips tracing the sweat-slick curve of your waist before settling between your legs, pressing hard against Hyunjin’s fingers still circling your clit. “You wanna come on my cock while he plays with you?”
You whimper, your whole body trembling, the words catching in your throat. “Yes or no, baby,” Chan asks, his hips rocking forward, the drag of his cock inside you slow, maddening. His breath hitches when you clench around him, your thighs shaking. “you're gonna have to say it.”
You sob, your hips bucking uselessly between them, oversensitive,“Yes- yes, please,” you gasp, the words slurred, your voice breaking. “Please let me cum, please-”
Chan’s grip tightens on your throat just enough to cut off your next whimper, his hips snapping forward in one sharp, brutal thrust. “Then cum, baby” he says, and that’s all it takes- your body seizes, pleasure ripping through you so hard your vision whites out.
his rhythm stutters, his hips grinding deep as he groans, his cock pulsing inside you. You feel him cum, the hot spill of it, the way his fingers dig into your hip hard enough to bruise.
Hyunjin’s hand leaves your breast, sliding down to press against your stomach, right where Chan’s cock is buried inside you, and you sob at the pressure, oversensitive, “Fuck,” Chan breathes, his voice thick, his forehead dropping to your shoulder as he rides out his orgasm, his thrusts slowing to lazy, rolling grinds.
Hyunjin’s fingers curl into your hair, tilting your head back against his chest as he murmurs, “Good girl,” against your temple, his lips brushing your skin. His other hand still works your clit, slow now, drawing out the last waves of your orgasm until you’re squirming.
Before you can catch your breath, Chan’s hands are on your hips again, flipping you over with a rough, effortless tug. The sheets scrape against your stomach as he maneuvers you onto your knees.
Your face lands inches from Hyunjin’s cock, the heat of it against your cheek. You don’t hesitate- your mouth opens, tongue dragging along the underside before taking him in. Hyunjin groans, his fingers tangling in your hair, guiding you deeper. Chan’s cock slides back into you from behind, just as a new song plays.
a/n: gov ball hyunchan made me do it now you guys deal with the aftermath #thankyouforcumming
✧˖°.What will your first intimate moment with your person be like on your wedding night✧˖°.
in this detailed 18+ pick-a-card reading, i will connect with the energies of your special person and uncover how they desire to make love to you during your first wedding night☺️👀. is there a sense of urgency in their touch? a longing that lingers in their soul - begging to be exposed to you? is there a sense of dominance and possessiveness that develops in them because you’re finally theirs? well, there’s only one way to uncover their true feelings! ✨ let’s dive into the depths of this reading to find out exactly how they want to make love to you, and how they truly feel about you 💛🫶. buckle up bestie, we’re gonna go for a ride! 😉❤️🔥
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⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile I ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
OHHHHHH BESTIE YOUR READING GOT ME KICKING MY FEET IN THE AIR AND GIGGLING LIKE A FOOL 🤭😝. i have the widest grin plastered on my face right now. WHERE DO I EVEN START????? LIKE I DONT EVEN KNOW AKSANKAAKKALALA. phew okay let’s take a deep breath together because DAMN YOUR PERSON KNOWS WHAT THEY’RE HERE FOR - AND I'M LOVING IT!!!
being intimate with your person for the first time on your wedding night feels right - like there’s no doubt about it. they’re gonna make you OPEN UP bestie - emotionally, psychologically, physically and mentally. they’re going to embrace your vulnerability and they’re going to show you just how much they have been craving for this moment. their first touch will feel so secure and promising, it’s like they’re bonding their soul with yours - promising to never let go. you guys just fit so well together, and your bond is unbreakable. honestly? COUPLE GOALS BABE LIKE UGH IM MANIFESTING THAT EVERYONE GETS THIS TYPA LOVE IN EVERY LIFETIME😩✋. there’s so much passion, y’all are literally gonna get right into it. you’ve waited for this moment long enough, and now this special moment is yours. i’m seeing here that you will look back at this memory and you guys will literally smile - like this night is gonna be so so special. i also have a feeling that you guys will buy a new house and move in together there, because i’m seeing here that you’ll be making love in an environment that feels like “home”. or maybe, your person is your home. they’re the safety you’ve craved for, and oh babe, they’ll prove to you as to why you can rely on them. they’re going to be so gentle with you, and you’re going to feel so emotional. it’s not lust that fills your persons heart, it’s admiration. they have nothing but love for you and it will be seen in their eyes. they’re going to handle you with care, touching you gently, and touching the right spots.
the love making is not rushed. it’s slow, burning, intense and hot. they’re going to show their dominance in subtle ways, like gently pinning you down and kissing you on the neck - and let me tell you something babe, they’re going to leave such prominent love bites on your body because you’re finally theirs, and everyone else can whine about it. you’ve won their heart, and now their goal is to win yours. i’m seeing here that your person will mostly be on top of you, and it’s their hands that will do the talking. why their hands? well, because they’ve literally CONTROLLED themselves for so long, now they can’t help but want to feel each and every inch of you. their hands want to remember your touch, it wants to remember how you squirm under its pressure when they touch you in the spots that make you weak. they want to see you come shamelessly on their fingers, and i see them admiring the mess you’ve made on their hand - UGH THIS PERSON IS SO FREAKY, YOU WON THE LOTTERY BABE😭😋🤭.
okay so i just picked up on this energy right now and i just want to put it out there before i forget about it. your person has literally held themselves back and has patiently waited for this moment. it’s taken everything in them to control themselves, so when they finally get the opportunity to make love to you, they’re going to go wild. and it’s not the “i’m gonna make you finish RIGHT NOW” typa vibes - no. it’s “i’m gonna take my own sweet time with you, and you’re gonna take me and all my teasings like a good girl/boy.” LIKE KANNANAAKAKAKA I LOVE THIS!!!!😚😉. and once they’ve made you a complete mess (their “artwork”, as they may frame it - this person can’t stop teasing you, can they?), they’re going to reward you. i’m talking about shopping, buying desserts, taking you out for fancy dinners, gifting expensive clothes, expensive jewellery and more. LIKE AHEM SIR/MA’AM, WHY YOU PRENTENDING LIKE YOU JUST DIDNT CONSUME MY BESTIES SOUL??? but that’s literally what makes your person so damn sexy. one minute you’re sitting on their face and squirming around their fingers, and then the next minute you’re getting ready to buy a beautiful outfit which THEY’RE paying for. at this point, i feel like your person just loves the thrill of surprising you and catching you off guard. LIKE YOU CAN NEVER PREDICT THEIR NEXT MOVE. THEY’RE FULL OF SURPRISES - like LITERALLY.
i’m also seeing here that while being intimate with you during your wedding night, your person doesn’t care about their pleasure. all they care about is you. if you reach climax, they will too - even if they haven’t been in you yet. it’s like, watching you come makes them come, you know? UH THIS SOUNDS SO STRAIGHTFORWARD BUT THATS THE BEST WAY I COULD PUT IT🫣🫠. another thing i’m picking up is that they love messing up the rhythm while making love to you - like one moment they're so slow, taking their time with you, while you’re begging them to pick up their speed because you can’t handle the tension anymore. and another moment, they’re suddenly going so fast, it’ll catch you so off guard. and don’t even make me speak about the rhythm they’ll create while you’re reaching your climax, because when you’re almost at the edge, they will slow down (PAINFUL I KNOW, I CANT WITH YOUR PERSON PLEASE), making your legs shake and making you beg for more. but will they give in that easily? NOPE. they’ll thrust slowly, making your climax twice as intense, and they’re going to worship and adore the way you will finally let yourself loosen around them.
this connection is meant to be, and you both know it. when your person is being intimate with you during your wedding night, something in them just knows that they want to have a family with you. they want to have kids with you, or they like the idea of having mini versions of y’all running around the house - filling the environment with joy and laughter. your person is so homey (is that even a word?😭) but get what i mean. they feel like home, and something about them will make you feel so sure.
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile II ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
oh, i just love the honesty that comes with you and your person, babe. like you guys are so raw about your feelings for one another - it’s beautiful. i’m seeing here that you both are very verbal in bed and you guys are going to communicate what you want. comfort, satisfaction, faith and trust is the base of your relationship, and i love how you both care for each other's needs. making love to one another on your wedding night feels so transparent - like your souls are merging into one. your connection with one another is so healing, it’s a blessing to find someone who understands you so deeply, love. like your person is literally going to WORSHIP you and they’re going to help you overcome your insecurities. they’re going to ask you exactly what you want and how you desire to be touched. i’m also getting a feeling that you get stimulated by verbal communication babe, and guess what? your person knows EXACTLY what to say. oh they’re going to dirty talk their way through your heart, LIKE DAMN WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT CHARM FROM??? they’re going to appreciate you and praise you so well, you can’t help but squirm in pleasure.
i am hearing the word “deep thrusts” and i feel like every time they push their hips against yours, they’re going to whisper sweet praises which will make you feel ten times more fiery inside 👀 ✨. YOUR PERSON JUST KNOWS THEIR WAY WITH YOU, DONT THEY AKSJANKAKAKAKKALAK😳🤭. another thing i’m picking up is that your person is going to love eating you out. they’re going to hum a tune filled with pride every time you shiver under their touch - almost like commanding you to be in place so that they can enjoy getting a taste of you. UGH BABE HOW DID YOU MANIFEST THIS PERSON??? (don’t feel shy to leave your manifesting techniques in my DM’s ahsahhaahaja just kidding 😭🫣).
i have a feeling that your person leans towards the submissive side, or they just prefer you commanding them around, and they like being told what to do - and oh bestie trust me, they will DO the job. they want you to communicate with them because they want YOU to feel good. they will even ask you if you’re feeling good or if there’s something else - maybe another rhythm or pressure you prefer. god i love how vocal and communicative they are, like they’re so focused on making this night memorable for you - they’re so adorable.
now here’s the thing, you’re also a giver rather than being the receiver all the time. you care about your persons needs too and you both might get into this disagreement - arguing over who wants to make love to whom. and honestly, i’m seeing here that this is only going to ignite a fire in the both of y’all, and there will be an intense moment that will arise and it will create a deeper tension in the way you will make love to one another😳🫣. the love making will suddenly feel rushed and passionate, almost like you guys are in competition with one another. you might even challenge one another and see who will reach their climax first aojsjakakakakakmama.
i’m seeing here that you both will discover new things about each other - as in, how y’all like to be touched, exactly where you would like to be touched, at what intensity you would like to be touched and so on. your person will be so attentive to your reactions and emotions, and i see a sense of pleasure rushing through their body every time they see you holding back a moan - because they know that they’ve just activated the right spot.
i just love your energy so much, pile 2. because i’m seeing here that you won’t give them what they want that easily. they might hit the right spot, but you’ll bite back the satisfaction because you don’t want them to know how good they make you feel (playing hard to get, bestie? i’m living for this energy!!😆). the love making might even turn into a competition, seeing who will come first. and you aren’t the type to run away from challenges, but your person knows exactly how to challenge you. GOD I LOVE Y’ALLS ENERGY SO MUCH, YALL HAVE SUCH “PLAYING HARD TO GET” ENERGY BUT AT THE SAME TIME, Y’ALL ARE SO WEAK FOR ONE ANOTHER😩✋🫠.
let me tell you one thing babe, you are going to give in. not because you accepted defeat, but because you love this person so much - you can’t help but accept their affection. at this point, it isn’t a competition anymore, it’s more about knowing how much you guys love one another and how much effort you are willing to put in for one another🥹❤️
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile III ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
OH MY LOVELY GOD I JUST LET OUT THE GASPIEST GASP EVER😃😭. PLEASE NO BECAUSE NO ONE CAN DO IT LIKE YOUR PERSON, BESTIE.
