𝓱Ẹу, ᔕ𝔢⩜𝓦έ𝓔ᗪ в𝓻𝔞𝐢η !

" i'm serious , percy. " their voice low as she spoke , almost as if they said it too loud . . it would become too real. too permanent. " look , i- i can't explain it or rationalize how i . . feel. but if you say no , i guess i'll just have to try a lot harder. " was this all a dumb idea? maybe. was she stupid to even try to admit these feelings to percy? a person they had disdain for many years in their youth? they didn't expect him to even recognize the hidden affection beneath her words , or even accept it , but he was hers. whether they both knew it or not.

the miracle of being here

[ lean ] sender rests their head on receiver's shoulder

[ shop ] sender and receiver go to the grocery store together

[ brush ] sender brushes receiver's hair

[ tie ] sender helps receiver with their tie, either by putting it on or adjusting it

[ necklace ] sender helps receiver with the clasp of their necklace from behind

[ zip up ] sender assists receiver with zipping up a piece of clothing

[ unzip ] sender assists receiver with unzipping a piece of clothing

[ shoelaces ] sender bends down to tie receiver's shoelaces

[ swipe ] sender notices a smudge of something on receiver's face and gently wipes it off

[ braid ] sender braids receiver's hair

[ jacket ] sender takes their jacket off and hangs it on receiver's shoulders

[ puddle ] sender hurries to stop receiver from stepping into a puddle

[ drinks ] sender brings receiver a drink from a bar/their kitchen

[ feed ] sender feeds receiver's pet/s for them

[ cook ] sender and receiver cook a meal together

[ feed ] sender allows receiver to try a bite of their dish, holding their fork out for receiver to taste

[ teach ] sender, an expert at something, takes time to teach receiver how it works and how they can get better at it, too

[ readjust ] sender comes up behind receiver and readjusts their stance (maybe holding a gun, holding a golf club, aiming for something, etc.) to help them

[ makeup ] sender fixes receiver's makeup for them

[ bathroom ] sender and receiver go to a public restroom together and have a normal conversation in between the stalls

[ aloud ] sender reads aloud to receiver

[ refill ] sender refills receiver's glass without asking

[ massage ] sender notices receiver looks tense, steps up behind them, and massages their shoulders

[ listen ] sender listens to receiver explain something they're passionate about

[ silence ] sender and receiver comfortably exist in silence together, both of them working or reading or focusing on something different

[ food ] sender brings food over to receiver's house

[ hum ] sender hums along to a song receiver is singing

[ see ] sender sees something that reminds them of receiver and texts them a picture of it

[ admire ] sender stares at receiver across a room, silently admiring and appreciating them from afar

[ win ] sender lets receiver beat them in a game

[ puzzle ] sender helps receiver solve/put together a puzzle

[ carry ] after receiver falls asleep in an inconvenient place, sender carries them to a bed and tucks them in

[ kneel ] sender finds receiver sick in the bathroom ("tossing their cookies"), and kneels beside them, holding their hair back and cleaning their face

[ clean ] sender helps bathe receiver

[ wash ] sender helps receiver wash their hair

you’re a selfish goddamn coward.

i think it took a lot of guts for you to do what you did back there.

so… should we talk about how you just tried to kiss me?

i’ll walk. it’s a beautiful night.

i’m not going to waste another thought on you.

hooray. betrayal.

i’ll see you around, right?

why’d you have to make things weird?

why are you telling me this?

you don’t mess with crazy.

i’m just trying to be a good friend in my own shitty, ass-backwards way.

i’m glad to know you.

nobody is out to get you.

shut up and kiss me.

what you did really hurt me.

oh, well this feels shitty.

you have to listen to me.

i know you’re upset.

you really let me down.

you abandoned me, and i will never forgive you for that.

nobody gives a damn what you feel.

do you think it’s too late for me?

i need you to tell me that i’m a good person.

tell me, please. tell me that i’m good.

you can’t outrun the truth.

i hope you don’t get sick of me.

well, that’s depressing.

i really wanted you to like me.

you ruined me.

i know you’re scared, but it’s gonna be okay.

what are you doing here?

don’t be so negative.

you think you can drop the jealous boyfriend routine?

i’m not always the best at being not terrible.

i want to give this a real shot.

i was wondering where you wandered off to.

when i cry, it messes up my makeup, and then i get really bummed out.

