I just got really emotional, like to the point of panicking because I’ve become so attached to this boy and my one weekend with him solidified everything I knew I was feeling for him and I know he feels the same but I’m not going to get to be with him, with him, till he graduates college because he’s so much younger than me and that’s for another two years and he has a semester abroad and I’m just like... I’m feeling so clingy and needy and I’m tired of waiting for shit like this. What the hell am I supposed to do in the mean time? How do I better myself and WAIT these two years out?? I know I need to take things day by day but it’s so hard to when you KNOW this is the person you want for the rest of your life. I feel sick and I have to work so much this week to make up for my time visiting him. I’m so pathetic...
