So, I guess I should probably tell ya'll why I haven't been as active this past year. -- See, the thing is, last year, a really good friend of mine bought a brand new PC for me as my laptop was on its last limbs really. Everything was going grand. Until I needed space on it. So, my hubby and I bought stuff to upgrade it ( We figured let's just do it in general, ya' know. Because it was a gaming PC, but basic. And I wanted to run some higher tier games at some point, so.. You get the point. ), only to find out that we couldn't, sadly. It was a mess. However, we could at least keep the storage piece we bought, as it was a 1T plug-in brick you hook in and transfer files. But, before we could do just that... The PC died... We don't know what happened, what triggered it. It just died. I turned it off one night, and it never turned on again.
We had a warranty, of course. So, we asked them what we could do first to try to get anything from the hard drive. They told us what to do ( Which was a fiasco in itself, trust me. We had to buy something that wasn't even the right thing. Take that back for the right thing the next day.. My anxiety and depression were already going through it at this point, ha. )... But it didn't work because something was wrong with the drive itself. So we called the company again and asked them if they could fix it. The kicker? They said they didn't fix those. So, we asked them, "Since we have send everything back via policy. What would it be for them to send the hard drive back intact? No rebooting/tampering so we can get it fixed elsewhere." And you want to know the fucking gul they had? 250$. For something that was already fucking mine, and they refused to fix it. -- Honestly, I was glad my partner was the one on the phone. My soul left my body at that. -- But.. Since we didn't have the money... We couldn't do that.. And as you can guess.. All that stuff got lost in the ether.. What's worse? They didn't do their jobs correctly. The first time the PC came back. It still didn't turn on. Which just made my mental state with the situation even more dead and gone than it already was. -- Thankfully, the second time, they did their actual job. But the damage was done. I was done..
I lost so much art, so many edits, so many icons, so many hours of things just poof, lost. Things for friends, things for me; so many things that made me happy and proud... And it hurt like a truck. To say I was on a struggle bus for a while is to put it lightly.
I mean, thankfully, I still had the laptop from before the PC. It had a majority of all icons/edits/art/psds for/from here. But not most of the recent stuff. Which just affected me so god damned much.
I wanted to come back, to write, to be happy, and be with everyone. But anytime I tried. My brain went back to that damned PC crash and thought of everything I lost. And cycled back to upsettispegetti land for a while. But I never told anyone here because I am just private like that. So... Sorry about that, everyone. My bad...
