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I’ve been trying the whole journaling thing and I always sounds so stupid until I actually write about whatever emotion is overcoming me and I feel so much relief. The notebook is great but maybe here some people would actually talk to me idk

I miss my ex, I miss him a lot. We’ve been sleeping together after a year of not being together and I wish we could reconnect intimately. I don’t wanna say I want things back to the way they were cause obviously that didn’t workout. I would like to try just simply dating again but I really think he couldn’t care less about my existence unless i’m messaging him for a hook up. At first I was just using the hook ups as a means to be able to see him cause I missed him so fucking much. The more we’ve hooked up the more I realize I can’t shake my feelings for him. I feel like our relationship ended weirdly, idk it could be just me overthinking or something. (I don’t wanna get into that) I wanna ask him so I could just get it over with and more over but i’m so fucking terrified. I wanna just be able to talk to new people and just move but I can because I’m fucking terrified or introducing myself/ meeting new people. I also get ghost so much that if it was a sport i’d take first place. I know this is all stupid but at the end of the day, I’m just a human with feelings and I just wanna talk about it sometimes.

I fucking hate how normalized it is to ghost people.