pocket full of poesies

we should be back

to our regularly scheduled

programming today

.

i have better things

i need to do

.

thank you

for your patience

and understanding

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

.

i'm glad you did

what's best for you...

.

i'm doing what's

best for me, too...

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

remaining silent

when the times

and challenges

call for words

and action

is weakness,

cowardly

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

...if the only choices

i have

are to stand up,

take responsibility

for my actions and words,

mistakes and hurt

i've caused

and tend the situation

i helped get us into

like a triage nurse

with urgency and fortitude,

dedicated, unwavering,

committed to making things

better for the both of us,

even if that means

we don't stay

together...

.

...or instead,

run away and hide,

pretend i'm totally fine,

go silent

with no resolutions,

and the only

formal declarations being

it's over and

we can't be in the house

at the same time...

.

...i'd choose

every single time

to be a bigger better person,

to do the hard things now

rather than

the harder things later,

to stay

and find a way...

.

...because

* there's always a way *

with compromise

and communication,

willingness to grow

and change,

and letting the love

shine through

above all else

.

...otherwise

it's just goodbye...

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

now i see

you never made

a formal commitment

so you could walk away

scott free and blame it all

on me

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

i was in the palm

of your strong

and capable hands,

trusting you...

knowing you could

fuck me over

so hard

...and you did

...you did

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

if the way

we grow up

was a fucked up

push and pull,

then a fucked up

push and pull

feels safe to you,

like home to you,

(not good to you)

and you might hold tight

to and reproduce

this chaos

as an adult

.

as an adult though

we have a new home

we have a new family

we have a new choice

and voice

we can use for deciding

if the fucked up

push and pull

is really best

for us, for all

and how we want

and need to

continue our living

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

get help

if they won't

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

i am never

being given hurt

from the universe -

i am always

being given choice

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

when i stopped

trying to understand

what happened

and why,

it was very clear

how it was

and what needed

to be done

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

her forever / his maybe

sure ain't the same page

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies

it's far easier

to cut someone off

clean and complete

if you blame them

for everything

and make it

all their fault

that you chose

to be hurt

.

~ @pocketfullofpoesies , not my style, never will be