A pontifical and warlike nature

“ –––– oh. ” 

For all that they never did get along, it wasn’t particularly unusual for the two of them to find themselves the only occupant of their meeting spaces. Enjolras, because he often lost himself in whatever he was working on ; Grantaire, because –––– well, Enjolras really wasn’t sure why Grantaire came to their meetings in the first place, given that he seemed to dislike everything they discussed, much less why he sticks around so long afterwards. 

God only knew what possessed him to break their habitual silence today, to cross the invisible divide separating them in their respective corners of the room. Maybe it was the lingering aftereffects of his conversations earlier with Courfeyrac about the necessity of reaching out to more people to gather more support for their efforts. So much for that ; a dozen words into their conversation, and here they were. Perhaps this is why they didn’t often speak directly to each other –––– evidently, nothing good was to come of it.

“ Uh-huh. Thanks. ”

“ You mean that one guy from the econ department ? Good. ”

The man in question had been an unwelcome guest in their last few meetings, sneering in a corner as he periodically interrupted discussions with sudden heckling and smug, unhelpful counterpoints. If he’d been punched, then he’d gotten nothing more than what he had coming all along. 

You got: Echinacea Tea

You are a protector, a visionary who strives to make the world a better place for those around you. Not only are you fundamentally kind and caring, but you have the drive to turn your big heart into big action. Sometimes your altruistic and humanitarian attitude makes those closest to you feel unimportant, so take the time to remind them how you love them *specifically*. And don’t forget to take time for yourself, either. You’ll burn yourself out if you make taking care of others your full-time job.

14. Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

can I say “ both ” or is that too much of a copout. the negative is that I’m both a very sedentary and an introverted person by nature, and rp ( and tumblr / the internet in general ) does a great job of enabling my worst hermit-y tendencies. I can blame rp for getting me into tumblr, and for all the time since then that i’ve sunk into this blue hellsite. the positive is the people i’ve met through it. some of them, i reconnected with after like three years of losing touch with one another, and it’s like we never stopped being friends. i dare hope that we’ll stay lifelong friends. this is the internet, of course, and people pop up and disappear all the time, but i hope that the friendships i have will last me forever. and even if they don’t last until i’m 80, i still can say that i’ve met some wonderful people, and we’ve shared some wonderful things. 

15. How has rp changed you personally?

I don’t know that the act of roleplaying has changed me much –– it’s made me a better writer and a more close reader ( to texts I care to devote that much energy to, at least ), but I’m not sure that it’s had a great impact on me as a person. the people I’ve met through rp is a differently story. i’ve learned to be a kinder person –– to be unashamedly and loudly kind to people, especially people that i care about. ( it’s easier to do on the internet, for some reason, but i try to bring it into real life too. ) i’ve learned not to be ashamed of the things i enjoy, even if it makes me look like a huge nerd ( newsflash : i am a huge nerd. ) i’ve learned to be more self-aware and more deliberate about how i go about and exist and interact in the world. i’ve just learned so much. and i’ve found friends with whom i can share my nerdery as well as my deepest insecurities and vulnerabilities. i just. i love them i love i love i love and i’m so grateful. 

4. How do you explain rp to someone in the real world ?

The short answer is that I don’t ? The longer answer is that I don’t talk about RPing ( beyond maybe a generic I occasionally do some writing ) to people who I feel like will judge me for it or look at me oddly or whatever. So if I’m talking about it at all, I’m talking about it to close friends whom I can afford to sound weird to. I’m pretty sure I’ve literally said I used to roleplay –– wait, not the sex thing before. My explanation tends to be something along the lines of “ writing as a character with other people online, ” or maybe “ it’s like fanfic, but you only write one character and someone else writes another character. ” Good enough, I guess. 

11. What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

oooooooh this is a good question. hmph. I think a big one is that you’re not obligated to write anything or with anyone that you don’t want to. I’m pretty bad at saying no to people in general, and it was worse when I was a baby RPer and insecure about, well, everything. I made myself write a lot of things that made me uncomfortable, and write with a few people that I didn’t really click with, and I really didn’t have to do that. 

30. How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?

Too goddamn much. I absorb tumblr / internet lingo like a dumbass sponge and regurgitate it in real life, to the extreme confusion of 1) my coworkers, 2) my less internet-y friends, and 3) even my internet-y friends that don’t occupy my precise corner of the internet.