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i honestly have no idea lol (to be honest i don't really think okkoita has a strong online presence either? or maybe im just not looking hard enough) and i don't really like complaining too much about out of fear of sounding entitled lmao

i assume it could be a combination of yuuta and yuuji not having a lot of one-to-one interactions in general on top of both characters having more overwhelmingly popular pairs with other characters (and for good reason to be fair! i think their relationships with the rest of the cast are great). a lot of okkoita's appeal is in the numerous parallels they share that are all mostly implicit unfortunately

honestly im just hoping that the knowledge that yuuta ate yuuji's ring finger / yuuta and yuuji fighting sukuna together getting animated creates an uptick of interest for their dynamic, but im not holding my breath lol

i think ive mentioned this in posts before but i realllyyyy love it when people play up their senpai-kouhai relationship... a lot of what you can do with this specific dynamic isn't really exclusive to it but i don't know something does it for me. like wow yuuta you really admire that hardworking underclassman of yours huh. wow yuuji you really look up to that powerful senpai of yours don't you. it might verge on corny but #weball

another that i particularly and is a staple au when it comes to okkoita specifically is childhood friends au, whether they stay in touch or reunite in jujutsu society. exploring their what-ifs in relation to how similar they are (and how that similarity only serves to highlight their differences) and how they both used to live in sendai is the bread and butter of okkoita i think, it's nice every time....!!

also despite how much i think slow burn will-they-won't-they okkoita is the most canon compliant (for a lack of a better term) read for them, i do love reading and imagining puppy love okkoita where they live out a shoujo fantasy-esque kind of romance lmao. by extension i also really love domestic yuuyuu. lets do laundry together with senpai....

i think so yeah! but at the same time i see yuuta as someone who doesn't want to overstep yuuji's boundaries for a variety of reasons so it's probably something he tries to repress. and at the same time i don't necessarily think he's possessive in a way where he gets like... jealous?

i don't think he would ever want to keep yuuji away from everyone else (especially when yuuta himself really values and wants to be with his friends and family too). i guess the best way to describe it is him hitting the upper limit to how much he can suppress how he feels about yuuji basically

i like the to play with okkoita as the "so close yet so far" brand of yaoi where they're in a pretty amicable relationship all things considered but for whatever external and/or internal reasons it takes a lot to bring themselves to take it further and allow themselves to be okay with the idea of being allowed to want the other

all this to say yuuta wants to smother yuuji. yuuta wants to be smothered by yuuji. yuuta wants to be so close as to melt into one with yuuji.

even though (or maybe especially because) he's probably more used to a seemingly polite and put-together yuuta-senpai, i imagine yuuta would be kinda into seeing this side of yuuta too

ohhhh ive talked about this with a friend of mine lmao

my personal flavor of okkoita is that yuuta falls first yuuji falls harder. yuuta falling in love with yuuji is like a feather slowly falling into the ground as the little observations he makes about yuuji pile up until he finds that they have made a permanent residence for themselves in his heart. yuuji realizes his feelinsg for yuuta like someone ran him over with a fighter jet

on the whole they have a bit of a Situation for a bit of a while before anything really moves. but yuuta, The Yearning One that he is, could probably play the long and painful wistfully-pining-from-afar game for eternity. for me, when it comes to yuuji, something has to give eventually

oh my gosh it's been so long since i worked on anna or got asks about her...

i think a lot of the first few days of anna being in makoto's (read: future foundation's) care is spent being juggled around a bunch of different officers and trainers and tutors she doesn't know very well unfortunately. a lot of the early phases of anna being bequeathed to makoto is a power struggle between makoto (and by extension the survivors) vs future foundation.

she's also pretty "independent" for lack of a better term to begin with, something like a trauma response she developed after living in the tragedy and deciding that she can't be too dependent or clingy towards adults regardless of whether she needs/wants to. by the time she does get to spend more time by makoto's side as his daughter figure she's basically become good anough at masking discomfort around adults to some extent or has become smart enough to discretely avoid interactions she doesn't want to have (which. at the ages of like. 9 - 11 is functionally still running and hiding behind makoto, except she's trying to come off as more nonchalant about it, i guess? lmao)

although at the end of the day behind closed doors she does feel the most comfortable with makoto when it comes to trying to relax and recharge and be generally vulnerable. like if he's on the couch she'll come over to sit next to him and take a nap on him or something.

MY SAVIOR thank you for the ask....!!

i will say to me the answer is It Depends which i know sounds super Boring but .

in canon-adjacent circumstances i think it takes a little while for them to Admit their feelings let alone Define their relationship because of their line of work (whether that means they have curses to kill, or the implications of having a relationship in a famously deadly and psychologically straining career, etc.)

not to mention i think there's a time pre-/early relationship where they feel a little Awkward about how to output the affections they feel for each other. user @/mintchocolater put it best i think:

in contrast to how they are with other people they love, yuta respects yuji too much to be outwardly protective, yuji respects yuta too much for to be outwardly clingy.

which i interpret as yuuji not wanting to bother yuuta/add to his burden (as in. disrupt his rest in between getting 1 million missions and being utilized as a living weapon), yuuta not wanting to superimpose himself onto yuuji + further diminish yuuji's remaining agency by coddling him, and both in general not wanting to act over familiar to one another in quiet fear of breaking what they have. to me they would Love to be clingy crazy about each other but they do not allow themselves to or are denied the opportunity to be due to outside circumstances. their love is mosaic of stolen time and quiet understanding cobbled together. if that makes sense.

