Let's Forget and Not Slow Down

"You ever walk into a situation where you know exactly what's going to happen... and then you go into it anyway? And then when what you're afraid of happens... you kick yourself, because you should have known better. But that's just who you are - so you keep punishing yourself." --Mary Margaret Blanchard (Snow White), Once Upon a Time This really speaks out to me because this is literally my life right now. In this scene, Snow is talking about being with Prince Charming in Storybrooke even though there he has a wife. While Linus wasnt with another girl, I still knew this relationship wasnt going to work. And i hoped it would for so long i just believed it. So when he dumped me because he realized that i am a monster... I just cant stop hating myself for doing this. To him, and to myself. To be honest, i wish i could die. But i know im too cowardly to. I wish God would take my life from me. But i know i would go to hell if he did. I wish there was someone to listen to me. To truly and honestly listen. But my best friend, who i thought would be there for me through thick and thin even though we're far away from one another, is so caught up in her own life she forgets about others. I just wish someone would listen. But i know nobody will.