yall i once again completely stopped using this blog but everything is a mood and i just need to remember that the way i am is good etc etc.
also im pretty tipsy and losing my mind cause i just found out my very attractive roommate is actually into kinky shit irl and not just writing about it and im like bro... i was forcing this knowledge to not exist in my head bc i am a demisexual dumbass and the supposed character bleed from when my larp character was attracted to yours didn’t ACtuALLY go away after and thats just how i keep writing it off to myself lmaooooo
terrified of making the same mistakes over again bc the similarities between him & the ex are a little insane at times but hoo boy. boy pretty. i want to bop him on the head bc the time spent feeling guilty over the shit he’s into could be spent doing it to ME OKAY FML
