danjangz & youngliz addict

im a semi-devoted danjanger and younglizer...... but i can jump ship sometimes #notloyal

i also ult loona ot12 if anyone cares...

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omg

and esp cuz gaeul was the trainee leader back in their trainee days until iz*one disbanded and yujin + wony joined them in training thats when gaeul lost her leader position to yujin. maybe gaeul has a little resentment from that time, but being trainee leader was really exhausting so at the time she was really happy yujin became the leader of ive.

in the beginning, yujin was focused on being a good leader---focused on arranging schedules, catching mistakes and refining details in their choreo because she has so much pressure on her shoulders to lead the team to success. yujin believed that the key factor in dictating whether they successed or failed was based on her leadership.

but as well in the beginning, yujin would often turn to gaeul for advise and just to confide about her struggles with her because gaeul had been the trainee leader for years while yujin was previously the loving doting maknae of izone who has now suddenly been thrusted into a leadership role. gaeul was happy to be the shoulder for yujin to lean on.

in the early days, yujin would come to gaeul for advise. they would spend hours on end talking alone. some days, gaeul would take yujin out to get some fresh air when she notices how much yujin has buried herself in her responsibilities. in return, yujin would treat gaeul to dessert as a token of her appreciation. gaeul loved spending time with yujin. seeing the more vulnerable side of yujin made her heart swoon; she was the only one who ever saw this side of her. with the rest of the girls, yujin was fierce, confident, and assertive, but with gaeul, she was soft-spoken, caring, and she was small. gaeul was her unnie and yujin could be her loving dongsang.

but sometime after their debut, yujin became more confident in her role as a leader. there was a small shift in their dynamic. yujin stopped coming to gaeul with her concerns and fears as a leader. instead, yujin drifted farther away from her. she became a confident leader. the executives and fans all praised her amazing leadership skills and professional edge---some even going as far to say she was a natural-born leader. yujin had gained the confidence she once lacked and needed to come to gaeul for reassurance. gaeul isn't bitter. or at least, she tries to ignore these comments. gaeul basically made yujin into the leader she is, why is no one praising her?

the rift between the two grows so intensely. yujin seems to be closer to the other members now. gaeul watches how close yujin and rei have gotten---them bothing going on outings together every chance they get and gaeul being left at home alone. again, she isn't jealous of the two of them. what yujin does is her buisness.

when yujin interacts with gaeul, she feels more standoffish and cold towards the older girl. it was like the two were compete strangers. the warmth that once filled her voice when she spoke to gaeul has suddenly disappear. yujin speaks to her like she was another one of their staff members, not like a mentor or friend who guided her through her toughest time. gaeul wondered what changed, but deep down, she knew what changed between them.

at music shows and award ceremonies, gaeul is tortured with the relationships between other groups. she sees le sserafim backstage at a music while passing through the halls. she didn't mean to linger and easedrop, but she could help it. she couldn't help but notice the affection in chaewon's voice as she talked to sakura---fiiled to the brim with warmth. the sounded like a warm hug, but felt like an arrow to gaeul's heart. she remembers when yujin used to speak with her like that back in the early days. the pain of the memory was unbearable; somedays, she wishes she could erase them.

the pain in her heart grows even more painful when she spots nayeon and jihyo interacting during an award show. gaeul had already started to space out twenty minutes into the opening---thinkning about nothing in particular. but when she snaps back down to the present moment, her eyes fixate on nayeon and jihyo sitting at the table in front of them. she notices how close they're sitting together, holding hands tightly while watching the performance intensly. she watches as nayeon leans in close to jihyo's ear and whispers something that makes jihyo quietly giggle. they lean impossibly closer to each other. she could almost feel the warmth from them radiating back towards her.