YOUR.
PERSON.
IS.
GOING.
TO.
MAKE.
LOVE.
TO.
YOU.
SO.
DEEPLY.
THAT.
YOU.
WONT.
EVEN.
BE.
ABLE.
TO.
THINK.
STRAIGHT.
sorry to be dramatic, but i had to write it word for word because i want you to register the HEAVINESS they carry. their passion is so strong, they’re gonna make you sweat all night, babe. like it’s not even funny😭. your cards got me giggling hehehe🤭🥹.
your person knows what they want, and they know exactly how to make you feel good. i hear them saying, “nuh-uh, you don’t even have to utter a word, sweetheart. i got you,” AND THEN THEY'RE FLIPPING YOU ON YOUR STOMACH AND PINNING YOU DOWNNNNN. BYE IM GONNA BE RIGHT BACK🫣 YALL TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED. (this is literally me right now - 🏃♀️💨🚶♀️🕺🕴️👩🦽)
you’re going to reach your climax more than ten times and your person will STILL not be done. how much energy do they have in them - THIS IS INSANE😩😭✋. “you’re done only when i TELL you you’re done,” is what i hear them saying. you’re overstimulated? well, you gotta handle it. they’re still not satisfied. they will please you over and over again, you might even beg them to stop - but a part of you still wants them to keep going. i- um okay pile 3 I SEE YOU FREAKY LIKE DAT JDBAJAJAKAKAKAKK.
your person has this animalistic side to themselves, a side that cannot be controlled no matter what. they want to see you reach climax more than 15 times? they’ll make sure that they fulfill that desire. they want to eat you out till you beg them to stop because you’re shivering with pleasure? they’ll make sure to fulfil that desire. they want to see you all miserable and begging for more? they’ll make sure you do that. LIKE GAHDAMN, TWO FREAKS IN THE SHEETS. MIGHT JUST END THE READING HERE AND LET YALL BE. ansnakakakakdndn just kidding bestie, we’re only getting started🤭 😉.
your person is rough, fast and enjoys hardcore love making. i’m talking, “i’m going to make love to you for hours and you’re just gonna take me like an obedient girl/boy,” typa energy. AHAHAHAHAHAHA IM SCREAMING INTERNALLY!!!!! SOMEONE TAME THEM😭. your person doesn’t believe in quickies. they want to make love to you for LONG HOURS and they don’t care if you’re exhausted. they’re literally gonna feed you good food in between and then ask if you’re ready for another round. LIKE AHEM AHEM SIR/MA’AM, PLEASE GIVE MY BESTIE HERE A BREAK. I BEG YOU✋😃.
your first intimate moment with your person on your wedding night is going to go on for HOURS. they’re going to make love to you till the sun comes up - oh, AND THEY STILL WONT BE DONE. but what i love most about your person is that they will take such good care of you in between. they’ll make sure you’re comfortable and you’re feeling safe - this just warms my heart🥹❤️. but this caring nature won’t hide the fact that they’re a literal beast in the sheets. like i’m still so concerned about how they have so much energy??? like??!? and i’m also seeing here that every time you climax, they’re going to take a step back and admire the beautiful mess you’ve made. its almost like they’re so proud of what they’ve achieved. ohhhhhh girllllll your person KNOWS you. they know your weak spots, where you like to be touched, how you like to be touched, at what pressure you like to be touched - like your person knows knows you. ugh bestie, you’re blessed😩. your person is literally NAWT gonna stop until they’re satisfied at how much of a pretty mess they’ve made you.
they also have such a great balance between taking care of you during your love making session and also f*uc*ing your BRAINS OUT. i see your eyes rolling back in pleasure more than once and let’s be honest babe, you love it. you love how much energy they have and how much effort they’re putting in. you love how they’re making you feel like a complete mess….but you’re their complete mess. i literally see a smile spreading on your face anytime your person wants to try a new position. AHANANAQKAQ IM ROOTING FOR YOU BESTIE😚🙌💕. your person is literally going to fulfill your deepest desires and your kinks.
im seeing here that your person will love changing positions in between - like they’re going to do it A LOT. they would be on top of you, increasing their rhythm and deeply thrusting against you, but when they suddenly feel you reaching your climax, they’re going to flip you on your stomach and change the position and increase the pace of their rhythm even more. and once you’ve finally reached your climax, they’re going to take a step back and admire you - a sly grin appearing on their face because this is just the start.
your person is very very dominant, and they love having control over you. they want to see you submit and give yourself to them. you’re literally going to see visions when they’re making love to you - like you’re going to reach THAT level of ecstasy. the line between what’s happening and how you’re feeling is going to be blurred, because your person won’t even give you a moment to register how much they’ve made you come. and even if you want a break, there WILL be conditions. they’ll let you rest for 15 minutes, but then they’ll come up with a rule that they HAVE to make love to you for the next 30 minutes. good lord, thinking about this makes me sweat. what does your person eat? how do they even have so much stamina 😭😭.
i’m also seeing here that your person will admire your back a lot. they’re also a huge fan of biting and leaving love bites. they also love smacking your bottom and they love grabbing you from the back - like your hips, your tummy, your breasts, your hair and so on (they’re also a huge fan of dog*gy style). your person is so rough, but they’re rough in the most sweetest and sexiest way.
hiii loves🫶 i hope this reading finds you in good health, and i hope you are doing well. i missed doing 18+ readings, and i’m so glad i could do this reading!! i absolutely enjoyed this reading and i hope you do too!!<3 i swear to god, i was literally biting back a smile while doing this reading because ITS SO CUTE AJSJWJAAKKAKKAA. i would be so glad if you could like my post and re-blog it, and please let me know which pile you picked - i would love to hear your thoughts and know if this reading resonated with you!! take care of yourself, and i will see you in my next reading. thank you for being here☺️❤️
(note - tarot & oracle cards provide guidance and possible insights into what could happen based on current energies, thoughts, feelings and actions. the cards can highlight potential paths or outcomes, but they do not predict the future in a fixed way. this is a general reading so take what resonates!)
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Pick a Card- ~How Will Your Future Spouse Care For You~
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Pile 1
Your future spouse is gifted with the talent of saying the right things at the right moments. If your love language is words of affirmation, then you're in the right spot. This person will give you constant reassurance, "you're beautiful", "you're perfect as you are" there's nothing to worry about when you're with them, they will never make you feel less than because of what you perceive as your own 'flaws'. Your future spouse could speak a different language than you. Them or you might be into giving handmade cards and gifts. Sentimental gifts have more value to them than something store bought, definitely.
Your fs is someone who wants to care for you in a way that's loud and proud, they might be very into making food or feeding you. This person is giving me really homemaker vibes. If you fall sick they'd love to keep you in a state of constant rest, doing all the chores round the house and cooking for you to bring you relief. This person knows how to manage stress. The way they will care for you will come to them without you having to ever spell out what you need, this person will just know. Lots of drinks in this spread, you two might enjoy drinking quite a lot. They will work hard to ensure no aspect of your life gets messy, their care is very intuitive and soft, they'll nurture your soul.
Pile 2
A bit sad, this pile. I'll tell you why. From the picture something came to mind, a game I play daily, and the story takes place in a similar setting such as this picture. The girl in the game has to die eventually, leaving her immortal counterpart behind, it's just overall very sad. You and your fs could have had a very unfortunate past life where you had to be separated from this person. You've loved each other before, but you two were not together. Something separated you. When you come together, your story will continue just where you left it off.
Your fs will show their care for you in bed, oh well. This person has a silver tongue and they'd definitely be into dirty talking. I'm not even doing NSFW I don't know why this came up but okay I guess. This person is wise, calm. If you're in a problem, they'll give you solutions. Their calm disposition will allow you to rest, to take off the burdens on your soul- be it from dealing with stress of work, family, or anything else- they'll be prepared to lessen your load anytime. They have a very intellectual personality, and they're very very smart. Their care for you will be practical, you show up with problems and they will show up with solutions. If you're sick, they'll handle your tasks for you. If you are upset, they will uhm f-ck the sadness out of you. They'll remember your appointments, your needs, and they'll provide you with the exact care you need. They're very mindful.
Pile 3
You might have a cat, or your fs might. Some of you might have white hair, or a few white strands that bother you haha idk why I got that. You and your fs will definitely have children. Even if you're against kids right now when you meet this person, they'll change your mind. I think something about this person will make you want to settle down and have an actual family, leave a legacy on earth, a mixture of you two to live on when you both pass away. The way they'll care for you is very sweet. They are your soulmate and they'll let you know of it. This person sees you as the ultimate prize, and they will worship the ground you walk on. They'll nurture your sweet nature, and they'll provide you with comfort and luxury. You might actually be someone who likes the idea of being a stay at home mom, either way this person is a provider. They'll never leave you wanting. Their care is shown through monetary ways, they'll buy you anything and everything you want. They'll make you feel pretty and powerful just by being you. The way they'll gaze into your eyes will make you giddy like a teenager with a crush. Bye. Why is this pile so stinking cute. You may have a few arguments with this person but their care for you will bleed through their demeanour, even when you fight they'll remain ever the picture of patient restraint. This person has massive self control. They maybe have had a past of being someone very angry but they've worked and they know that to keep you they must keep themselves in control. Ultimately the empress came up twice so what else can I say, you're this person's personal goddess, they'll care for you any way they know how to.
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Pile 1
You're Anxious and very impatient about something right now. You're probably waiting for something in particular to happen, and you can hardly wait. A major chapter has closed off in your life and you're going to begin a new one. You know it, that's why you're excited and impatient. But I also sense a lingering melancholy, you're thinking back to everything you've gone through to reach this moment right here, it took a lot but you did it, and this new chapter is all yours.
This new chapter in your life brings total independence and self reliance. You're going to be abundant and successful, people who look at you will envy you. But they won't know the tough times you've left behind, the competition you had to get through, the long hours you had to work, the overall anxiety underneath it all that left you feeling like maybe it won't work out after all. It did. It did, and good times await all your hard labour. You might become a bit stingy with your time, space, and affections in the upcoming days. Your energy is valuable and you will hoard it. However, there is someone new coming into your life romantically, and you cannot avoid them (although the cards tell me you want to). This person is your ideal type, pretty much everything you've ever wanted and more — they will bring to your life. But you're more interested in what they can offer you long term, you're not one to jump into relationships. Advice from your guides: the worst part of your life is over. It only gets better from here on. It might be hard to believe, but one day you'll look back and see how far you've come and thank yourself for not giving up. Your guides are with you, and you will have everything you ever wanted and more.
