Hidden pieces of me

We were happy once. And you were everything I wanted and needed.

maybe I’m addicted to sadness.

I had to leave this place to try and forget you.

How many lifetimes will it take to forget you?

I'm afraid you're still who I'll look for first when we leave this life.

I loved a man once

After all these years your name still lays on the tip of my tongue, ready to call out to you.

I want to tell you everything I feel...That I love you, I miss you, I think about you all the time. That I'm sending you love and hoping you're well--hoping that you're so so happy. Hoping that your new girl loves so much and is taking care of you well. That she's making you laugh and taking care of your soul. I want to tell you that sometimes I do still think "what if." What we could have been if we just had time. If you had time to grow and come back and if I wasn't in a relationship now. I wonder what our life could have, would have been, what our future would have looked like. I wonder if you would have loved and appreciated me more now that you're older and have experienced other women. Would you love me harder? Respect and appreciate me more? I wonder.