To the Man I didn’t Saw Coming… Shane Janry, I don’t have any idea where to start; my thoughts are often stars I can’t fathom into constellations, but I know this is worth a shot. We’ve known each other for about four months now but I can’t seem to wrap the thought that it feels like I’ve known you for quite a long time. I have to admit that I was drawn closer to you because you’re different. You were on the verge of losing your sanity because the idea of giving everything you have for someone whom you trust, shouldn’t feel like jumping off a cliff without any guarantee that someone down below is waiting to catch you. Despite it all, you still chose to forgive, understand and gave it another try. I admire you for taking so much risks. I know you have your flaws too, but we’re all humans and we need to bleed in order to feel. I was astounded by the mere fact that you opened up to me and you allowed yourself to be vulnerable. It often takes too much of a man’s ego to show their weak side, but you never built a facade to conceal your emotions. I on the other hand has grown tough. I built my walls high enough to keep myself from breaking. I guarded it way too much that I find it so difficult to open up again. I have to admit that it took a while for you to gain my trust. I never knew what your intentions were. You tell me one thing and another, but words are just words. They’re dead without actions and I’ve heard those before. I tried to convicnce myself that you’re just one of those people who wanted to be fixed and once they get what they want, they’d leave… but, it happened that day, when we held hands. I felt that connection that I thought was never there. It started to kick in that, yeah… maybe it’s real. Alcohol took the best of me and you’ve seen a different side… something I tried to conceal from other people because I always wanted to appear strong and put together. Yes, I could be fragile at times, I easily breakdown, but I chose to remain tough to save myself from the scrutiny of others. When you told me that I was the most difficult woman to please, it dawned unto me that you were somehow trying. Thank you for putting up with my weirdness and my sudden shift of moods. I know I’m not the easiest one to nderstand, but thanks for trying. Never in a million years have I ever thought that I would feel this sense of security again. Thank you for making me realize that love is more than just a feeling; that it’s more than just the tingling sensation in your spine when you see each other; that it’s more than just flowers and chocolates; that it’s more than just those sweet good morning texts; that love is supposed to be a decision… a decision that you both have to choose; to accept each other’s flaws and help each other become better versions of themselves; that when you commit, you have to be prepared to take on the challenges that may come your way. The future is not ours to hold, and I know that we have more mountains to hike; more oceans to cross; more walls to break and more bridges to make, but as I say yes to you, know that I’m ready to accept the person you ought to become. Life is short and love is rare. Happy birthday, my love. Let’s keep the fire burning. I love you. ❤️ xo, Pia Chudney ️
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