Pile 2
You might be experimenting with new things. Things that have to do with beauty, aesthetics. I see venusian charm and quality here. New makeup, new styles, renovating the house, your hair, trying new artstyles, new hobbies. Maybe there's a lipstick shade you've fallen in love with recently. You might like trendy songs!
I've never seen a reading this straight forward LMAO. You recently entered a new relationship or talking stage with someone who has immense potential. You've either already taken the leap with this person or you're hoping to pursue a serious relationship. The chemistry is off the charts and there is a potential for something solid to result from this union. You may have met them through work, or studies somehow. Hm, contradicting person. The nature of your relationship might be a very push-and-pull kind. You're the one actively withdrawing and going quiet on this person because you don't wish to repeat your past mistakes. You're being cautious. The pacing of this relationship might have taken you off guard. Maybe you weren't expecting anything and then bam the chemistry was so good you couldn't help but feel the attraction towards them. Messages from your guides: this person is meant for you. No sugarcoating really. The universe put this person in your path because they are meant for you. This person might be very charming, bold, a leader. Fire signs are prominent - sag, leo, aries. You cannot run away from this lesson, and you cannot avoid it. Embrace the love this person offers you, you're meant to have this connection in your lifetime.
Pile 3
I switched to your pile and immediately started coughing. I don't even have a cold! Some of you might have caught a summer flu or something. Like the photo, drink warm things, keep yourself warm. You may have a desk job, or a 9 to 5. I am seeing US for some reason. You might be sleepy right now. You're waiting for some kind of news. It will come in 3 days or 3 weeks or 3 months from now. It will come, so don't worry so much. You might be feeling a bit apathetic right now and closed off from everyone else. Because your energy and mind are so focused on whatever it is that you want to materialize in your life you're not really open to anything else. You might be interested in Alchemy. Someone here is a chemist, or loves chemistry. I'm seeing industrial chemicals, fuel, smoke, acid. Very random. Shells. Pearls.
Yes, you're very closed off. You're fiery in nature, fire signs are prominent, you're magnetic, charming but right now you're kind of burnt out and are keeping to yourself. You don't want to go out and put yourself out there, you want to balance yourself, pace yourself. You might be looking at your life from a different angle and wondering about things. A lot of introspection is going on. Advice from your guides is for you to embrace transformation. There's an older empathetic male in your life that seems like he gives everyone the slack except for you, with your he's cold, argumentative or downright savage. Don't worry about him, your guides are saying. You're undergoing a deep transformation right now, and you're right at the edge of it. It's going to be over soon, and you'll emerge brand new. The last stretch before the brand new beginning is always the hardest. Take care, pile 3.
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Pick a pile: Why do you forbid yourself from enjoying life's simple pleasures?
Pile 1: 5 of wands, king of wands and 8 of wands.
You forbid yourself from enjoying life because you've turned it into a constant competition, and you're too busy rushing toward the next goal. You confuse "doing things" with "living."
Because of your experiences, you're likely addicted to hyper-productivity and conflict. Your mind mistakenly believes that if you sit down to contemplate the scenery, you're wasting time, losing control, or falling behind in a race you've created for yourself. You don't have to arrive before anyone else, and sometimes the journey is more important than the destination.
Your daily life is a constant struggle, arguments, competition, or stress to prove you're the best. Your mind is always in "survival" or "fight" mode. Do you remember going to the movies just to entertain yourself? Or going to the beach just to dip your toes in the water and feel the cold water on your skin? There are simple things in life that make it worthwhile to be alive. And these often don't depend on money, other people's opinions, or noise. They simply depend on knowing how to be in the present moment.
In the modern world, we have overstimulation: the phone that never stops ringing, fast-paced videos, the need for everything to happen instantly. In this cycle of rapid consumption, you deny yourself simple pleasures because they require slowness. A sunset, a good conversation, or a delicious meal… Believe me, the world isn't going to end if you don't answer that call today. You need to use your inner fire to ignite your presence, not your productivity.
Pile 2: King of cups, the emperor and 7 of swords.
You simply forbid yourself from enjoying the simple things because you're obsessed with controlling your emotions and your surroundings. You believe that if you give in to pleasure, you'll fall into chaos or illusion. You're afraid of vulnerability and losing control.
You've built such a rigid armor of maturity and stability that you confuse joy with weakness. You believe that if you relax, your structured world will crumble. Unfortunately, in today's world, it's normal to suppress your own desires. We're led to believe from a very young age that indulging in what we want is pampering ourselves, and that's not always the case. In your case, you've learned to numb your enthusiasm or your desire to play so that no one sees your emotional cracks. But let me remind you of a quote from Rumi: "The wound is where the light enters." Those cracks make you real, and people love us for our cracks, not for our perfection.
For you, enjoyment is only valid if it's planned. You don't allow yourself spontaneity. If a pleasure has no practical use or logical benefit for your "kingdom"—your work, your home, or your goals—you define it as a "waste of time" and forbid it. But in fact, by forbidding it, all you're doing is wasting your life's time. One day you will die, and all you'll take with you is what you've experienced. If you've only built an empire but haven't enjoyed it… will your life have had any meaning?
It seems you're afraid of losing your way. You believe that if you allow yourself to enjoy yourself a little, you'll become lazy, lose your discipline, or get hooked on illusions that distract you from reality. You prefer the rigidity of stone to the risk of floating. But it won't be like that. You are a hard worker; if you weren't, you wouldn't have been able to build yourself up the way you are. You deserve to enjoy yourself. Balance is your greatest and best lesson.
Pile 3: page of pentacles, the star and ace of swords.
I'm going to give you a piece of my mind, I'm sorry, but I find it intolerable. You forbid yourself from enjoying the simple things because you're waiting for the "perfect" moment in the future, and you struggle to see that the real magic is already happening in the small seeds of your present.
You forbid yourself from enjoying life because you live in tomorrow. You're so focused on healing, on your grand ideals, or on finding absolute truth that you walk with your head in the clouds, forgetting to feel the ground beneath your feet. You forbid yourself from enjoying life because you feel that "you're still just starting out," that "you haven't had enough yet," or that you're too young to indulge in luxuries. Japanese wisdom tells you: enjoy being a learner; don't wait to be a master to start enjoying life. Because when you learn, if you don't enjoy it, you don't truly learn.
You have a context of blocked enjoyment that speaks of a person living in a utopia. You think you can only enjoy simple pleasures when you're "completely healed," when you "find your ideal purpose," or when everything is perfect. You pour your emotional water into the future, leaving your present dry. It's as if you need to have everything figured out to start living, and that's not exactly how it works.
It's as you begin to live, to enjoy, and to connect with everything that you discover the true essence of your purpose.
A Stray Kids one shot (requested by @stephanieeeyang. Tysm!)
Synopsis: Why just one when you can have both? And both are just as down bad as you are for them. Alexa, play "Same damn time".
Warnings: SMUT 🔞 after some plot. Uni AU. A pinch of tension. Unprotected sex. Pure FLITH. 3some (first time writing this), double penetration, drunk confessions, mentions of alcohol , dirty talk, rough & gentle HyunChan, cursing, creampie, oral (f recieving), multiple orgasms, rounds, praises, degradation, aftercare, name calling, pet names.
Minors do not interact!!!
Note: Everytime I write something I always think to myself, "This can't get any filthier." I'm always fucking wrong LMFAO. Some things mentioned might seem unrealistic(?), but again, this is fiction. And the story was sent by this ask.
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The city buzzed under your feet, somewhere between excitement and the nightlife. The usual gang—the guys and you—walked together, heading to a late dinner after an afternoon of wandering through art galleries and overpriced thrift shops.
However, you stayed somewhere near the back, not because you didn’t want to walk with them, but because he was up front—Bang Chan, with his sun-warmed smile and easy laugh, chatting with the guys like he wasn’t unknowingly the reason you kept stealing glances.
The cold breeze brushed past your skin, making a few strands of hair fly over your face, you pulled your jacked tighter over you, releasing a slow breath through your nose but your eyes still wandering towards that one certain curly haired boy you just couldn't resist as much as you tried.
You’d liked him for a while now safe to say but quietly. Hopelessly.
"Walk with your brain elsewhere, you're for sure to crash into a pole."
You flinched hard at the sound of that deep, rich voice, as if someone poured a cold bucket of ice on you, jerking you away from your thoughts.
You turned to see Hyunjin casually walking along with you, his hands slipped into the pockets of his pants, that smug smirk tugging the corner of his lips.
"I was walking fine," you muttered, rolling your eyes at him, turning your focus back to the street, following the guys, glancing around at the nightlife.
"Hmm," Hyunjin hummed, his gaze still on you from the corners of his eyes but walking nonchalantly, his height itself a distraction.
Goodness as if one man hasn't already taken over your thoughts. But...it's not wrong to like two men at once right?
"Well, it's not like you're dating Chan anyway."
The voice in the back of your mind said, when another intervened, "What happened to loyalty?'
Shut up.
You muttered that louder than intended, making Hyunjin arch a brow at you.
"Sorry I—" you stuttered. Gosh girl you're an embarrassment aren't you?
The voices in your head just wouldn't shut up.
"These guys are just walking this far for no reason." Hyunjin said, looking straight at Jisung and Felix who were already arguing about the menu, then halted suddenly.
"Wanna take a shortcut with me?" He asked, cocking his head to a sketchy looking alley.
One look down the alley and it was clear, it was dimly lit, tucked between a department store and some old boutique hotel, and absolutely not where the rest of the group was headed.
You hesitated.
But Hyunjin just stood there, hands still in his pockets, watching you with a lazy, almost amused curiosity.
“C’mon,” he said, his voice low, the kind that vibrated through your spine instead of your ears. “It loops back to the main street. I’ve taken it before.”
You looked up the sidewalk. Chan was still walking ahead, shoulders bouncing lightly as he laughed at something Changbin said. He didn’t even look back.
You met Hyunjin's gaze and before your brain protested, you were walking into the dimly lit street with him.
He didn't say anything, the world behind you dimmed, swallowed by the narrow corridor and the gentle thud of your boots on the pavement. It was quiet here, save for the hum of a neon hotel sign and the distant honk of a taxi somewhere nearby.
You tucked your hands into your sleeves, feeling the warmth of Hyunjin’s presence just beside you. Neither of you spoke at first. Not until—
“Chris doesn’t know, does he?”
You turned toward him sharply, heart lurching. “Know what?”
Hyunjin chuckled, low and dry. “That you look at him like that.”
Your throat went dry. You opened your mouth to say something then closed it, opened it again before your teeth dug into your bottom lip.
All you had to do was deny it. Just say, "What are you talking about?", but your silence spoke louder than your words could have.
“It’s cute,” Hyunjin added, hands still casually stuffed in his pockets, eyes ahead like he hadn’t just read you like a book. “You think he hasn’t noticed, but trust me. We’re guys. We notice.”
"Hyunjin," you warned him, unsure what you were warning him against.
