eat shit

sw: 186 lbs

cw: 137.8 lbs

gw: 135 lbs

ugw: 125 lbs

lbs to go til gw is reached: 2.8

lbs to go til ugw is reached: 12.8

feeling very distraught rn like the most ugly goblin of all time and it’s so frustrating bc probably like at least once a day a stranger will come up to me and call me pretty or gorgeous or beautiful

and im so grateful but i just do not get it at all. like i’m so full of myself sometimes, but other times like rn i don’t understand how anyone can think i’m attractive

i have very nordic features; i’m tall with a wide frame, wide jaw, pale skin, etc. and i just think it looks hideous on me.

it’s probably the situation where like i’ve seen myself so much that i can only see my flaws now as opposed to a stranger seeing me for the first time. but i rlly wish i could see what they see when i look at myself

i am absolutely beside myself. this is the lowest weight i’ve been probably since like 3rd grade.

didn’t expect it to take me until senior year of college to get here but whatever better late than never 😝

tell me how this man has lost SEVEN POUNDS in like TWO WEEKS and i’ve been gaining and losing the same 4lbs for the past year 😭😭😭

my bf is going on a cut and is taking it super seriously. which means i can go on a cut with him too

it’s been so hard to stay within my cal limit around him bc we’d go out to eat/get fast food/etc but now we’re like doing this together

and he keeps saying like “you don’t need to lose weight” “your cut doesn’t need to be that low” etc etc which makes me feel good 🥰

idk why bc i haven’t been eating more than i normally do & im so so so so scared guys wtf help meeee