o im back?

ive been working on myself since graduation honestly, my depression was worse than it had ever been and my mental health kept declining until finally it all kinda imploded haha

but in the bright side i have been really successful in keeping a journal since graduation!! its just sketches but im really proud of how many pieces i actually finished rather than quit partway through

long story short i am back after a four ish month stay in an eating disorder recovery clinic. i had relapsed to the point of hospitalization but now that im starting to recieve all the billing statements im!!! encouraged to leave recovery sooner than my team has advised.

i love all the amazing people i met through treatment and cherish the hell out of them, but unfortunately now im kinda out on my own with all the support i had at the clinic gone. now im just left to think about all the people i isolated from when my anorexia started showing her face

at least that allows me the comfort of knowing ive grown since that time, but still. its discouraging to look back on the relationships i would have liked to have continued growing and see how they were dismantled. i hate associating with the “self” i had to be to survive my mental state back then.