How can your heart long for two guys at once? It felt wrong but well Cupid's been feeling bored apparently so you're his victim this time.
Your pulse picked up. You didn’t like where this was going—until Hyunjin's earlier words hit—"Walk with your brain elsewhere, you're for sure to crash into a pole."
Then suddenly, a cart, metal, greasy and loud came rolling out of nowhere from a side garage. You didn’t even see it in time. One second you were walking calmly with your thoughts elsewhere with Hyunjin, the next you stumbled sideways, heart shooting into your throat as the cart clipped your boot.
You braced to fall—Oh god, oh god—
—but Hyunjin caught you.
His arms slipped around your waist just in time, holding you just inches from the cold pavement. You clutched at his chest for balance, your faces close— way too close.
You could feel his breath on your cheek, see the faint mole under his eye, watch the amusement in his eyes flicker into something deeper. His fingers didn’t move. His hold didn’t loosen.
"Thanks." You let out a laugh. Nervous. Short. He didn’t laugh.
“You okay?” he murmured, voice softer now, lower. You nodded, but your eyes hadn’t moved from his. Neither had his from yours.
His fingers brushed a strand of hair away from your face, the fingertips tracing a line on your jaw as the thumb touched your bottom lip.
You swallowed hard, unable to tear your gaze away from his sculptured features and those killing eyes that looked straight into your soul.
Hyunjin leaned in and your breath caught.
His hand slid to the small of your back, his forehead brushing yours—and your brain screamed Chan, no, yes, what are you doing—
You turned your head, just in time.
“Wait,” you breathed out. “You’re… aren’t you with Jiwoo or something?”
His lips barely halted. His brow twitched in mild irritation, like he’d been pulled from a trance. Then he huffed a laugh. “Jiwoo? God no. I don’t know why everyone thinks that.”
He pulled back, just slightly. His hands were still on you. You could still feel where he’d held you.
And suddenly, you weren’t thinking about Chan. You were thinking about Hyunjin’s lips and how close they were. How soft he looked. How sharp he felt.
Your hands pressed on his chest, you could have sworn you felt his heart thudding behind his ribcage. You licked your lips before they parted, as if you invited him yourself.
You kissed him.
It was warm. Deep. Pillow-soft with the kind of careful hunger that left you gasping for air. He tasted like cinnamon gum and the thrill of a bad idea.
And you broke it first.
“We can’t,” you whispered, wiping your lips. “We'll get caught.”
"No one is going to catch us baby," he said lowly before capturing your lips again this time, half harshly half gently, slipping his tongue past yours, angling your head to let himself get more access.
Your hands fisted his hoodie, not stopping him, pressing your body against him, not knowing the world was blurring around you and not knowing a pair of familiar eyes witnessed something you wish they didn't.
You could feel every line of him against you—his warmth, his breath, his hunger. But suddenly… you felt cold.
Like being watched. You pulled away. Hyunjin opened his eyes slowly, like he’d just woken from a dream. “Why’d you stop?” he whispered, still close enough for your noses to brush.
You glanced at the entrance of the alle, hoping to catch someone, but that feeling of being watched disappeared as quickly as it formed.
"We should go," you said, your voice quieter than you meant, barely audible over the faint city hum.
Hyunjin looked at you, his jaw slackening just a little as he took in the shift, the sudden cold behind your eyes. His gaze searched yours for something, maybe permission to keep going, maybe an explanation… but you were already turning away.
“Yeah,” he muttered, clearing his throat as he followed behind.
Eventually you made it to the restaurant, right on time before they all entered, almost nobody had noticed your brief disappearance.
You tried to play it cool and went close to Felix and Han, politely starting a conversation with them to get away, to distract your mind from two guys who had your brain lagging.
You didn’t look at Hyunjin, didn't dare to, but you felt him. The weight of his gaze. The silent question in it.
He took a seat two chairs down, next to Changbin, his jaw clenched and tongue pressed to the inside of his cheek as he dropped into the chair a little harder than necessary.
Then Chan, who was looking at you but wasn’t smiling. His brows weren’t furrowed in anger, either. No, his expression was calm. Too calm.
His gaze was steady and unreadable, but just behind his soft brown irises, there was something hollow.
Your gut feeling of being watched was right. He did see you. But your mind was way too fogged with the remnants of the kiss and chatter of the guys around you to ask how.
The conversation at the table rose and dipped around you like waves, but you were drowning in it, barely able to answer Han when he asked if you were going to share dessert later.
Hyunjin hadn’t said a word.
Chan hadn’t looked at you again.
So you sat there, between the two boys you couldn’t stop thinking about, pretending like your heart wasn’t wrecked over both of them in different, equally devastating ways.
~
The week after the dinner passed by in a blur, mostly because you distracted yourself with assignments, classes and the gym.
At the beginning it seemed fun that you shared a few classes with guys but now after the tension rising between you, Chan and Hyunjin at the restaurant that night, you cursed the universe for putting the three of you in the same class.
And for making your professor group you into working together for a project.
"I'll do my part and text you when I'm done," Hyunjin said, typing away on his phone, not bothering to look up at you or Chan, before he walked out of the classroom.
Your heart sank like someone had thrown it in the ocean tied to a stone.
You could hear the quiet shuffle of his bag, the creak of his chair, and the sound of your own breath as you avoided his eyes and stacked your notes with trembling fingers.
“I can drop you home,” he said after a beat. His voice was gentle, casual, too casual for how it curled under your skin and made your stomach flip.
You looked at Chan, feeling tired to protest so you gently nodded, smiling, walking along with him outside the class towards the parking lot.
The car ride was quiet. Rain drizzled lightly outside, streaking across the windshield as city lights blurred into soft golds and reds.
You sat stiffly in the passenger seat, fiddling with the strap of your bag, acutely aware of the space between you.
Chan had one hand on the wheel, the other drumming absentmindedly against his thigh, and his jaw was set like he was chewing back something.
You wondered if he was avoiding your eyes because he didn’t want you to see what they’d say. Or maybe, you were the one who wasn’t ready to listen.
You finally broke. “Are you alright?”
Chan didn’t answer right away. His eyes remained fixed on the road. Then he muttered, "I am."
Your heart sank deeper, so many emotions raging inside your body, you wanted to scream, to run away, to cry? You didn't know, it just felt overwhelming.
"Why are you being cold?" You asked gently, your voice almost blended with the sound of the quiet engine.
He didn’t answer at first.
The only sound in the car was the rhythmic swipe of the windshield wipers and the hum of the tires gliding along the wet asphalt.
His jaw flexed once. Twice. Then he exhaled, like he’d been holding something in for far too long.
“I’m not,” he said finally, but it was the kind of answer someone gave when they didn’t want to explain the storm behind it.
“Yes, you are,” you whispered. “You haven’t looked at me the same since—”
"I'm just tired, okay? That's it." His tone was sharp but it felt cruel, a sound you never heard from him and that sliced your heart into shreds.
You weren’t sure what hurt more—the sharpness of his voice, or the fact that he couldn’t even look at you when he said it.
"Oh," you said finally, your voice so small you weren’t sure if it was even audible over the low hum of the car.
Chan rubbed a hand over his face, breathing out slowly like he regretted the way it came out but didn’t know how to take it back. His eyes stayed forward, watching the rain trickle down the windshield in lazy streaks.
“I didn’t mean that,” he muttered, but it sounded forced.
"You don’t have to lie, you know," you said quietly, almost to the window instead of him. "If you’re mad at me, just be mad."
"I’m not mad." His grip tightened on the steering wheel.
You looked at him, at the way his lashes cast soft shadows over his cheek, the way his lips pressed into a flat, unreadable line.
You felt your heart drop. Like the air had left the car completely. Your fingernails bit into your palms as you stared down at your lap, fighting the sting in your eyes.
He finally reached your apartment. The car rolled to a slow stop in front of your building, headlights casting pale yellow light across the front step. You undid your seatbelt quietly, the soft click almost deafening in the silence between you.
You didn’t move to get out. Neither did he.Your hand hovered near the door handle, and then...paused. You looked at him again, giving him a small, broken smile and opened the door.
The cold night air rushed in. You stepped out.
"Thanks for the ride." You didn’t look back when you closed the door. Didn’t see the way Chan stared at the empty passenger seat long after you disappeared behind your building door.
He never told you he saw.
And maybe that was the part that would haunt you most.
~
"Yeah, he said the flight is..." The corridor was buzzing with the sound of students walking past each other, conversations and then morning rush filling the air.
You made it to uni looking like you had quite a night—swollen lips, puffy eyes, pink cheeks.
Have you been crying all night? Yes.
As you turned the corner into the open student lounge area, your steps faltered. There they were. Chan and Hyunjin.
Leaning casually against the vending machine counter, steaming takeout coffees in hand, mid-conversation like nothing was wrong.
Like your heart hadn’t been flipped, twisted, wrung out over and over for the past week.
Chan laughed softly at something Hyunjin said, his dimple flashing faintly as he sipped his coffee. Hyunjin, was in his usual oversized bomber, leaned back on his elbows, head tilted with that same relaxed charm he always carried.
Their eyes flicked up. Both pairs met yours.
You just stood there, half asleep, your hand clutching the strap of your bag, the hood and a few strands of hair covering your face.
"What happened to you?" Hyunjin asked, masking a playful teasing tone that felt distantly familiar. You arched an eyebrow at him then rolled your eyes, taking in a deep breath.
"Just spent the night finishing my part of the project. We can hand it in today."
You said, trying your best to hide the fact that you had been crying over two guys that drove you to insanity but they were here, sipping coffee like it was another normal day.
It was a normal day. Your hormones are well—when are the hormones ever kind right?
Hyunjin blinked at your response, the corners of his mouth twitching up in a lazy smirk. “Damn,” he said, drawing out the word as he took another sip of coffee.
“And here I was thinking you just decided to cry over us.” Your heart stopped, your breath catching in your throat you almost choked on it.
You huffed a dry laugh, brushing past it. “Sorry to disappoint.”
Chan didn’t say anything. Not at first. He was looking at the floor, his cup halfway to his lips, taking another sip.
Then he looked back at Hyunjin and said, "We should celebrate. We’re finally done with that damn thing."
Your brows lifted in surprise.
Hyunjin turned toward Chan, a brow arched, almost as if he was waiting for him to say more, but when he didn’t, Hyunjin grinned and shrugged. "Yeah. Our place tonight?"
You hesitated. For a second, no longer than a breath.
Your gut screamed: don’t do it.
Your heart whispered: go.
“Sure,” you said. “If there’s snacks.”
Chan gave a breath of a laugh. “I’ll get them.”
You hated how it made your chest flutter. You hated how effortlessly he could undo you.
"Come after seven," Hyunjin added, tapping his phone screen, already texting something you assumed was details or some silly group chat. "Don’t be late."
And just like that, the conversation moved on. They resumed their back-and-forth about professors, and why Minho had ghosted the group chat again.
But you… you stayed quiet. Your head was already spiraling. Because tonight, you were going to walk into their apartment, their space. After everything.
