Im so conflicted. Wow.

i’ve been self isolating for 4 months. 

now covid’s here and non-social anxiety ridden bitches be like “i could get used to this”

remember the choose-your-own-path story you said YOU wrote and read to me over face time?....

must have been fucking immaculate since it ended up on the jenna julien podcast huh?

we found each other at a vulnerable time

but you are a huge reason I’m alone today

you emotionally manipulated me into giving you attention day after day after day for months from 1800 miles away

you wanted so much of my attention that 7 of the most meaningful friendships i’ve ever had dissolved into thin air. I didn’t even realize it until february of senior year (over a year of friendship with you) after I couldn’t take your manipulation and petty lying anymore.

i thought I was saving your life when I walked out of my class to call the police and told you to make yourself throw up over the phone. but you got out of the hospital and made it seem like what I did/the time you spent recovering was an inconvenience to you. not in a sense that you’d rather be dead, but because you didn’t want/anticipate being there. I still to this day don’t even know if you really swallowed those pills and that scares me.

it was just sexual assault awareness month in april and something’s been weighing on my mind

if you know/are sure there’s a predator/someone that’s amongst us that would assault some in that way: expose them on social media and other public platforms IMMEDIATELY for the safety of others

the question is: if you KNOW someone that has FALSELY ACCUSED another of something that despicable, 

i tend to read allusive posts and think they’re about me, and i KNOW i’m not being dramatic by doing that

stop being such a coward and save people the energy of making an investigation board for attention