Paige’s Place!

Though it doesn’t pass my collar bone

As the tides push and pull

The sands change beyond my control

Faces pass and blur together

All of it appealing to you

The harmonies that you exude

An inner symphony ringing true

Never is there a doubt

No pause nor hesitate

Music is what you create

From you to me I resonate

It’s bold and earnest

Making me question if I deserve this

To trace your outline with my eyes

Breaking down what I want as mine

Sunlight catching on your face

How I am jealous of its embrace

Able to stay by your side

But it seems I’ve found it with you by my side

To die is not to have survived

The cage that confines leads to hearts distraught

The illusion of liberation a mere trade, never a gift

Gentle rays of life cast and filter through one

Oh, to be grounded by your presence, a miracle upon infinity

I’ll grow in gratitude, my roots set so definitively

Holding to you the palm of my hand

Waves crashing out, gaining legs on land

When the soil is upturned

The sand creeps in as if it’s learned

But to be faced with a radiant meadow

Luck will have that this could grow.

Breathing to life reprise and strife,

But vital and glorious in nature,

Holding steady, never-ending favor,

Blossoming into you—a privilege to savor.

Through fields of ever-changing sprouts,

A hope that strengthens and never doubts.

Never-ending and ever-seeking,

Without lungs, how do I keep breathing?

From your embrace, life is seeping.

Inhale your intoxicating fumes;

Puzzled by the way this all ever became

So distant from my memory but close in relation

You took more than I could share,

And that snake slide on through

You left me for saftey

I think in that moment I knew

You would always chose you

Survival of the fittest

And I never quite cut it

You’ll never share

I’ll never talk

You never care

I felt it the most

Cause you shut it down

And ran underground

Turning it off like that’s not a cost

Better off without the pain

No need to heal

If you never ache

I’m stuck behind the glass

Every glimpse of love

Kept me hooked for another month

I burned you back

For harm that you “lacked”

Never aware what you didn’t share

I wanted revenge

For this to end

The truth in the lie

I sought for you to provide

To prove that I was wrong

I kept seeking from you

knowing damn well

You never come through

It’s not that I love you

And I don’t think I ever will again

I just miss the way it felt in my skin

Like the rush of a cigarette

I was addicted

I loved the sensation

Every time I put you to my lips

It was enough

Never when I wanted

Only when defeated

Filling my lungs

And suffocating

Still I came back

Habits that bend but don’t snap

Carved your name into my blood

We feel like friends

And I try my hardest to survive

What comes next

And how do we let

Even a single wall come down

Cause you shut me out

And I got lost in doubt

Bleeding us both out to death

Can we become

Over and done

Back to the start younger at heart

Denying the truth

The one I’ve come to

Colders the shoulder turned to you

I hate to admit what I’d undo

If it’s a fact you’re gone with the past

I’ll never stop looking back

Ingrained in my brain the way that you say

I still hear you calling my name

Stuck on repeat

I stare at my phone and fight to the bone

Carved into my system

No choice of my own

Bleeding to the bone

I take to the stars

And never recall you or ours

Strung out in the past

Good thing bad things don’t last

Empty words and change

You’re perfect to the touch

I think you’re so cute

And I just adore you!

I love you so much

I hope you know as such

If I could shape the stars in the sky

About you loving me in my head

That you’d glance at me tenderly

While I stared ahead

Maybe that explains it

Why I never saw affection

You only ever gave it while I wasn’t paying attention

Of course I blame myself

It seems like you always knew this would end

It couldn’t possibly make sense that you would pretend

So I gathered all the evidence I planted on my own

Framing you as the hero while I cast another stone

I called upon the people

I tell them it’s my truth

I proclaimed that I loved you

It was wrong that I assumed you did too

As stories tend to paint

A villain and a victim

Somehow you still remain silently in position

With your arms by your side

See not a weapon in site

“The wicked this way she comes”

Cursing the lack of defenses

Drawing blood from the sun

It’s like you wanted the sentence

To what do I owe my honor

A liar or a mirage

Carving out the same path

You swore that you’d never trod

I made up a fantasy

About you loving me in my head

That you’d glance at me tenderly

While I stared ahead

Maybe that explains it

Why I never saw affection

You only ever gave it while I wasn’t paying attention

Lost in a daydream

A fantasy

A hazing

Calling to myself

Rationale seemingly fading

I made up a fantasy

About you loving me in my head

That you’d glance at me tenderly

While I stared ahead

Maybe that explains it

Why I never saw affection

You only ever gave it while I wasn’t paying attention

Truth be told

I guess I also knew

There was never happily ever after