After the kiss.
After the silence.
***
The TV played some nameless reality show, the table spread out with Chinese takeout and Soju.
Thank god tomorrow is a Saturday.
You had finished your share of noodles, accompanied with a few dumplings and a pudding, and now your mind was all groggy after a few sips of alcohol.
Your alcohol tolerance was quite low, so even just a few shots of soju was enough to have you tipsy.
The half cold, half bitter liquid ran down your throat as you chugged it down mixed with coke, your chest heaving in a loud breath.
Chan glanced at you then at Hyunjin who was watching you concerned. Chan leaned forward, taking the glass away from you and pushing the alcohol bottles back.
"That's enough," he said, his voice almost like it was floating past your head. "You've drank a lot."
You tried to open your eyes to look at him, but they struggled and you smiled lazily, blinking slowly.
"I only had one si—sip," you hiccuped, sounding like you weren't tipsy but actually drunk.
Hyunjin moved first. He rose from his spot beside the coffee table, his long fingers curling gently around your wrist as he crouched beside you. His touch was careful, almost hesitant—like you were fragile, and one wrong move would shatter you completely.
“Here,” he said quietly, holding a glass of water out to you. You blinked at him again, unfocused and soft, but your fingers reached for the glass. Your hand barely wrapped around it before he helped you lift it to your lips.
The water felt cool, grounding, but it did nothing to stop the heat prickling beneath your skin. The one brought on not by the soju, but by them.
Hyunjin's eyes didn’t leave your face as you took a few sips. Neither did Chan’s. You could feel his stare, burning into your side like a silent question.
“Good girl,” Hyunjin muttered under his breath, almost as if he didn’t mean to say it out loud.
The words slid over you like silk.
“Thaaank youuu,” you whispered with a lopsided smile, letting out a small breath as Hyunjin set the glass down.
Your head leaned slightly toward him like your body was betraying the secret you had shoved deep down all week.
His hand came up to steady you, fingers brushing your jaw as your eyelids fluttered shut for a moment.
"Careful," Chan said, still watching, voice tight.
You turned your head slowly toward Chan, eyes hooded and lips parted, your voice a whisper, not from nerves, but from truth.
"I want both of you."
The room went still.
The TV still played in the background, the sound of someone crying over burnt rice or a missed love confession. But here, in this dimly lit apartment, it was like time hit pause.
Hyunjin froze, his body supporting your lazy form, laying on the side of his chest.
Chan stared, his lips parted slightly, brows drawing together like he was trying to figure out if he heard you right or if it was just the alcohol talking.
But you didn’t stop talking.
"I want you both. At the same time," you repeated, slower this time, the words tasting like warmth and shame and something heavier, like relief.
"Hyunjin…" you turned toward him. "You kissed me like you meant it."
Then to Chan. "But you…Chan...God, you look at me like you already know how I fall apart."
Neither of them said a word. Just stared at each other then at you, your half limp body laid on Hyunjin.
"Sweetheart," Chan started softly, like he was talking to a child, "You've had too much, you need to rest."
"But I haven't!" You squeaked, lifting your body up and falling into Chan's arms who caught you with a blink of an eye, arms strong and steady.
"I tried not to ruin things. I tried to choose. But—but the truth is…I—I don’t want to."
Your face pressed to his chest, your fingers tangled in the soft fabric of his shirt, and his scent wrapped around you like a sigh.
Chan’s jaw tensed above you, but he didn’t say anything. His hand just rubbed slow, reassuring circles over your back.
Hyunjin looked at the two of you, his heart clenching with something so painfully close to possessiveness, but he kept his guard down, only focusing on your words that kept slipping out.
"I...I ruined us didn't I...?" You slurred, half sleepy, half drunk, turning to see Hyunjin through your hazy vision.
There was silence. Not the kind that hurts but the kind that listens.
"No baby," Hyunjin's hand cupped your cheek, his eyes were impossibly soft, "You didn't ruin anything." He whispered.
You leaned into Hyunjin's hand, your body sagging onto Chan's, taking a slow deep breath as your eyes fluttered close then opened.
"I want you both so...so...bad."
Chan exhaled slowly, his breath warming your temple. "You’re drunk, sweetheart," he murmured again, softer this time. "We’re not going to take advantage of that."
Your chest squeezed painfully at his words, because of course he was right. Of course he would be the one to stay grounded when your world was spinning.
You could feel Hyunjin watching, but you didn’t have the courage to meet his eyes again.
"But I need, hmmf," you tilted your head up, slightly enough to meet Chan's gaze.
"You...and..," you looked at Hyunjin, "...and you..."
Your finger lifted clumsily between them both, like a declaration with no rules, no permission asked. Hyunjin leaned forward slowly, as if every inch toward you cost him restraint.
His hand, still cupping your cheek, brushed his thumb gently beneath your eye. "You’re not thinking clearly right now, angel," he said, voice tender. “You don’t know what you’re asking.”
But you did.
"I do,” you murmured, softer now, eyes glistening, your lips barely moving. "I like how you," you gazed up at Chan again, "how you keep me so safe and make me feel loved and," you met Hyunjin's face, "how you want to kill anyone who gets or is too close to me..."
Chan looked at Hyunjin. Hyunjin looked at Chan.
It wasn’t a stare of rivalry, it was something heavier. Like they were silently measuring each other’s resolve. Respect. History. And the girl resting in Chan’s arms like she belonged there, yet aching for Hyunjin’s touch like she needed that too.
Chan sighed through his nose, his large hand soothing up and down your back. “You’re drunk, baby. You’re saying what your heart wants, but your body can’t keep up with it tonight.”
“I can,” you mumbled, but your limbs betrayed you, barely holding their shape anymore, going soft against him like putty.
Hyunjin chuckled at your stubbornness, brushing the hair away from your temple. "No, you can’t and that’s okay."
There was no sarcasm in his tone. No teasing.
Only care. Only longing.
And the bitter sweetness of holding back.
Chan shifted slightly beneath you, readjusting your weight so he could cradle you better. “You’re going to sleep in my bed tonight. We’ll be here when you wake up. Nothing more.”
“But—”
“No buts.” He pressed a kiss to the crown of your head. “We heard you. Every word.”
Hyunjin stood up, walking over to open the door to Chan's bedroom and Chan slowly stood up as well, carrying you in his arms and this time your body fully gave up.
Chan gently laid you on the mattress and Hyunjin pulled the sheets over you, turning on the AC, the both of them watching the rise and fall of your chest, the soft curve of your hand curled against the pillow, your lips parted like you’d fallen asleep mid-sentence.
They walked out of his bedroom, in dreadful silence, closing the door gently behind them.
"She meant it," Hyunjin said quietly, voice low.
"I know," Chan replied. "The moment I saw you kiss her."
Hyunjin stiffened slightly. "You think I didn’t know?" Chan gave a sad smile, shaking his head. "I knew already. And I didn’t stop it, either."
Hyunjin looked down. "Because you like her too."
"Yeah,” Chan breathed out, fingers curling into a gentle fist. "And I think… I think she loves us both."
There was a pause, heavy with things unsaid. Questions, boundaries, the slow realization that they were both walking the same tightrope.
"…So what do we do now?" Hyunjin finally asked. Chan turned to look at him, serious but soft. "We wait. Let her wake up sober. If she still wants this tomorrow—"
"We give her everything," Hyunjin finished.
Chan nodded once.
And they both meant it.
***
The sheets rustled as you turned, a strangely familiar scent invading your senses as you stirred awake.
Sunlight filtered through pale curtains, casting a soft glow across the unfamiliar space. The scent that lingered in the air was clean laundry, coffee...and them.
You blinked again.
Not your bedroom. The room was bigger, tidier, and a desk pushed up against the wall—books, headphones, hoodies strewn across them in patterns you’d come to recognise far too well. Your heart skipped.
Chan and Hyunjin’s apartment.
"I want both of you."
You sat up sharply, eyes widening.
Memories came crashing back like waves. The confession. The way Chan looked at you—serious, protective. The way Hyunjin touched your face like he was afraid you’d vanish if he blinked. And the heat that simmered between the three of you, ready to boil over.
The door creaked open.
Your head snapped in that direction and then promptly forgot how to function.
There stood Hyunjin in black shorts and tank top that clung just a little too well to his torso, tousled hair falling into his eyes. Behind him came Chan, also dressed in a tank top and shorts, coffee mugs in hand.
He looked warm. Effortlessly devastating.
Hyunjin smirked. “Morning, sleeping beauty.”
Chan chuckled behind him, his voice deep and smooth.
You swallowed hard, feeling a slight pulse in the back of your head. Hyunjin set a tray on the bedside table—toast, and a tiny bowl of strawberries and Chan set the mugs down beside the tray, looking at you.
"Why don't you freshen up?" Chan said softly, "Here," he walked over to his wardrobe and grabbed one of his oversized t-shirts.
Your fingers curled around the fabric Chan handed you—warm, soft, and smelling unmistakably like him. You blinked up at him, your heart caught somewhere between your throat and your stomach.
He wasn’t teasing. Neither of them were.
Hyunjin gave you a faint smile, softer than his usual smirks. “There's a toothbrush in the drawers. Take your time. We’ll be right here.”
You nodded slowly, hugging the tee to your chest as you padded into their bathroom. The moment the door shut, your chest heaved with a quiet breath.
Everything felt real now. No alcohol haze. No what-ifs. Just you—and the two men outside waiting like they’d already decided.
You rinsed your face with cool water, trying to calm the heat under your skin. But even that couldn’t dull the pulse steadily building between your legs. Not when their buff frames had your knees weak.
You slipped out of your clothes and bra, putting on the tee over your head. It fell easily over your frame, soft against your skin, the sleeves a bit too long, the length falling mid thigh.
You didn’t bother with pants. You didn’t want to. When you opened the door again and walked into the bedroom, both of them looked up from where they sat at each edge of the bed.
“I told you,” Hyunjin murmured, tilting his head toward Chan. “She makes it look better than you ever did.”
Chan let out a low hum of agreement, standing. He crossed to you in two easy steps.
“You okay?” Chan asked gently.
You nodded, your throat dry. “Just… feels surreal.”
“Still thinking about last night?” Hyunjin asked, but there was no teasing in his tone this time, just genuine curiosity.
You looked at him, then at Chan, both their eyes were on you. And for the first time, you didn’t feel guilty for wanting both. “I meant when I said it,” you said quietly. “I want you both. I still do.”
A grin painted Chan's face as he kneeled in front of you, his hands sliding slowly up your bare thighs under the tee, “If we do this,” he murmured, “you don’t get to hide from us after. Not emotionally. Not physically.”
“O—okay,” you whispered, your voice slightly shaking.
A shiver ran straight down your spine, your thighs instinctively pressing together, but Chan’s hands were already there, gently parting them again.
You gasped when his thumbs brushed the edge of your panties, feeling just how wet and warm you’d gotten already.
He stood up, placing his hand on the small of your back, guiding you back to the bed. The mattress dipped beneath your weights as you sat down, Hyunjin who was sitting in front of you leaned into your ear.
