In Dreams

Why am I such a massive disappointment in generally every aspect of my life.

Apparently 3 years of living together means fuck all to you. I'm trying not to show but it fucking hurts how easily you forgot and gave up on me. I mean Jesus Christ it's been a year since I moved back home and I have been to visit you 3 times only because I asked to see you and not once have you even made any attempts so come and visit me. I don't know why I give a damn but I just don't want those 3 years to mean nothing. I mean you you're friends with HIM despite all the shit he put you through and that you nearly died over how the hell are you better friends with HIM that me... the girl who stood by you through all that. I don't know what to do. I want to call you out on it so fucking bad, but of course I won't.

I'm just going to cut myself until I stop saying stupid things to people who I think are my friends online...