what if you gave me permission to cum in any way I want, but it's been so long since I've cum that I've completely forgotten how to, and every time I get close to orgasm, I remove all stimulation and end up edging instead
what if I eventually give up, and you gaslight me into thinking that I actually did cum, and I just didn't recognize it as an orgasm because it'd been so long since I'd had one
what if you gave me a bunch of "orgasms" in a row to make sure that I'd "remember" what an orgasm felt like and then you let me "orgasm" as much as I wanted for a little bit before putting me on denial again
and then what if after you've rewritten my idea of what an orgasm is, you make soft edges my new way of edging, and I get punished if I have an "orgasm" without permission
that way, even if I end up "going over," I'm still exactly as horny and desperate as you want me to be <3