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              it’s  no  reflection  of  her  opinion  of  him  –  it’s  just  defense  mechanism  in  play .  guard  is  up ,  it’s  always  up .  she  hasn’t  been  able  to  make  herself  be  vulnerable  yet ,  not  in  front  of  anyone .  only  when  she’s  alone ,  bathroom  door  locked  and  shower  spitting  cold  water  on  skin  still  heated  from  hellfire ,  can  she  break  down .  expression  is  carefully  composed ,  her  only  tell  is  the  slight  trembling  of  her  lower  lip .  ❝  –  you  got  no  reason  t’  be  worried  about  me ,  seth .  ❞  she  waves  a  hand  dismissively ,  pushes  herself  to  standing .  ❝  i’m  just ….  tired .  haven’t  been  sleepin  well  lately .  ❞  and  it’s  the  truth ,  or  at  least  part  of  it :  she  can’t  fall  asleep  for  too  long  or  she’s  plagued  with  nightmares ,  wakes  up  screaming  bloody  murder  until  her  voice  is  gone  and  she’s  back  in  her  own  mind .  ❝  i’m  fine .  everythin’s  fine .  ❞

     he knows better than to push her, even though he knows that he’s right. if she wants to tell him how she feels, then she will in her own time. seth has just been so worried about her lately. she should be in school or in college or something. not sitting outside at a shitty picnic table in delaware waiting on richie to get them their food. she deserve better than what seth & richie forced her to do. they practically forced her to become this person.   ❝ all right. jus’ tell me in your own time then, i’m not gonna push anymore. ❞