ball city

i think the thing that shocked me the most when re-reading the secret history was discovering that richard’s actual name isn’t richard. it’s john. john richard papen. and he just mentions it very briefly and it never comes up again. hello?? what do you mean, your name is john????

is somebody gonna match my freak?? (morbidly longing for the picturesque)

i relate to dicky papes because i also only have one good outfit and because i rely far too heavily on external validation and because i have also done some regrettable things in a fast food establishment parking lot

i love it so much when people call richard dicky papes

the secret history winter or call me by your name summer

me and the outgoing personality i made for myself hanging out in my head

In another life i would be doing cocaine in a burger king parking lot with Judy Poovey

its 3am. whore whore whore I chant. and he appears behind me. richard papen

still cannot fathom how Oliver said like the most romantic thing ever to Meredith and then went to jail for James 5 minutes later