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the rest of this train of thought is: i currently work 50-55 hours/week in a bakery, so i'm a little worn out depending on the day, and my two days off are spaced across the week, so it's hard to want to sit inside for a day and not go outside. i also suffered a major concussion in februrary, and recalling words has been difficult. outside of the fear of not remembering those huge scenes, call-back moments, full story moments, character arcs and growth, and all those wonderfully nuanced details that would lead to major pay-offs for invested readers, i am also afraid of my writing skills, and just how visibly they've degraded. or how hair-ripping-out it would be behind the scenes when i'm trying to write these things and it's too hard now.