Pony

Age :14

Favorite eyebrow: the right one

My buuuurthday: September 25th

Favorite show(s): pen15 , American horror story , Wayne. Anne with an e

Favorite movies: dinner in America, I BELIEVE IN UNICORNS,dead poets society and uhhh bones and all also miss peregrines home for peculiar children

Favorite food: rfisaaaaa

Favorite drink: milk milk milk milk milk milk milk and Pepsi or coke

Things I like: red pens, space and the sky, flying, feathers, skinny dudes, my bsf, boobs, stretch marks, imagination , music and movies and art in general, mental issues (I’m interested in how it works and affects a person), politics and history, eyebags, Tate langdon, sleeping, being alone. Culture , kinks, being unique. Broccoli pasta and eye contact

I am bisexual and I can’t sleep without crossing my toes

I like Lana and mazzy star and Jeff Buckley and Duran Duran

And I’m Moroccan and Arab mixed

This account scares me

My mom beat the shit outta me

Idek why I did that I guess I thought I was cool

I still wonder why my mom dragged me by my hair through the hallway and beat me up on a random day in 2021

Probably cause my brother caused some trouble and she took it out on me

I literally couldent breathe cause of how much i cried mind you my dad had died that year and i was just so fucking miserable and she comes and beats the shit outta me every week or so

I still remember one time she pulled my hair so rough i felt that area like it was not attached to my skull anymore

I will never forgive her I’ve never encountered so much hate that strong by anyone

I still remember thinking why teachers liked me so much cause I was convinced I was wrong in general

That I was unwanted by everyone

And she pisses me the fuck off cause wdym ur complaining about dying my hair when u dyed it for me

Like if u don’t see that it’s right why allow me and then talk shit afterwards

And lowkey she’s such a betrayer like I just know she told everything I said to her husband

I know she broke my trust completely I’ll never tell her anything

And 2021 was probably my worse year of the 20s cause my dad died , I was miserable as fuck , and she took all her frustrations out on me when I’m the most unproblematic I guess sibling compared to my older brother, I didn’t have any friend like barely any, was alone all the time at school and we moved out like 4 times that year

I was the easiest birth out of all 4, why am I the most hated then

Was it because I spoke up about (it)

Was it because I was like her

Was it because she never wanted me

I wonder if she died instead what would’ve happened

Was I gonna live with my dad’s family?

But at the same time I love the Moroccan side of me and I think I would be disconnected from my Moroccan culture so I wouldn’t want my mom to die

Id like to think I was innocent and happy at one point, but I was always fucked in the head.

As young as 6 years old.

And as old as 14 years old

She always lied about her being unproblematic in my age and during her teenage

But I heard some crazy stories about her life

She has some crazy lore though

And also I think that’s how my life is supposed to be, I am not bothered by not having a father he would’ve probably been a fuckin creep anyways he abused my mom and I witnessed

I think about what would’ve happened if they didn’t come back to each other after their first divorce

When I was still a toddler

I am happy that I get to learn about my Moroccan side of me and interact with my Moroccan relatives

And my dads side is fucking evil anyways so fuck them fuck my mom and lowk fuck my dad too

But I look pretty

Well it might just be a trim but I hopeeee I cut my hair a bit shorter

Just a bit like to my underboob

Like do u realize we were kids during covid

Thanks mom it’s not like all ur shit talk is enough