talk me down (i wanna hold hands with you) (johnny/ten)
Ten and Johnny’s friendship turns sexual, but they’re not dating, cuz, you know, Johnny’s not gay. Ten’s in love with him though, but how can he tell them when they never talk about any of it?
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Characters: Ten, Johnny; the rest of nct intermittently
Genre: angst, smut (not very sweet smut tho), hurt/comfort, mutual pining
Warnings: homophobia, internalized homophobia, references to self harm, homophobic slurs; it’s just quite heavy
Rating: Explicit
Length: 2k
It started sudden and quiet, as most things do. One second they were sitting next to each other in bed, just two boys, best friends, and the next moment their phones were discarded on the table and Johnny was pulling Ten into his lap, kissing clumsily but sure. When they broke apart, Johnny’s eyes were shining, and Ten felt like he’d just been thrown into a dryer on high. They had a little unspoken conversation with their eyes, and then Ten said, “I have lube and stuff in my dresser,” and Johnny just nodded for him to go get it. And, just like with everything else they did, they fumbled their way through the sex, but there was something sweet in their gracelessness and their youth. And before Ten had left for his own room afterwards, Johnny, limbs heavy with drowsiness, had reached out for Ten, and whispered, “This doesn’t change anything between us, right? We’re still friends,” and Ten had nodded. Johnny smiled his familiar smile, dropping his hand back to the mattress.
And just like that, sudden and quiet, Ten fell in love.
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