"That means when we fuck you,” he whispered, “we fuck you like you’re ours. Got it?"
You nodded, swallowing hard as you felt Hyunjin's face brush against your cheek.
“Lay back for us,” Chan said, standing and guiding you gently down onto the bed. “Let us take care of you.”
You laid back slowly, your heart thudding beneath your ribs, nerves dancing under your skin.
The moment your back hit the sheets, Hyunjin’s hands slid up the inside of your thighs with practiced ease, his gaze hooded, hungry—but beneath it, a glint of something warmer.
Chan hovered at your side, his fingertips brushing your cheek as he tucked a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “Breathe, sweetheart,” he whispered, “we’re not going anywhere.”
Hyunjin pushed the tee up, revealing your pink lacy panties, a damp patch clinging onto your pussylips, the musky scent of your arousal driving up his senses.
“So soaked already,” he muttered, voice rough with approval.
He traced his long finger over the fabric, teasing your entrance, making you whimper, the muscles in your thighs tensing under his touch.
"Baby... look at me," Chan tilted your face, making you look into his eyes, his lips brushing over your cheeks, jawline, the corner of your eye before capturing them fully into his mouth.
You moaned softly into him, heat blooming through your stomach, your body exposed beneath their eyes.
Hyunjin's lips brushed over your hip bone, sucking a bruise into your skin, kissing every part of you he uncovered before focusing back on your clothed cunt.
He spread your legs with ease, sliding your panties to the side and pressed his mouth into your pussy, your gasp into Chan's mouth shattered the stillness.
He licked a slow, teasing stripe through your folds, groaning into you like he was starving. The grip on your thighs tightened, keeping you spread open for his mouth while his tongue moved with deliberate pressure.
Your hips bucked, pleasure shooting up your spine. Chan pulled back, leaving your lips swollen and slick from his kisses.
“Good girl,” he murmured, voice like silk and gravel. “So responsive. You like how Hyunjin tastes you, huh?”
You could only nod, breathless, moaning as Hyunjin flattened his tongue and sucked on your clit.
Chan's fingers traced your breasts, circling the buds over his tee till they peaked, making them strain against the fabric, your hips shifted for more friction from below.
"You taste so sweet baby," Hyunjin murmured against your sloppy, went cunt, his chin soaked with your arousal, thrusting his tongue right into making you arch.
"That's it... Let him ruin you baby," Chan praised you, his mouth wrapping around your erect nipple while his free hand pinch and played with the other; God, this felt so good.
Too good.
Both Chan's and Hyunjin's cocks were fighting for freedom behind their shorts, the bulging and the throbbing of it now impossible to ignore.
"I— I need," you cried, your voice cutting short when Hyunjin's fingers slipped in with ease from how wet you were, curling them just right as he hit that spot making your eyes roll to the back of your skull.
Your thighs trembled violently now, muscles twitching under Hyunjin’s grip as he drove his fingers in deeper, tongue working relentlessly over your clit in tight, rhythmic circles.
"Fuck—Hyun," you whimpered, legs instinctively trying to close, but his hands pinned you wide open.
"Stay still, sweetheart," Chan cooed, voice syrup-slick as he leaned in again, capturing your lips, swallowing your moans like he was starving for them. “Let him make you come. You’re almost there, aren’t you?”
You nodded, helplessly grinding down against Hyunjin’s face, chasing the climax that was building like a storm under your skin.
Hyunjin growled low against you, the vibration making you cry out as he licked into you harder, deeper, matching the pace of his fingers.
“She’s dripping,” he mumbled, tongue curling along your folds, "You’re fucking perfect like this."
One of your hands fisted the sheets while the other clung onto Chan's bicep, his fingers now continuing to play with your nipples, after leaving his bruising trail of hickeys, marking himself on your chest.
Chan's hand moved from your breast to stroke your jaw, tilting your face so your teary eyes met his. “That’s it. You’re doing so good for us, baby,” he whispered. “Let go. Give it to him.”
And you did.
The orgasm hit so hard, it shattered you. Your mouth dropped open in a silent scream, back arching clean off the bed, thighs locking around Hyunjin’s head as he kept licking you through it, drawing out every trembling second.
Your body convulsed, hot fat tears sliding down the corners of your eyes as the waves rolled and rolled. Chan held you through it, petting your hair, grounding you, whispering praises you could barely hear over the blood rushing in your ears.
You shook so hard that when Hyunjin pulled back from your pussy, he whimpered at the loss of legging it go, but had to give you time to recover from how much you came.
When your body went slack, Hyunjin leaned up, his eyes wild, meeting Chan’s gaze across your body.
“She’s ready now,” he said, voice rough, pupils blown. Chan’s gaze dropped to you, checking for something—any hesitation—but all he saw was the blissed-out desperation still lingering on your face, your lips parted, chest heaving, legs trembling.
The gentle restraint on Chan's face snapped when his eyes met Hyunjin's with a devilish smirk, he leaned down to press a soft kiss on your forehead before whispering, "This is going to be hard. Fast. Soul crushing and we are going to ruin you."
Your eyes were glassy, every nerve ending in your body on fire as you squealed at Chan's growl. "Tell us or tap on us if it's too much and we will stop, but you better take everything we give you like the good little slut you are."
And that was the last of the gentleness you saw of Chan before he nodded at Hyunjin, removing his tee off of you and flipped you onto your stomach.
The both of them got off the bed, the syncing sound of the clinks of their belts echoing together as they shredded their pants, revealing their now impossibly hard cocks, heavy against their abs, thick and leaking beady drops of pre cum.
You took one look at their sizes and you knew you wouldn't make it out with the ability to walk after today.
You're definitely taking a sick leave for the week.
Hyunjin's hand cupped your face, carnal urges taking over his brain to just fuck you senseless already and Chan moved to the other side, ripping your panties and squeezing the flesh of your ass before giving it a sharp slap! making you gasp.
"Get on your hands and knees," he growled his command, and you did, slowly getting up with your face still in Hyunjin's grasp.
Hyunjin traced his thumb over your bottom lip, pushing it into your mouth, his other hand fisting his leaking cock, so long and proud, the tip flushing red and a long vein running underneath, you swallowed hard as you registered the position you were in.
"Suck," you already were before the world left his mouth, greedily sucking on his thumb, your cheeks flushed hot.
Chan lined himself between your legs, his thumb smearing your wetness before tracing the thick head of his cock against your entrance making you inhale a sharp breath.
"Relax angel..." Chan's voice dropped an octave, "just relax." He muttered, holding your hips as he pushed the thick length of his cock past your tight walls.
"Open your mouth," Hyunjin growled, pulling his thumb out. Your mouth fell open and he pushed his cock in, the warmth wrapping around his shaft until your nose pressed against the faint trail of hair.
"Holy fuck—" Chan gritted through his teeth. "She's fucking tight," he pushed all the way in, his cock sitting snug inside you and letting your gummy walls adjust to him, he felt like he could come the very second.
"What a slut, look at her." Hyunjin's voice was strained as he held your jaw, beginning to fuck his cock into your mouth while Chan pulled back enough to let the tip tease your entrance once more before slamming back in.
Tears leaked from your eyes, drooling dribbling down from the corners of your mouth and your juices coating Chan's cock, you were getting fucked from the front and back by the two men who showed zero signs of mercy in bed.
You were choking on Hyunjin's length and clenched around Chan, both of them groaning loudly, Chan's fingers holding your waist so tight, his fingers left marks on your skin.
Chan gave one hard thrust into you, pushing you forward, Hyunjin's cock touched the back of your throat, making you gag, his head fell back as he held onto the headboard to brace himself.
"Shit, be gentle with her Chris what the fuck?"
Hyunjin grittted, his chest rising and falling, sweating clinging onto his skin and Chan's hand dipping down your stomach to circle your clit in rough strokes making you shut your eyes and clench him hard.
"She loves it Hyunjin. Look at her, taking two cocks like the needy little slut she is."
You whimpered at his filthy words, no room to breath, hair tangled, skin sweaty and eyes teared up, you were turned on and ruined beyond belief.
Your breasts bounced with each thrust, hands fisting the sheets, moans were muffled while getting fucked and choked and their loud groans of pleasure filling the air.
"I might come right now, fuck," Hyunjin panted before pulling his cock out of your mouth, letting you breath, long sticky strings of spit clinging from his length onto your lips.
Oxygen rushed into your lungs but was cut short when another brutal thrust hit you from behind, the tip of Chan's cock touching your cervix ripping a loud cry out of your throat.
"Can't take it sweetheart? Hmm? Should we stop?" Chan cooed, so mean and ruthless, you were too fucked out to make up words so you shook your head.
"That's what I thought."
Hyunjin slipped himself back into your mouth holding your jaw, the tangling the strands of your hair, your tongue traced every ridge and vein of his silky velvet shaft as he rolled his hips forward, making you take it all.
"That's it, sweet angel letting me fuck her pretty mouth like it's mine."
"Mine?" Chan hissed, rubbing your clit in rough circles and slapping your ass again, the stinging pain mixing with pleasure before he growled, "No. She's OURS."
Chan kept thrusting into you, deeper and deeper, brushing that sweet squishy spot in you repeatedly.
Molten lava dripped down his spine as thunder roared in Hyunjin's chest, both of them slamming into you one after another before Chan hit that sensitive spot making you shatter again, your walls squeezing him as you came flooding on his cock.
White warmth spilled down your throat while another load gathered inside your cunt, painting your walls, the two of them filling you up with their cum, using you like a fuck toy, their cocks twitching endlessly inside you.
"Swallow every drop," Hyunjin growled, pulling out of your mouth and you did, feeling the sweet saltiness of his hot load slide down your throat.
Chan pulled out slowly, watching his cum drip out of your wrecked hole, chest heaving and his curls clung onto his forehead.
You lost your balance and almost fell but Chan's hand slipped around your body and caught you. You were lost in worlds beyond pleasure— freshly fucked and completely ruined but by the smirk on Hyunjin's face said they weren't done by a long shot.
"Can you give us one more round sweetheart?" His thumb brushed so gently over your tear stained face, your eyes lashes were damp, your nose and cheeks were flushed.
"One more for us like a good girl?"
Your chest still heaved in heavy breaths, Hyunjin ran his hand through your hair, pushing them away from your face.
"Alright, we'll give you some time to breathe." He said, smiling as if he wasn't about to wreck you again in the next few minutes.
You weren't sure if you could take it anymore. But the way Chan felt inside you and Hyunjin felt down your throat, your lust filled, foggy brain wanted more.
After what was like five minutes, once your breathing was back at a good pace, Chan's eyes met yours again, soft but filled with a beast like hunger that was ready to devour anything that came in his way.
Hyunjin sat behind you, scooping your body, making you sit on his lap before he laid down, his head on the mattress bringing your back flush against his chest.
You felt the hardness of his cock against your ass, your pulse spiking up, anticipation running through every nerve ending as he angled you above him.
Chan hovered over the two of you, his gaze piercing into yours and running down your body, skin peppered with his hickeys and fingerprints, a smug grin tugging his lips.
"Ready for us, angel?"