she looks down at her own hands in her lap, then to her left where yujin was sitting. there was a noticable gap between them that made her feel oddly cold even with the blanket laying neatly across her lap. yujin was watching the performance as well, a polite smile resting on her face as she groves along to the music. the space between was so wide, they might as well have been sitting at different tables, maybe some might even mistake them as members of different groups that were forced to share a table together. she remembers the nights when the two of them would hold hands, huddling close together to avoid the brisk cold air of the winter as they walked along the han river. she remembers of the warmth of yujin's hands covering her own, the feeling of yujin's body heat warming her own heart up. now her body was cold, and yujin was miles away on her left.

it frusterates gaeul to wits end how much her relationship with yujin changed in a matter of seconds. she rememebers how sweetly yujin smiled at her when they bid each other good night after returning home from a night together. then suddenly, the next morning, yujin was gone. she had disappeared for a few days---citing a family emergency. gaeul had taken over the leadership role temporally during dance practices, but she didn't do much. everything else, she left to the dance teachers and managers to decide. she misses the way her heart would beat out of her chest when she was with yujin, now she feels like her heart barely beats at all.

one day, during a particularly stressful dance practice, she just snaps. yujin was being a little to much towards all the members, but to gaeul in particular, yujin seemed to be more critical of every little mistake she made. it felt unfair. gaeul couldn't take it. they only had just started learning the choreo yesterday, mistakes were a given in the first two days as they all tried their best to memorize everything. instead of taking the berating from yujin with a dismissive smile, she snapped.

she fought back. she quipped back snarky remarks towards yujin. she would've caught herself if she was in the right headspace, but she just couldn't take it anymore. yujin looked shocked as soon as the words left her mouth, but she wasn't going to back down. she had to assert herself as the leader.

the two went back and forth, passive-aggressively exchanging remarks towards each other. the members watched in silence, none of them strong enough to gather the courage to stop either of them. everything that had brewing inside of gaeul, the resentment, the jealousy, the hurt, came bubbling out of her and spewed out into the words she projected towards yujin.

yujin kept defending herself, refusing to back down or deescalate the situation.

they kept going until gaeul released the bomb.

"it must be nice being picked as the leader. you can say anything you want. you can use me as a stepping stone to get your foot up, then completely discard me as soon as everyone around us praises your 'natural' leadership ability."

the room went silent. yujin looked hurt by gaeul's words, but she couldn't careless. she stormed out shortly after, unable to handle the aftermath. the regret comes flooding in her brain as soon as she stepped into the freezing hallway, storming down it. unsure of where to go, she lets her legs lead her out of the building, tears streaming down her face.

YES!

but also no bc shes my bby boy that i need to protect with my entire life.... butt...........

so when they get to the hotel room, gel has had enough of yj antics and ties her limbs up (with a collar and leash on) and just lets her lay there, occasionally teasing her and letting her get close to coming before then completely leaving the room and letting her cry out for (again like a pup)...

maybe gaeul also forces yj to call her oppa too (self indulgent fallderz yaoi) and she probs also spanks yj for being too loud bc she can hear yj crying from the hallway of the hotel (bad puppy)

i havent watched obsession yet but from what ive heard ab it, i do agree they would fit bear and nikki quite well.

i personally have always liked the idea of jw having a small obsession and stalking wy in her daily life, yearning for small glimpses of wy every day. she wants more, but shes too scared to do more but watch from afar and collect small items wy leaves behind---nothing crazy. jw believes her crush on wy is so obvious but wy is oblivious to her feelings, which doesn't motivate her to do anything ab it.

but wy, she knows ab jw's feelings. she likes the feeling of jw standing from afar and watching her every move. during times when jw's attention isnt on her, wy feels crazy--- like she can't sit still or act rational. during these moments, wy will follow jw around in secret, watching her every move and listening to every conversation; jw doesn't notice this at all. wy's desperation grows more intensely as each day passes. she needs more of jw.

wy's own obsession flourishes quickly. she cant remember a life where she wasn't surveilling jw 24/7, and yet jw still hasnt noticed. wy's collection of items and pictures has grown exponentially. she has many items of clothing from jw's bag that still smell delightful like her, she has pictures printed out that hang on her wall---beautiful candid photos where jiwon looks ethereal. she even has a secret binder of pictures of jiwon in the middle of changing clothes from the locker rooms at the gym---her favourite photos in her collection. shes doesn't tell jiwon about this though.

