Under New Management

If you're here, you probably know how this kind of blog works. Are you plural? Do you want to shout into the void? You're in the right place.

If you want your post untagged, put "untagged" at the end (separate line) and I will not tag it with community tags (#plurality, #actually plural, etc).

If you send an anonymous confession and sign off with an active blog, I will tag the blog in the body of the post.

Any manner of people can be plural. I will block any blog if I find out that it is being used to enable violence against others (Nazism, etc), but DNIs do not work, and as a result: This blog does not have a DNI, but we will be maintaining one hard boundary.

This blog will never be a safe space for ableists and bigots who target plurals of any kind.

Endogenics are firmly welcomed. Spirituals, metaphysicals, and non-psychological plurals will be fiercely defended from any cruelty.

This blog is purposefully difficult to search, and is excluded from search engines, as well as those without an account. For the sake of not being evaded, I can not say how I will be safeguarding this blog, but I will be doing everything within my power to make this blog as difficult for malicious actors to target as possible.

As always, be safe, and as kind to each other as possible!

why do new people form in front? why can't people enter or leave front while a new person is forming? is it just whoever is in front when the new person starts forming that stays there, or are specific people brought to front for this and we just haven't noticed yet because those people are usually in front anyways? why is it so tiring to be in front for the entire time a person is forming? we've had people front for longer than it takes new folks to form and that wasn't tiring. does whoever is fronting while the new person is forming influence the new person in any way?

my answers for these questions include:literally nothing. idfk man I'm doing all this research for myself and I keep forgetting to write my process down

in conclusion:being a system host is wild and I'm possibly the perfect guy for it because I'm The Guy Who Overanalyzes Everything but also I wish I could just google things about my system and get answers instead of having to be the world's most unprofessional field researcher in our own head

So two are in a romantic relationship, which they hadn't put a name to until now, and one of those two is in a queerplatonic relationship(?) with the third person but also I think don't wanna call it qpr but don't know what else to call it. We're in the process of drawing them all matching pfps since the others we found (they're fictives and sourcemates, but there's very little art of all three close together) are unfortunately used by multiple people in one of our servers except ONE piece of art that they're using in the meantime

So um. Mostly resolved, I think? Everyone is just adjusting now cause new relationship(s) and all that

I'm probably the worst one in the system by a long shot idk why I'm still the host or how I'm still well liked I have straight up nothing going for me compared to the others.

The little is cute and sweet and makes so many people love him by just being there.

The caregivers are kind and caring and understanding and comforting in ways that I can't even fathom.

The persecutor protects us and our friends to make sure everybody is okay.

The co-host is funny and always knows how to make people smile, even if he is a bit of a dipshit.

The ones with no set roles are still just incredibly great people regardless.

Meanwhile I have nothing. No wonder I feel like the least favorite headmate. I just fuck shit up and feel guilty. Everybody's better and the things I love. Everybody's more comforting than I could ever be. I just feel so worthless. I wish I could just go dormant forever. Maybe then everybody would be happy.

I wish I could just fix whatever is innately wrong with me so that my headmates and our friends can be happier. Whatever. I'm probably only the host because I'm the only one who knows how to drive.

idk just something interesting we've noticed recently

We're not against polyamory, but uncomfortable with it, mainly when it regards any of us, because of a bad experience or two with it and fears/insecurities/etc from our PDs

I don't want to abuse my power as permacon host and core when it doesn't even affect me or my insys partner or body's outsys partner but also I don't know what to do..? They seem happy but I don't know. Maybe I'm just an asshole..

-a curious light introject

I might be a symptom holder actually

we were yelled at here and there, went through school with undiagnosed autism, sometimes filmed when crying (in order to get us to stop). this is all.

even so, there are certain forms of abuse that we take an unusual amount of interest in. we hear stories from actual victims and immediately imagine protecting them against their abusers. and sometimes tearing said abusers limb from limb. we feel like it could explain some of our experiences.

but there is no real evidence that it happened to us. no unusual scars, phantom pains, phobias. our system's architecture itself lacks the telltale signs. really, all we know is that trying to talk about it makes our head a bit fuzzy. and if we say it outright it would feel horrible.

we are maladaptive daydreamers and writers; great at making things up. we found something that interested us and as we researched, we developed false symptoms and memories. teachers and counsellors have said we tend to catastrophise and expect the worst.

we've always liked tragic backstories. it is not unreasonable to suggest that we wished our life was more interesting — that we had some sort of conspiracy to unravel, a mystery to solve, anyone to blame for our symptoms but us.

we wish we were abused more, because it would give us an excuse for being the way we are. it would mean that our suffering was not created by ourselves. but we were never abused in that way.

there is nowhere for us to go without harming real victims or joining communities that would enable us further.