"Yes," you whispered, and that was all it took.
Hyunjin's fingers found your sensitive, swollen clit, rubbing it in right circles as they dipped down to your entrance, parting your puffy folds before pushing his shaft into you in one deep stroke.
Inch by inch, until he was fully sheathed inside you, groaning between your neck and shoulder. You cried out from the stretch, the fullness, your walls fluttering as you clenched around him.
“Fuck—” Hyunjin hissed, “you are tight.”
Chan came up, his hands skimming your body, squeezing your breasts, mouth pressing to your neck. “Don’t worry, sweetheart,” he whispered hotly, “you’ll make room for me too.”
Your heart thundered in your chest as Hyunjin’s cock remained unmoving inside you.
Chan watched your face, eyes glazed and no rational thought in his mind. “You’re okay,” Chan murmured against your jaw, kissing it.
“Breathe through it, baby. We’ve got you.”
Hyunjin pressed up, chest pressing to your back as he lined himself up carefully. His lips brushed your ear. “Relax,” he whispered. “Let us in.”
You exhaled, your body trembling from anticipation and pleasure, and slowly, Chan began to push in.
The stretch burned—sharp, a slight sting at first, then full and overwhelming.
Hyunjin grunted beneath you, his hands gripping your waist tighter as Chan filled the remaining space, pushing in inch by inch until he was fully seated, your body now stuffed with both of them.
You could barely breathe. Could barely think anymore.
“You’re doing so fucking well,” Chan whispered. “Taking us like you were made for this.”
“Look at her,” Hyunjin murmured, his voice hoarse. “So full of dick.”
You let out a broken moan, tears springing to your eyes from the intense stretch, the fullness, the feeling of being theirs completely.
They went slow at first. Timed. When Chan pulled back, Hyunjin pushed in—and vice versa. It was a rhythm that had your body shaking, your hands fisting the sheets, your mouth open but speechless from how overpowering it felt.
You were drowning in ecstasy, buried under praise and thrusts and heat and hands.
"God, you’re perfect," Chan groaned, his voice fraying at the edges. "So fucking wet, feel how messy you are, baby?"
“She’s dripping down on me,” Hyunjin answered, filthy and sweet in the same breath. "She likes being fucked dumb by us."
"Is that right?” Chan said, slowing his pace just to grind deep, right into your sweet spot. "You want us to ruin you, pretty girl?"
Your nails dug into the sheets, then into Chan’s shoulders as you tried to hold onto something—anything—but your body wasn’t yours anymore.
It belonged to them. Your mind, your pleasure, your heartbeat, everything was tangled up in the two of them.
They moved in tandem, one pulling out slightly while the other pushed in deeper, never leaving you empty, never letting the pleasure dip for even a second. You cried out as another orgasm crested, sudden and rushing.
The sounds leaving your bodies were sick, obscene, a filthy symphony of flesh on flesh and breathless gasps that made the walls feel too thin for what was happening inside.
“Fuck—Chan—Hyun—” you sobbed, your thighs trembling.
"That's it baby, come for us. Soak these cocks."
Chan kissed you hard, swallowing the sound of your moans. Hyunjin groaned when you clenched around them both, his hand snaking around to rub tight circles against your clit.
“So fucking perfect when you come.”
Their pace picked up, faster, rougher, a perfect storm of pressure and heat and praise. The sound of skin against skin, moans, the slurred mess of your name on both their lips, it was everything.
And then the pressure snapped.
You came with a scream, your whole body convulsing, brain going mush, walls clenching so tightly around them both that they swore under their breaths, holding on through the waves of your orgasm.
Hyunjin was next, thrusting harder as he chased his own edge. "Gonna fill you up, baby. Gonna fucking—"
He came with a hiss, buried deep inside you, his grip tight around your hips as he stilled, twitching, his teeth dug into your shoulder from the intensity of how much he released.
Chan wasn’t far behind, pulling you closer, holding your face as he locked eyes with you while he gave one final, deep thrust and spilled thick spurts inside you with a low moan.
You were stuffed full with cock and cum, the white fluid basically leaking from the corners of your cunt, the substance overloaded up in you.
Chan's forehead dropped to yours, sweat-slick skin pressed against you as he panted against your mouth.
All of you trembled through the aftershocks, breathless and wrecked, but Chan quickly braced himself to not collapse on your limp body.
His cock slid out first, then Hyunjin. Chan got up on his knees watching your body utterly used and railed, the two of them pushing you beyond what you thought you could give, only to pull you back to reality and piece you back together.
Chan ran a hand through his sweat damp hair as he got off the bed, walking out of the room into the washroom to grab a warm cloth.
You remained motionless, breathing heavily on top of Hyunjin, who gently moved you to the mattress next to him, his fingers tracing softly over the bite mark he planted on your shoulder and over the hickeys Chan had left.
Chan returned, with a cloth in his hand, getting back on the bed, watching you carefully.
"Let me clean you baby," he said, gently parting your legs to wipe off the evidence he and Hyunjin had left in you.
Hyunjin got off the bed and put on his boxers, running into the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
You winced slightly at the first swipe of the cloth, your body so oversensitive, pussy swollen, raw and tender in every sense of the word. But Chan’s touch was gentle and reverent.
"Sorry," he murmured, brushing a hand over your thigh. "Almost done, sweetheart."
You didn’t say anything, your throat felt thick, your limbs heavy, but not in a bad way. Your heart was full and you felt like you were floating.
Chan finished and tossed the cloth into the laundry basket nearby, his eyes scanning your body like he was memorizing you in this quiet, wrecked state.
His hand cupped your cheek softly, thumb brushing the dampness under your eye you hadn’t realized was still there.
“You okay?” he asked, voice low. A whisper between the two of you.
"Yeah..." you nodded slowly. "But I think I'm going to be sore for like a week."
Chan chuckled as Hyunjin returned, kneeling beside the bed with a glass of water. His brows softened as he saw you trying to sit up.
“Hey, no,” he said softly, helping you rest against the pillows instead. “Drink first.”
He held the glass to your lips, and you took small sips, feeling the cool water calm your dry throat after that much screaming.
You looked between them, voice quiet. "Are you both okay?"
Hyunjin gave a soft laugh, a little out of breath still. "I think you broke me, but in a good way.'
Chan reached forward to brush a small peck on your lips. “We’re okay, baby. Just making sure that you are.”
The two of them climbed back on the bed, one on either side of you, sandwiching you between their strong chests.
"Gonna spend the day with us today?" Hyunjin asked teasingly, his voice smooth as he pressed his lips on your temple.
"I don't feel like leaving you both," you mumbled sleepily, and they both chuckled.
“Good,” Chan said, rubbing slow circles on your thigh. “You’re not going anywhere from us.”
You exhaled a slow breath, melting into them completely. You were held between the two boys who had unknowingly tangled their way into your heart, body sore, lips kiss-swollen, a soft ache between your legs, but still you smiled wide.
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🫧𓂃pile 1
the sun, page of swords, 3 of cups
Your future spouse will be completely captivated by you not just by how you look, but by how you exist.
They’re drawn to your hair, your back, your shoulders… the way you look in dresses, the way you carry yourself with confidence. Your voice stands out to them. When you walk into a room, especially at celebrations or gatherings, you light it up without even trying. You’re like a muse in your future spouses eyes. They love watching you interact with other people, almost like they’re studying you in awe. Even when you’re just busy doing something random, they find themselves staring. They love your chest area for sure. They like taking pictures of you, the random ones you don’t even know they’re taking, but they also love when you pose intentionally. They probably look at the pictures you post online too maybe even stalk your Instagram a little because they’re fascinated by the way you present yourself to the world. There’s something really cute about you. I heard “tripping” are you clumsy? 😂 They might secretly think it’s adorable when you are. You have this natural pure and youthful energy about you. Even if you’re in your mid 30’s you feel light, playful, and young at heart. You’re not overly serious. You’re curious, communicative, funny sometimes without even trying and you make them laugh effortlessly. That innocence mixed with cleverness? They find that incredibly attractive. You’re positive. You don’t obsess over what could go wrong. You just live. There’s something hypnotizing about you. I specifically feel like sometimes they get stuck looking at your legs, or maybe it’s the way you walk and move. Your energy just flows. They may even imagine you as a mother one day and find that beautiful the way you play with children, how naturally nurturing and connected to your inner child you are. You respect kids and teens as human beings, you don’t dismiss them, and that says a lot about your heart. You’re gentle but not naive you’re pure because you choose to be.
You’re also very free. You don’t suffocate people. You don’t force anyone to stay. You give others space, autonomy, and freedom and that makes them feel safe with you. At the same time, you’re clever. You know what’s going on. You know the tea in different friend groups. You read between the lines. You’re observant and curious, especially about creative or interesting things. Sometimes you even use that youthful, innocent energy to smooth over conflict or talk your way out of tension keeping the peace in a way that feels natural, not manipulative. That balance of fun, intelligence, and lightness is magnetic. There’s something about you that makes them feel free enough to explore, to drop their guard, to just enjoy the moment without overthinking. You make things feel easy and light mentally, emotionally, and maybe physically too. You stimulate their mind. You’re like catnip to them. Maybe you guys play board games or card games.
18+ I just heard “I like to f#ck everybody” 🤨 now what’s that about? maybe you like to have fun in THAT way lol??? like you are very OPEN like that, maybe that’s ur idea of fun lol are you guys maybe into thre#esomes???😭 or maybe they are? idk lol they find attractive that they can just let go with you and be happy and have fun and not worry too much. Maybe you guys like to play games in bed? Like s#x games?
I hope you enjoyed this reading, take care love!♡
🫧𓂃pile 2
ace of cups, queen of pentacles, 4 of pentacles
They’re deeply drawn to your natural beauty. Your future spouse is very attracted to your neck and décolleté, your hands and your arms. They love your hair especially when it’s open. There’s something about you that feels organic, healthy, glowing. You give Empress energy very abundant, very grounded, very feminine. You look very fertile and that’s very attractive to them. You look expensive. Maybe it’s the way you dress, the way you carry yourself, the perfume you wear, or just your aura overall you look and smell luxurious. There’s a richness to you, and it’s not only about money. It’s in your presence. But at the same time, you probably do make your own money. You’re financially independent, work minded, controlled, and focused. If you don’t have a lot now, you will in the future. Your future spouse finds that extremely attractive. You can provide for yourself. You don’t need them to survive, and that makes them want you even more. They know you don’t need them and you provide for yourself. You could leave them at any moment. You’re not gonna let anyone disrespect you and you’re very emotionally mature, you’ll do what’s best for you and you are not worried because you can provide for yourself they think this is really attractive.
They love how possessive you are over the people you love especially over them. It makes them feel chosen. It makes them feel wanted. And at the same time, they’re likely possessive over you too. There’s a mutual possessiveness here. You give divine feminine energy. You’re intuitive, emotionally intelligent, and mature. You’re empathetic. There’s innocence to you, but it’s not naivety it’s purity. You feel like a breath of fresh air. Your presence is healing, calming, nurturing. Being around you probably feels safe and warm.