in jiwon's own oblivious stalking, she doesn't notice anything different about wy. she catches glimpses of her when the whole office leaves for lunch and comes back, in the morning when she cheerfully greets their coworkers while walking to her cubicle, and when she leaves---exhausted by the work done for the day. jw cant bring herself to do anything but watch her during these moments; all of them bring her a small happiness.

hmm ok

wony in my head is 6ft MINIMUM and gaeul is just her regular height

in my headcannon wonyoung is def begging for the gaeussy all the freaking time like a freaking dehydrated dog in a desert... like just desperate and no decorum..,,. she will jump at any opportunity to beg for her unnie

reallyyy love the idea of wony being gaeul's giant desperate puppy that follows her everywhere

but that also doesn't mean gaeul is at ALL the dom one LOL she just likes having wonyoung beg for her attention

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm well obviously i love their height difference and wony def does too.

wony loves to tower over gaeul, esp in crowded places, pressing against her and holding her tiny waist

that wonyock is bigggggg and gaeul is frail and tiny but they make it work!

wy also manhandles gaeul, no mercy at all

poor gaeul is tossed and turned in every direction and every possible position.

maybe gaeul needs a stretcher after they have sex 🤔 always walking out the bedroom with a crooked step and veryyyy sore

wy loves seeing gaeul like that lowkey too 🤫🤫🤫

yes but in swapping them #SORRY

i reallyyyyyy enjoy the idea of jiwon starting to develop hallucinations and in the early stages of psychosis while in a relationship with wony

at first, wony is rlly concerned bc jiwon's behaviour becomes erratic and she starts to mostly mumbles to herself when shes alone.

but when jw is with wy, she somehow masks these symptoms to make wy believe shes normal (but wy knows smth is wrong

NOWW instead of confronting jw ab her symptoms and that wy believes shes in the early stages of schizophrenia, wy decides to... amplify them.........

so when jw has delusions of a man standing in the corner of the room and is literally in tears due to her fear, wy doesn't do anything. before she would've walked over to the corner of the room to show jw there was nothing there, but now, she plays along.

when jiwon screams in the middle of the night that she hears someone walking up the stairs with a knife, wy will go out and check, then come back acting terrified like there actually is someone out there.

jiwon would cling onto wy, crying into her shirt until she falls asleep while wy pretends to shiver in fear, whispering that she would protect jiwon no matter what

this makes jiwon even more paranoid. wy loves watching the fear in her eyes when she plays along.

this goes on for months, jiwon constantly lives in fear, unsure if anything she sees is real or fake. she can only trust wy.

sometimes wy would make up things that aren't happen to feed into jws paranoia. she would ask the younger girl things like if she saw a shadow walking around in the kitchen or if she heard the knock at the front door; things that would send jiwon into uncontrollable paranoia

jw completely trusts wy. wy tells her if things shes seeing are real or fake. her girlfriend would never lie to her. she can only rely on her to tell her whats real.

jiwon builds a dependency on wy, always becoming extremely emotional and anxious when wy has to leave jw alone for more than a day

on days when jw is completely alone. jw is unable to physically do anything. shes completely terrified of doing anything bc wy isnt there to tell her if her hallucinations are real or not.

eventually, jw disappears from everyones lives. except wys.

no one has seen jiwon. no one has heard from her. jw broke her own phone bc she was paranoid the man who watches her sleep was going to call her. jw doesn't talk to anyone but wy. she can't trust anyone but wy.

jw is completely isolated. wy plays the widowed victim perfectly when jw's friends question her whereabouts. she cries and cries and rambles about how much she misses jiwon and how she wished she never ran away until they feel guilty for asking. they eventually stop asking.

jw truely doesn't believe theres anything mentally wrong with her. she believes shes perfectly normal and that there is someone out to get her and wy. wy is her lifeline, her saviour, her knight that protects her from whoever is trying to kill her.

jw is safe at home, away from society, only with wy.

thats why jw stays.