ALLISON

These words resonant so close to home.

I have always felt anxious about my future and would try to plan everything. I felt like I needed to be on the same 10 year plan as everyone else That definitely only leads to a "panic spiral."

As someone who was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 6 years ago, I have finally reached a point in my life where I am content in the now.

Last year, I couldn't walk without braces on both my legs, I was in speech therapy learning to talk and swallow again. I had a horrific MRI, my doctors thought I had developed a brain tumor in addition to the MS.

I underwent chemo in November for my multiple sclerosis (thankful for no tumor). I could have never predicted where the year would take me.

Currently, I'm doing better than I ever have.

It's so easy to get caught up in the everyday bussel of life. Am I doing enough? Am I missing out on something? Should I be at the same stage as everyone else? Actually, what is everyone else doing?

"To assume you have 20 years is ungrateful."

I try to live everyday to my personal best. Let's be honest, sometimes my personal best is binging Netflix on the couch with the cats. Other days, it's being a total kick ass nurse.

My life is not what I expected, it is not what I had planned, it's not what I envisioned it would be prior to my diagnoses. But, it is mine.

But what if I am alright right here 🧡

I am grateful everyday to be able to do what I love. To have true friends, a husband, and family that love me. At the end of the day, that's all that really matters.

Working as an emergency room nurse for that past decade, I know tomorrow isn't guaranteed.

When I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 6 years ago, I never thought this would be my life. After a series of what seemed like unfortunate events, I realized everything truly happens for a reason.

I am blessed with an amazing doctor, who more importantly is an amazing person. A true advocate for everyone. Who would have thought chemotherapy would be the best thing to happen to me? I have been given a second chance at my life.

I am able to walk without foot braces.... Actually I am dancing again. @taylorswift I cried tears of happiness when you performed Lover last night. Not only is the song beautiful, but I instantly recognized Misty. There are no words to describe the freeness that dance brings me.

I like to think my art is like your art. A chance to release, express myself, and temporary forget about everything happening in the world.

Thank you for always inspiring me. Thank you for giving me strength to pull through these next few days. The hard days are just stepping stones in my life. The bigger picture is happy, free and golden.

So the positives are that this treatment is slowly giving me my life back. @taylornation dropped new merch last night, so I got to do some middle of the night shopping. And @taylorswift dropped Lover Wedding song remix 💖

Nothing like a red chemo face and no sleep 😂 @taylorswift I swore I'd wear something related to you everyday of treatment. Yesterday was The Man, today is Cats 😻

It's hard to be vulnerable on social media. I want to appear strong, because I am strong. I have been fighting a debilitating illness for the past six years. Two years ago, my MRI report told me I had possibly developed a large brain tumor in addition to my multiple sclerosis. I have never been so happy to say "I just have MS."

In the pictures, I am smiling, I am filtered. I am showing you what I want you to see. What you can't see is the chest pain I am experiencing with every deep breath, the headache, the nausea, the inability to eat. The anxiety I feel from all the steroids. I haven't slept in days.

A gentle reminder that you are not alone and everyone is fighting a battle of their own. BE KIND. I believe we are all her to lift each other up and help one another live our best life. It is so easy to hide behind social media. Know that you are not alone.

I am sick, but I am also so thankful. I have found the best doctor and the best nurses. I am blessed by God with amazing family and friends who never leave my side. I have multiple sclerosis, but multiple sclerosis doesn't have me.

@taylorswift I don't know if you will ever see this or if you will ever know how much of an impact you have had on my life.

It's role reversal, but everyday my mom wishes she could take this disease away from me. Thank you for sharing these lyrics with us.

I know delusion when I see it in the mirror

You like the nicer nurses, you make the best of a bad deal

I just pretend it isn't real

I'll paint the kitchen neon, I'll brighten up the sky

I know I'll never get it, there's not a day that I won't try

Today I rang the bell

The hardest thing and the easiest thing. Learning what you can and cannot control.

I cannot control my disease, or the path my future will take. Does that scare me? YES. What I have learned is that I can only control the way I react. I trust that God has got me. One day at a time. We are never promised tomorrow.

Try to find the happiness in today 💖

I am almost 48 hours post chemo and I finally slept!!!!! 15 full hours of undisturbed healing. And I woke up to this. Sometimes it's the little things that bring us so much happiness 😻😻

Finally have a little energy....you know what that means. SWIFTMAS CARDS!!!

@taylorswift

Don’t you see the starlight? Don’t you dream impossible dreams💖

Relaxing in my Stella x @taylorswift. Surrounded by Lover 💖 Happy Saturday