18+ they’d definitely wanna get u pregnant (consensual of course!!) like for sure cause like I said u look very fertile.
I hope you enjoyed this reading, take care love!♡
🫧𓂃pile 3
queen of cups, 6 of cups, ace of wands
You come across as very feminine, soft, gentle, and kind. There’s something youthful about you, you probably look younger than your actual age. To them, you’re not just pretty you’re hot. You genuinely turn them on. Your eyes and your lips might stand out the most, there’s something very captivating about them.
Your energy feels warm and healing. You’re likely a great listener. You’re very loyal, emotionally mature, romantic, sensitive, sometimes even a little shy. You have this nurturing presence that feels safe. You’d make an amazing mother or maybe you already are one. There’s a softness in you that feels comforting. Sometimes you might overlook red flags for the sake of love, because your heart is just so genuine and forgiving. You give them the feeling of stability, comfort and safety. You have strong motherly qualities and they are deeply attracted to that. It’s like you give them the love and support they’ve always needed. Your heart is pure and innocent. You might even be the type to give small thoughtful gifts just because and they absolutely love that about you. You make their inner child feel safe and happy. In a way, you’re the nurturing figure they may have always longed for. Your presence alone feels healing. You’re compassionate. You forgive. You care deeply. And in their eyes, you are the ideal partner, the ideal mother. That’s very attractive to them. They imagine building a life with you.
18+ you look fertile like this person really wants to get u pregnant like seriously pile 2 also got this message but for this pile it’s like very clear!! I think even tho you have all these soft, feminine and motherly qualities you have a very spontaneous, kind of daring and confident side to you. You are probably very attractive in bed to them, it’s giving lady in the streets freak in the sheets lol. Like you guys will love the se#x for sureee it will be hella good. I mean they for suuuuree wanna get u pregnant for sure (obviously it’s going to be consensual!!!). But like the se#x is also going to be suuuuper good like exactly what you like and want and need just it’s going to be super good and passionate for both of you.
Would you be compatible? Chemistry with your idol 🫀
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Disclaimer: they're general readings
Pile one
The Lovers + Two of Cups
I feel this is what many would consider a major compatibility indicator. This combination seems to point toward a natural, almost instinctive connection. If it shows up in a reading, I think it suggests that you and your idol might share similar values, which could lead to a balanced dynamic where you might understand each other with just a glance. In my view, it feels like a "soulmate" level of affinity, even if it's just platonic.
Pile two
Queen of Swords + Page of Wands
I feel they might notice you fairly quickly for your intelligence and sharp wit. To me, this combination suggests a "quick comeback" energy. I think they would perceive you as a curious, witty person who could be fun to trade friendly banter with and I get the impression you wouldn't be easily intimidated by their celebrity status. They're intrigued by your intellectual honesty.
Pile three
The Hermit + Four of Pentacles
A more guarded and reserved energy. They might sense your shyness or nervousness. They would see you as an introspective person who is perhaps holding back or protecting their emotions for fear of exposing themselves too much. They'd be annoyed at first then they would get curios and reach you out first.
℘𓏲𝄢 gentle communications & things the universe wants to reassure & remind u of. positive and chill reading 𓏲𝄢℘
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1
there’s a “game” in your life that’s seeing its finale. seems like a pestering energy just washing away.
fresh slate energy
your tongue is getting sharper.
i heard your forehead is expanding LOL i take this to mean #bigbrain energy, your capacity to absorb knowledge is growing.
i’m hearing “safety net”. you always have your safety net, spirit says.
lucky color orange
good deeds/good energy you send out will return quickly.
don’t throw away scrapped writings, you’ll be glad you kept that.
more isn’t always better.
allow short-sightedness to be temporary.
is the shortcut as satisfying as your dedication?
it’s time to think more highly of yourself, think more about the “i” of it all.
2
someone will remember your words.
you are glistening these days, shinier than your surroundings.
stepping out of survival mode.
you will discover there’s more to love.
some things never change (warm, tender connotation) i’m seeing a sweet granny smiling at her grandchildren, carrying this sentiment fondly.
it’s a great time to cook/craft/make things for yourself.
for my baristas/bartenders, i’m hearing you’re getting a raise? 0.0
special benefits coming your way.
i’m hearing “you’re headed to town”. could be some of you are visiting your hometown or others of you you’re freely and happily getting to spend quite a lot of money
fountains and mountains as lucky symbols
3
i’m hearing “let’s go” and i can think of two scenarios. someone is taking you out because you need it, OR someone is taking you out of a bad situation without hesitating.
for my fashionistas, it’s a great time upgrade your wardrobe or experiment, mix and match.
seasonal fruit may be relevant/important somehow? i’m not being told why though.. so mysterious lol.. seasonal fruit…
the potential to create a new invention (do i have some engineers here? hii)
“don’t forget to count your cards?” (no idea what this means, take it if it resonates)
“you’re somewhat of a heart stealer”
only for those whom it resonates with but you may clear up an incident where something was stolen from you and are gaining justice.
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thank you all very much for being here, i appreciate you!! take lots of care . . . 🖤
A desire is not a sign of lack but an arising of the truth of what you are and what you are is the knowing/awareness in which this desire appears within it. The only reason desire is viewed as lack because the separate self has labeled it as such. This separate self is made up of memories, labels, preconceived notions and ideas. However this separate self is not real, it’s an illusion because it also exists within knowing/awareness and again, you are knowing/awareness. All that which is known to us appears within knowing/awareness, such as thoughts, labels, preconceived notions, emotions, circumstances, etc. All the things I listed exist within awareness, are objects of awareness but awareness itself never changes and is not affected by what appears within it. You are this awareness/knowing which cannot truly be labeled. It is isness.
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How to actually manifest/reality shift, and how it works
Disclaimer: this is NOT a method, technique or a new trend. It is a way of life! And is the reason behind why manifestation and reality shifting even works in the first place, NOT non dualism since people cant read
Who YOU actually are
Awareness, consciousness, the observer, imagination. That is the TRUE you. Not who you “think” you are, not your body, not your identity. All those are imaginary made up concepts, and are not who YOU truly are. If you were your mind or your body or your “identity” you would not be able to be aware of these concepts.
You can hear your thoughts, you can feel your emotions, you can feel touching a table, you observe these things, and you therefore cannot be them. If you can be aware of something, observe something, how can you BE it?
Are you a table? Or are you aware that there is a table?
Are you your thoughts? Or do you hear your thoughts?
That shows us that we are something more than this human body. But that “more” can never be explained or understood, for as long as we are in a human body, because there is nothing to understand, it just IS. YOU are everything and anything. And nothing. Nothing would exist without your awareness of it.
What was before this person?
there just was
What was before this physical world (imaginary human world)?
there just was
What was before doubts and negative thinking?
there just was
it all just IS
It CANNOT be explained!
This is the reason a thing like “manifesting” and “reality shifting” even exists. They are imaginary concepts made up to try and understand and explain being awareness, imagination, the limitless creator. They “work” because they are METHODS to become aware of something.
Awareness of something = it’s real
No awareness of something = it’s not real
Things cease to exist when we focus our awareness somewhere else, which is why things can change and feel like they have been “undone”. The imaginary concept for this is revision.
But as we covered, anything and everything is JUST imagination, it is imaginary, it is not something outside of you, it IS you.
As a limited human, we believe that the world we live in is something outside of us, we then discover reality shifting and manifesting, and find out we can change this outside world.
But the whole point is to realise that there IS NO outside world, it is ALL within awareness/consciousness/imagination. It is IMAGINARY it exists because we are aware it exists.
We are human because we are aware that we are human.
So then is nothing real?
Not in the sense that we used to believe about the word “real”
How we used to view something as real, was something outside of us. “Imagination is just that. It's not real '' I know a lot of us have been told this growing up, and we believed it.
But the thing is there is NOTHING OUTSIDE OF US.
So yes things are real, when you become aware of them. If not, they just exist as a thing we cannot understand.
But the second we become aware of something, it becomes real, because it was given awareness, it was given attention.
So no nothing is real in the sense we used to think. But that was a made up limited idea. There is nothing but awareness/consciousness/imagination. Anything you can think of, is imaginary and made up.
We have always been aware and observing, if you were your thoughts, then wouldn’t you cease to exist when you didn’t think? What is that pause between your thoughts? Awareness. Observation. It has always been there. Sit in silence and reflect on everything i say in this post, and i promise you, you realise how limited you have always been.
How do you “manifest” and “reality shift” with this you ask?
First, There is no such thing as manifesting or reality shifting. They are made up concepts as I said. Manifesting and reality shifting implies a process to go through, when in reality you are just observing, becoming aware of something, and then it exists, and you as a human body can experience it.
But because you are truly imagination/awareness/consciousness, you are everything, because nothing would even exist without you. There is nothing to “get” or be. Because you already are / have that thing.
awareness/consciousness/imagination is everything, and there is therefore no such thing as “time” ONLY in the imaginary human world. Time is a made up thing. The past and future only exists in thoughts, and thoughts are something imaginary, that means that time is imaginary too. So anything and everything you could ever imagine or think of, exists right at this moment, and is ready to be observed / given awareness/attention to.
This makes this imaginary human life, your playground. Your video game. your dream. You can do absolutely anything and everything
And since this is the case, and what actually changes the imaginary human life, is not affirming, or states or any other method, it is awareness that changes it. That means that whatever you DECIDE is true. Is true.
Want to affirm? Do that. Want to get into a state? Do that. Want to fulfill yourself in imagination and let the “3d” reflect it? Then do that. Want to simply observe something? Do that.
It ALL WORKS, because AWARENESS is what changes your surroundings.
Something important to really understand, is that no matter what any state person says or any affirm person says. Pretty much any law of assumption person says. There is absolutely NO difference between what you see/hear/say/imagine with your eyes closed and with your eyes open.
There is no 4d or 3d. It is just IMAGINATION. The imaginary human world does not “reflect your imagination” how could it when it is only here BECAUSE IT IS imagination. THERE IS NO TIME LAG!! Whenever you become aware of something, it is INSTANTLY real.
Affirm / affirmation = becoming aware
Getting into a state = becoming aware
Deciding / observing = becoming aware
Wanting = becoming aware
You see how it all boils down to the same thing? AWARENESS.
The second you become aware of something it exists immediately like i said, the reason you may not see it show up in the human experience, is because you are aware that there is a time lag, or even aware that you cannot change anything.
Doubts = only real if you are aware of them, you can decide they do not exist.
How it really should be is:
Manifesting -> observing, becoming aware, and things will change because it is just imagination, there is no such thing as manifesting, this is how it normally works!
Reality shifting -> becoming aware of ex. Hogwarts exists, and it does, become aware you are there, then you are. You are NOT shifting to a different “place” because all is imagination.
And lastly, don’t EVER be fooled by what someone else says. YOU DECIDE what is true for you, others don’t. If you want to experience a bunch of things, it's okay to do so! If you just want to be and let things unfold, that is okay! If you want to think, that's okay to do. Never let anyone else tell you what you can and can’t do. It's your imagination after all
