“There’s no way for there to be no hard times, so I won’t pray that there won’t be any.
Instead I pray that you can have as many happy and joyful times as possible.”
Jihyo Reveals She Suffers From Anxiety, Depression, And Fear As She Apologized For Her Previous Post 💔
Realizing that ONCEs perhaps could have been hurt and disappointed by yesterday’s V-App chat, I apologize.
Let me try to slowly explain everything.
"After a ridiculous rumor about me started circulating back in March of last year, I think my fear of meeting people began to grow.
Even the time when I cried at the airport was because of the huge terror I felt towards the people who took photos of me, looked at me, and shouted at me. I felt so scared about how these people would think of me and what kind of mindset they had while looking at me.
And in August, my private life was revealed. Groundless rumors began to circulate and all the negative feelings like anxiety, depression, and fear grew immensely. It became difficult for me to stand in front of people, say even a word, or to even perform.
My fears began too large that I had to go to the hospital during our tour. I received consultation and medication but they didn’t help me much. Time went by and our Japanese tour began, but ever since our Japanese performance right before MAMA, it became much too difficult for me to be in crowded places.
I cried for all throughout the 3 consecutive days of performances from my fear and I just wanted to hide. I performed at MAMA in that condition. I had to face a lot more people than normal, I had to talk and perform, and even breathing became difficult for me.
I was worried that I would start crying again at the airport and that I would show everyone that I’m suffering, so I decided to return back to Korea at a later time than the rest of the members.
During the time that I mentioned – no, ever since I debuted, I’ve faced endless amounts of people talking bad about me, mocking me, and cursing at me. I was so hurt by it and enraged, but I had work to do, I had my career to continue, and I had my fans, so I just did nothing about it.
This is all there is to say about MAMA.
I’m not asking you to emphasize with me. I’m not venting, and I’m not asking you to understand. I just wanted to explain why I ended up posting negatively about some people.
There was never a time when I approached ONCEs with anything but my sincerity. There was never a time when ONCEs weren’t precious to me. There was never a time I stopped worrying about ONCEs, and I was completely sincere yesterday as well.
What I’m most sorry about is that I know so well that our team and ONCEs are facing another very difficult time right now. So I’m so sorry about talking through my emotions yesterday. I saw the posts that my members posted while trying to explain to ONCEs and our team. I also saw what ONCEs were talking about, and I decided that it was best for me to write my own explanation and organize what happened through this post.
The reason why I sing, perform, and converse in front of ONCEs is because I truly, sincerely wish for my and ONCEs’ happiness. The reason why I continue in this career is because I have ONCEs who love me and embrace me warmly. I can persevere through many different things, so I hope ONCEs don’t have to look at things that can hurt them.
I’m sure that since I’m a celebrity and an idol, there will be many issues and rumors to arise for various reasons, but I don’t want us to lose our happiness, our joy, and bright smiles to something else.
I’m sorry for making you worry, and thank you, ONCE. —Jihyo❤
This is why she is my Ultimate Bias ❤️
When I first learned about Twice, it was Jihyo's background as a ten-year trainee that caught me. Her physical transformation from SIXTEEN to YOY (the era I became a Once) inspired me. But more importantly, her articulation and eloquence as the leader of the group, in her speeches and ments, made me a fan.
Really glad she was able to express her self. I hope finds peace by sharing her piece. Not everyone is going to like her, but in this turbulent times of idols falling into despair, the fact that she got the courage to face up to her being human is admirable and respectable.
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