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another reason i love alastor is because he's for the people with Disorders.
the absolute worst thing to ever ever EVER happen to a disordered person, especially those of us with anxiety based disorders (or disorders with a side effect of anxiety) is for our fears and/or unhealthy coping mechanisms to be validated. and in most media where a disordered character takes the focus, writers try to show them Not being validated, to show that the Disorder is Lying and you can get better!! the disorder is lying to you and you need to know that!
but alastor? oh hell no. every fear and maladaptive habit he has is validated over and over, and it just pushes him further into his poor coping mechanisms and one day it's gonna get him. oh it's gonna.
analysis posted per the request of my honorable mutual @alastor-insanity, who got to hear all this first. when the dm reply reads "you should post this actually," who am i to refuse the call?
i think specifically of his hyperindependence. in the season 1 finale, alastor remarks to niffty that the hotel crew is enough to "make one sentimental." i genuinely don't think that he was lying in that moment. he didn't really have a reason to. he was starting to care a bit for these people, and maybe he even slightly believed that they cared back. yet, in the back of his head, he likely kept telling himself that they didn't care, that he shouldn't care, that the only person he can rely on is himself and it will Always be like that.
and then he loses to adam. and no one gives a shit. no one asks if he's okay, no one erects a statue or painting to honor his (for all they know) death, no one even inquires about him. and alastor is validated for his disordered thinking; he's proven right. he receives the negative reinforcement he was expecting and it only pushes him further and further down this trail.
in season 2, alastor goes to rosie and, in his own way, asks for help. he asks for her to fix his staff because that was part of their deal, and while unfortunate, rosie is one of the only other things he can rely on besides himself and his power because she's granted it to him. rosie says no, so alastor immediately launches himself into a plan independent of rosie, of any of the hotel crew, and hell, something that while intelligent is so damn impulsive and you can tell he wasn't quite happy with those consequences, despite getting what he wanted. and that's the thing...he ends up getting what he wants. he's free from rosie, he can fix his own staff. his disorder behavior is rewarded because he receives what he initially asked for help for, all by himself.
alastor's worldview, one where he believes that the only reliant person that will ever exist is himself, is not a healthy one. it prevents not only interpersonal relationships, but also one's own personal growth, and causes a ton of damage to someone's mental state. most people expect for their disordered worldviews to be challenged, because the thoughts are disordered and, at their core, incorrect, born from trauma rather than fact.
alastor is a unique representation in media because his disordered behaviors and thoughts are constantly validated, rewarded, and reinforced. as someone who experiences the same thing in my own life, i genuinely can't think of any other obviously disordered character who is heavily reinforced like this. and it's so refreshing.
but oh, is it going to be heartbreaking to keep watching.
Just a brain-off Bingqiu doodle! (Iβm deep in the weeds of pencils for one graphic novel and working out logistics for the next so this was pure vibes)
IT HAD TO BE ALASTOR FIRST. I really liked his canon human form, LOVED the curls, but I can't stand seeing his awful demon design (if I looked like that on Earth and then got sent to Hell and looked like THAT, I would cry), sooo I tried to make it more or less how I'd like to see him.
I wanted to try and make the red and black work in his hair, since I think the main problem for me was that cursed bob and fade, so I definitely had to try a different hairstyle (I LOVE curly hair). I tried to find some inspiration on 1930s haircuts and it's not totally similar, but I did like what I ended up with.
I also incorporated a speaker in his chest, which can function as a music player when he wants to sing or as a speakerphone, to talk when he doesn't want to use his mouth. I still think he can do that neat trick of talking with his mouth closed like in the series when talking to Vox, that was cool.
The microphone is very much inspired by microphones from the 1920s and 30s, around the time he lived. But I added an extra symbol in it for the looks π£οΈ (heyyyy Lucifer's sigil, if any sin is going to fit Alastor's character I agree that pride had to be the one. I guess they have that in common, huh)
I also find it funny to imagine that the little buttons on his suit could be used to change the station or to raise or lower the volume of his voice.
I changed his ears so they actually look like a deer's and gave him a tail because idc about canon.
He's barefoot, but I saw some type of buttoned leather they put on horses' hooves online, and I thought it would be cute to add it to his design to cover his feet a little bit.
That said, the symbols he conjures around himself aren't voodoo because I'm not going to mess with that, especially since I know almost nothing about it. They're radio symbols I searched for online.
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