Life.

and ohh i can’t wait to see your teary eyes because i know you’re too emotional and sensitive that tearjerking and heartbreaking movies will for sure’s gonna make you cry. i can’t wait to kiss that tear-stained face of yours and say how adorable you are because you’re very sensitive. then during Sundays, we’ll gonna go to church to give thanks for all the blessings that we have received and for having each other every waking moment then we’ll gonna rush to get to home after because we’ll gonna prepare your favorite Sunday roast. there might also be mornings that we feel like going to beach to take a walk, breathe some fresh air coming from the ocean and finding some shells or swimming or just making out. when you are cooking i know for sure i’m gonna help you but bugging you and always hugging you will never be out of the scenario. when you are seriously talking and discussing about something or asking me about something and i’m just gonna stare at you like a crazy fan and ask why are you so gwapo and i know you’re gonna stare daggers at me that makes it too cute to resist kissing you. expect raining of kisses baby. and when me being so mad that i might just throw slippers at you or throw them outside our apartment, you have to deal with that. when you are in shower, i’m gonna annoy you by turning off the lights and see if you’re gonna shout or i’m just gonna be hiding your bath towel and ask you so much stuff first and make you promise something first before giving it back to you.

there will be mornings that i’m gonna wake up before you and that will give me the chance to prepare breakfast for us or breakfast in bed for you and take note that no matter how terrible my cooking is you still have to eat it with all love and adoration and tell me it’s the best food you have ever tasted in your entire life then when it’s time to wake you up and you’re too sleepy to get up then i’m gonna be laying on top of you and try hard to make myself so heavy and hug you so tight and give you lots of loud kisses all over your face. i’m gonna make you teas and put sticky notes on it saying how much i adore you or how gwapo you are or leaving notes saying like you have to clean and unload the dishes later or do the laundry or vacuum the carpet. i’m gonna bug you while you are playing your xbox of course and take note, i’m gonna bug you so much and a lot by dancing weird steps in front of you or making dorky silly faces in front of your face to just really distract and annoy you. you know i love annoying you so much! or when we’ll gonna play together you have to let me win because you know what happens when i don’t win. if you’re not gonna give me attention while you are focusing that football match, i’m gonna steal so much kisses from you.

i’ll be so okay when you keep playing like repeatedly playing your favorite ed sheeran or birdy or ariana grande or tinie tempah or eminem’s songs just like what you always do. even if it’s too annoying to hear them songs all the time it’s gonna be fine because i’m gonna sing along so loud with them to the point that you can no longer hear them singing. when you are about to go to work, i’ll be calling you and demanding you to be back because i just wanna say i miss you already and i love you so much. there will be random moments that i’m gonna ask you to play your guitar while i play my invisible drums and we’ll gonna sing at the top of our lungs, dancing, dancing slow dances, dancing dorky dances, dancing whatever dances and just enjoying the moment. when we are having arguments and you need some air to breathe then you are allowed to go outside but please bring your phone because even if how mad i am at you i’d still be worrying about your whereabouts and i might just chase after you. when i’m mad and tell you to go away and tell you to sleep somewhere not near me, don’t ever believe me because i don’t mean it but if you’re too obedient that you’ll gonna really follow my order which is annoying and you’ll gonna sleep on the sofa then don’t laugh if on the later part i’ll be going there and lay beside you because you know i really don’t wanna sleep without you beside me.

hug me when i’m being a bipolar. i have mood swings. frequent mood swings and i’m very short tempered, deal with that. and i cant wait with our putting make up on your gwapo face sessions and taking pictures of you. and no you can’t say no to me when it comes to pictures. and no you can’t hide my camera and no don’t ever hide my camera. we’ll also gonna go out some time when it’s winter, wearing cute onzie panda outfits just like what you said laying in the snow or making snowman and throwing snowballs at each other. i demand wearing your shirts or sweaters with just my undies at nights and we’ll gonna sleep and i’m gonna throw my leg over you and hug you. and i’m also gonna pillow your chest or your arms. don’t worry because i’m gonna give you much of caressing of your hair or tickling your skin or rubbing your back. we’ll also gonna travel the world together. and we’ll gonna achieve each of our dreams together like staying in Norway for a month when it’s very very cold just to see the northern lights, and of course you’ll gonna bring me to places that has cheery blossoms and i’m gonna taste the snow and you have to taste it too with me even if you know already how it taste and we’ll gonna go to China just to see and hug a real panda. i’m gonna have a henna tattoo and your name’s gonna be on it.

Lagi akong naniniwala sa good karma. Lagi akong naniniwala sa plans ni God. His plans are way better than mine kaya sa Kanya ako lagi nagtitiwala. I am always a firm believer that good things will happen at the end kung may kakayahan ka lang maghintay para sa mga bagay na ‘yon. It will happen if it’s meant for you and it will happen if you just wait. All you need is wait, wait patiently while you are doing your best efforts to achieve something that you want. I have been praying all my life for someone na magiging katuwang ko sa buhay. Ang pamilya ko at ang magiging pamilya ko ang importante sa akin. I am actually praying for so much things, for so much good qualities for a man na makakasama ko all throughout my lifetime, they are even quite too perfect to happen and I am not even deserving to have them pero walang masama kung magdasal ka para sa bagay na ‘yon at walang masama kung maghintay ka at lalong walang masama kung manalig ka lang na ibibigay ‘yon ni God sayo but still hindi ko akalain na mangyayari ang lahat ng iyon sa akin. Sabi ko nga, di bale ng saktan ako nang paulit ulit, baliin ang tiwala ko nang paulit ulit, saktan ako ng maraming tao, deserving man silang saktan ako o hindi, kahit pa masasabi kong di ko deserve maranasan ‘yong ibang bagay kasi wala naman akong ginawang masama sa kanila pero okay lang as long as at the end of all of these, it will be all worth it.