irl posting because im still in fandom drop.
this week has been Weird. im real stressed but also slept the most hours since I Dont Even Know How long because 3 times this week i feel asleep real early (6-8 pm) and woke up at 3-4 am
just to be clear. Usually i fall asleep at 12-2 am and wake up at 6:30 (5:30 on tuesdays) purely brcause i cannot fall asleep. if i sleep abit over 4 hours ill be miserable, yes, but it still wont make me sleepy enough to pass out right away, so that loop continues until thursday, because Friday is my day off and i cab sleep in so i sleep for 13 hours. beleive me i tried everything known to man (except going to a doctor or a witch) to fix this. and some days are better and i fall asleep at 11 pm.
but This week. sunday to monday i underslept as usual, so i passed out at 6 pm. slep good 10 hours that night and had all the time in the world in the morning. the next day it happened again. wendsday to thursday i fell asleep at 8 pm and woke up at 2:30 am. dont know what thats about but oh well.
thursday to friday though (this night) i was a bit scared. because i knew i could sleep in and that Usually makes me go well into the night. but no because ive woken up soe arly that day i did knock out at 10 pm-ish and woke up next day at 9 am.
this. is WEIRD. sometimes, when i sleep for like 2-3 hours i can hit that Wonderfull state of being sleepy at 6 pm and sleep thru the night, but this week??? thus week i didnt undersleep and still fell asleep that early. this wont last i know, because well. i slept too much today and i wont be moving much besides some clean up around the flat, so i wont be tired when evening comes. and ill probably fall asleep at 2 am again. but Still
maybe its the weather. the HEAT ended and now its lobely and rainy, and i do fall asleep better with rain BUT. the fact that i felt sleepy at All. i never feel that wonderful sleepiness i feel tired and exhausted in body but always awake in mind. even if i slep 4 hours a night a few days in a row. i can never feel sleepy. so THIS DEVELOPEMENT??? I CAN GET ADDICTED TO THIS
This, ofc, means, another way for me to cut out any ability to go hang out and be a human being, but its not like ive spent the evenings doing that before so uh. maybe i will full into grandma sleep schedule again. honestly ill pray for it, im so tired of myself
that was my irl rant thanj you
tldr: a chronic undersleeper falls into a granny sleeping pattern of falling asleep real early and waking up early and enjoys this development abit too much