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i need someone to like lock me in a room for a few months with no food then i’ll be okay

the thought of not being skinny by swim suit season is making me wanna claw my eyes out

so i was planning on just not coming back bc i was so embarrassed by how much i gained while i was gone (6.7lbs 🫠), but decided fuck it if i ever want things to change i need to hold myself accountable so i’m back :)

i feel like a fucking whale

no because i feel like if i really try i can be down to 156lbs by the end of the month which means i have to lose about 10lbs but that would mean that i would have a bmi of 24.4 which would mean i wouldn’t be “overweight” for the first time i can remember

i’ve literally been binging soooo bad the last couple of weeks and i feel so fucking shitty AND the cherry on top is my bfs sister was literally shitting on my weight behind my back 🤩🤩

nothing better than ⭐️ving myself over an argument with my bf 🤩🤩

omg when i went to the doctor today they were like “you’ve lost over 14kg since july and we don’t want you to keep losing weight this rapidly” like?? 1. i felt crazy amounts of validation from them (i’m literally overweight and they tell me that like every time) but 2. they have literally told me that i should start losing weight and all of a sudden it’s a problem and 3. it’s been like three months and i feel like i should’ve been able to lose more in that long.

i feel so stupid rn omg. just realized when i updated my bio i put 2022 instead of 2023 oml 😭😭

for the last like month i haven’t been tracking, restricting all that much, and have been binging a lot and still somehow lost like 9lbs?? genuinely no idea how that happened but i’m not complaining. def getting back on track for october

im back bitches