i needed you.

are people becoming more annoying or am i becoming more angry

hello void, is there anyone out here who has experience with dissociation?? mine is getting worse and worse, and its got to the point where i can look down at my hands/arms and not feel connected to them at all (like they are someone elses and i have no control over them). i can control it in some situations when it happens (which at the moment is usually more often than not) but it happens sometimes when im driving and its terrifying, and i dont know how to stop it. does anyone have any advice?

i used to think it was fun and interesting to get into debates about feminism or racism, or in general challenge people’s bigotry and prejudice and call them out. but recently it’s become a burden. it’s a chore now. i no longer want to debate about whether or not i should have basic human rights, this shouldn’t even be a fucking issue anymore. i no longer go into these discussions with an open mind and a light-hearted demeanor, now i’m fucking furious. i should not have to defend my humanity at every single step, repeatedly and constantly. i’m done.

There’s just no reason to lie to me…I’m too understanding. I get shit. I get life. I know shit happens. I know when it’s not that deep.