hey gang. iâm probably gonna remove coomerâs theme entirely or fuck with it some other way, so iâm not putting this under a read more so everybody can still read it.
youâre probably wondering where the hell i went so abruptly. basically, iâm not really planning to ever return to tumblr rp. weâre at a point now where itâs just. diminishing returns.
iâve created some great dynamics in character, on coomer and on mario, and thereâs a lot of really excellent people iâve met through tumblr rp out of character (doc, cognac, frank, nikki, dakota, maunder, etc - i love you all very much, and my life would be so much more painful without your friendships.)
but. even trying to focus on the good things iâve built through rp has stopped being able to make rp worth it.
iâm constantly followed on all of my blogs (especially mario, for some reason?) by helluva/hazbin/bnha blogs or people who seem to literally only interact with the users on the blocklist i subscribe to. i went and checked, and although it seems iâve only got five people blocked for this kind of stuff on coomer? iâve blocked an impossible amount of people for this stuff, mostly for being hazbinnies. like probably 20+
more recently, this constant ignoring of boundaries really got to me. like. i donât know what it was, honestly. maybe it is because thatâs what this kind of behavior boils down to - itâs an ignoring of boundaries. and these boundaries shouldnât be fucking hard to follow. on mario, especially.Â
i fucking edited. the html. of marioâs theme. so that one cannot see the follow button on desktop, and have to click through to read the rules google doc to find the follow link. i made my boundaries very clear in the mobile header, so mobile users can see it. iâve made pinned posts about it.
like. i donât know what else to do. i shouldnât have to do anything, really - it should be, yâknow, understood, that no matter your own opinions on a fandom/media, someoneâs boundaries are someoneâs boundaries and theyâre not up for debate, especially not when itâs at the fucking top of their rules regarding rp.
but thatâs just the thing about tumblr, i guess. people just donât give a shit and will not give a shit, i guess. and. it got to me. a hazbinnie followed me, asked if we could still rp. and something about that got to me, and i had a genuine breakdown and minor mental health emergency. iâm honestly still not at my best.
i guess itâs probably just the lasting impact of the other garbage experiences iâve had on tumblr in quick succession finally catching up to me - if you know me, youâre probably familiar with the pedo-excusing fall of the cuphead rpc, and the su rpc.*
*this. might count as a name drop, perhaps? but in my opinion, the behavior exhibited by the grown adults here warrants being mentioned, again and again, especially with how many people, myself included, were affected. i got namedropped and lied about to 40+ people, i donât care about the feelings of borderline abusers whoâve already blocked me lol
anyway - iâm sorry for starting spongebobâs blog and then never doing anything with it, but even before these events, my faith in this website as a way to rp was already funky, and then genuinely being harmed by my own frustration really was the kicker. i definitely realize now i never shouldâve made that blog at all.
thatâs it, i guess. i realized that all trying to rp on tumblr (and possibly in general, tbh) is going to do is hurt me, and. iâm better than that. third timeâs the charm and all that shit - this is the third time in very recent succession iâve felt so low just because of rp.Â
if we were in a discord server together, feel free to send me a friend request. iâm vaguely active on my personal tumblr if you want that, too, and have a dA for making adoptables and doing small ych/comms. but i really donât have any intent of touching tumblr again for rp, and iâm most likely gonna be taking steps to prevent myself from returning again like giving access to my accounts to other people. itâs finally been proven to me that itâs just not worth it.
iâm gonna reblog this to the different blogs i have, and then log out for the last time. thanks for being here, i guess.
a final note, also: âŚ..5 people followed my mario blog. thatâs great and all, but - each one followed days after i completely blanked out the rules and made them just say that i was never returning to the blog. that doesnât feel good. that seems a lot like. none of them even clicked the link to my rules - why. why would you follow a dead blog, whoâs not coming back? thatâs. not good lol. thanks guys. iâll keep this in mind if i ever get tempted to return, as a good reason not to.