Spilled Words

When you have no power what so ever to change the game.

When no matter how hard you want to help so it doesn’t fall apart, you can’t.

When no matter how much you need someone to help you, they won’t. 

A silent scream and  yet so loud. 

A cry for help and yet so calm.

A need for light and yet so dark. 

And all your movement, all your thoughts say you you are okay. 

And yet your heart just begs for reason why it’s dark. 

Begs for light and for explain why and how come it’s aching.

Hopes to find a thread to tie it all together. 

And when through the years, you still on your own,

You stop believing in the dawn. 

So what do you do when it all goes down in flames?

As you walk by by this big closed casket

It breaks your heart to think of changes.

Front row third left right in the middle

Sit down right there next to a widow. 

You hide your face, you hide your pain

You know things’ll never be the same

Fire in your chest, cold in your eyes

In thoughts soft hands and two blue stars.

You think of morning pancakes made so rough

They had no taste but were five stars

All made with love in your old t-shirt…

Would give all back to have her with them. 

Your knees are shaking. Eyes on you.

Black piece of paper. Thousand words.

From what you’ve read you just remember. 

Her life between eight numbers. 

done. 

Four empty chairs

With hopes for future

Two empty Jacks

When you feel down and all alone

When you feel hurt and can’t go on

You take my hand and let me drive

To unknown place where you can hide.

Away from world and all the pain

Away from neighbours who complain 

and say your pain is not the same

as all the problems they contain. 

Who say that you are just to young

To feel this way and it’s just dumb,

Say you do this  to get attention 

When you just want it not be mentioned. 

So take my hand and let’s move on

Jump in the car and we’ll be gone