THAT BEING SAID if by some miracle they are given the mercy and time of day to actually form a long running established relationship and/or we are in an au with less dire circumstances than canon. i think yuuta is the clingier one. i don't necessarily think he likes to Hog yuuji and i think early on in the relationship it actually seems like he really wants to take his time and go slow but like. in my minds eye. once he's given the time to calibrate. the intensity of his affections just quietly switches to full gear

his touch lingers on yuuji as much as he can before he lets go. he stares at yuuji for a little Too Long with a kind of yearning that is a little Too Palpable, so much so you could feel it sinking into the marrow of your bones from a mile away. he holds and caresses yuuji like a treasure to be cherished, fleeting and ephemeral and something he cant keep but wants to hold on to anyways. narratively i think it also just makes sense if yuuta's love has more a selfish edge to it where yuuji's affections feel more. benevolent? for lack of a better term

i think for a while yuuji gives off the impression that he is the clingier one even at their most subdued just because of how yuuji is as a person but yuuta is the long-standing heavyweight champion of longing. yearnmaster 3000 himself.

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happy late birthday byakuya. maximize your joint state-sponsored polycule slay (ref below)

omg hiiii!! thank you for asking actually i don't think i've ever spoken at length about what i think about okkoita's dynamic (and i am so glad you're taking an interest to them given how small okkoita nation is Lmao)

i think this reply thread sums up a lot about what i like about okkoita, but in my own words: i think their narrative parallels are reeeeeaaaaaally good and really Awesome. i'll try to be comprehensive but pardon if this gets kind of messy and hard to follow

TLDR is that i think they're both extremely similar but also fundamentally different and this makes for a great hypothetical relationship where they understand each other in ways no one else can but also have differences that contrast each other really well. on top of that they have pretty agreeable personalities and their quirks bode well to a lot of classic shippy tropes/trends/shitposts/etc. (also this is more of a me thing but i like senpai-kouhai dynamics lol)

as for the actual quasi-analysis,

right off the gate both of them embody the 2 most common shounen protagonist archetypes:

yuuji is the naive and brash but also empathetic and considerate kid-next-door type who gains overpowered strength and uses it to protect his friends/save the world/etc.

yuuta is the shy meek nice boy who is the underdog of some social class or underwent some personal tragedy who gains overpowered strength and uses it to protect his friends/save the world/etc.

and they both embody and subvert these archetypes in really neat ways:

yuuji plays his archetype a little straighter but embodies it kind of tragically; in the wake of losing the people he loves he dehumanizes himself as a cog in the machine that exorcises curses, and uses this as a renewed motivation to continue using his power to fight on. slowly its becomes less about "i can't pretend that sukuna/the world of jujutsu/etc. has nothing to do with me, so i have to act" to "i have to justify my existence after all these people i cared about died [because of me]"

but it's also worth noting that to this end yuuji does as much as he can to prevent unnecessary casualties. from the beginning he takes issue with defeating mahito's transmutated humans and more or less considers it close to killing innocent people. in the culling games he tries to avoid murdering other sorcerors.

he dehumanizes himself but simultaneously attempts to hold himself to a near impossible kind of moral standard (given the circumstances) and extend humanity to others. at his core he is someone who is resilient and caring and that manifests in the way he values to the people around him, especially in how he can often lift up morale in ways others cant (him patting gojo in the back where everyone didn't know what to say to him is a prime example, panda even mentions early in the series that he's cheerful in a way that's rare for sorcerors)

yuuta looks like he plays his archetype straight until you see that he doesn't really uphold the same like.... moral virtuosity that yuuji has, for lack of a better word? neither are necessarily perfect paragons but yuuji is closer to being one where yuuta is further from it. a lot of the love and loyalty yuuta extends manifests itself in really monstrous ways, he's basically the poster child for the series' theme of love being "the most twisted curse of all"

rika is an obvious example, but there's also when he swears to kill kenjaku himself so gojo doesn't have to kill geto twice, his fight in sendai where it's implied that if his friends didn't need the points he would've murdered ryu and uro, piloting gojo's dead body for the sake of unloading his burden and "becoming the monster" for everyone else's sake, etc.

(for something specific to okkoita, you could say him choosing to execute yuuji so no one else can and because he knows he can revive him, is a show of this love too.)

yuuta cares deeply for the people around him, but the difference between him and yuuji is that he is willing to and has already gone off the deep end if push comes to shove. to quote the reply thread i linked earlier, yuuta believes in salvation through suffering. this does not necessarily mean his love is more or less than yuuji's, more so i point it out to highlight an interesting contrast in who they are as people how the mechanism of their affections work

their parallels even continues into modulo, and this post from user @/karutas explains it super well!

they are people who are so SO similar in both who they are and the pains they have suffered and the cycles they are in, which makes me inclined to believe that they can relate to each other on a deeply intensively all-encompassing level and can find comfort in each other because of it. but at the same time, they are still fundamentally different people in spite of this in several key ways which adds a lot of narrative contrast and profound sources of interpersonal friction when they realize there are things they don't see eye-to-eye on in spite of their shared similiarity. and it's just. it's just.... its just!!!!!!