okay, you’re clearly in one of your moods.

have fun being sad.

there’s so much to hate about what you just said.

how is that my problem?

oh, you’re one to talk.

no one knows how to get under your skin like family.

i won’t let you down.

why don’t you ever listen to me?

i am not going to hurt you.

do you want to talk about what happened?

you humiliated me in front of all my friends.

you always just assume that everyone wants whatever you want.

i don’t like parties.

i do sometimes listen.

i’m still mad at you.

i wake up in the morning and i feel like i have no purpose.

i know, and i love you so much.

i guess you’re stuck with me.

you’re not really the kind of person people like.

are you high?

i don’t understand why you need me to like you.

don’t push it.

you’re the coolest person i know.

would you zip me up?

eat shit.

i’m sorry i hurt your feelings.

i don’t have anybody else.

i’m in your corner.

can i talk to you?

maybe some space might be good for us.

why does it suddenly matter what i want?

do you even care about this at all?

this isn’t funny.

i watched them die.

why don’t you like me?

everything comes so easy for you.

i want to feel good about myself, and i don’t know how.

i can’t tell you how sorry i am.

i don’t know if i can forgive you.

you’re so stupid!

you and i should get out of here.

there’s nothing we can do.

i really am so proud of you.

it’s good. it’s hard, but it’s good.

what are you doing here?

is it okay if i crash here for a couple night? i didn’t know where else to go.

when you look at someone through rose-colored glasses, all the red flags just look like flags.

i’m sorry i made things so difficult.

when’s the last time you were actually happy?

i can’t do this anymore.

i’m sorry. i just miss you too much.

what are you doing here?

want to get a drink?

you look like shit.

it’s really good to see you.

does that mean you’re leaving?

we did the right thing back there, you think?

the right thing to do isn’t always the best thing.

i had a really good time tonight.

this was really special.

it’s okay. i want this.

you don’t know what you want.

i’ll see you tomorrow.

now you sound like my mother.

i keep making these bad decisions and hurting people.

that’s actually… good advice.

i think you got the wrong idea.

tell me you don’t feel the same. tell me you haven’t thought about it.

i think you should go.

i’m sorry i kissed you.

you make me too sad.

don’t. don’t you dare.

i will fucking kill you.

we had some good times though, right?

you need to get your shit together.

why are you helping me?

can you really afford to be picky?

i’m not afraid of being alone.

let’s get out of here.

i don’t have anywhere else to go.

promise me everything is going to be okay.

i’m not gonna wait anymore.

i’m glad you’re safe.

i was worried about you.

you can’t keep doing this to me.

we’ll talk about this in the morning.

i just want to go home.

i actually don’t have a girlfriend.

oh, god, this is so embarrassing for you.

that’s a really weird assumption for you to make.

you look really dumb right now.

i was kind of hoping you weren’t seeing anybody.

i’m also not seeing anybody, for what it’s worth.

that’s a great idea.

why am i so mean?

is that really a good idea?

i am here to support you no matter what.

you have my undivided attention now.

i feel shitty.

you don’t need to explain anything to anyone.

you should go.

i’m not good at lying.

what are you implying?

i think i’m just a dumb asshole.

do you often keep people at arms length?

are you afraid of being known and knowing others?

there’s something very intimate about watching a person be herself.

it’s so sad that when you see someone as they really are, it ruins them.

what i want is to have control over my own life.

the whole idea of control is a myth.

you’ve given me a lot to think about.

you don’t need me anymore.

did i do something to make you feel uncomfortable?

i don’t think i’ve been a very good friend to you.

you’re sweet. you shouldn’t waste that on people that don’t deserve it.

i want to know you. i’m not afraid of that.

i know what i’m doing.

it’s so cruel to let people love you.

why do i keep letting you get my hopes up?

do a girl a favor, don’t break her heart by inches. do it all at once.

oh, good, you’re still here.

i’m sorry, is this a bad time?

can you come over? i need you.

don’t you break my heart.

you like it when i’m a mess because it makes you feel good about yourself.

i never asked for that.

i don’t like being around you because i feel bad. you make me feel bad.

where are you going?

it’s alright. you’re gonna get through this.

is it any wonder i don’t want to be around you?

all you do is tell me i’m a terrible person.

i can say nice things.

you know how to make me laugh.

you recognize you’re being impossible, right?

i don’t know how you put up with me.

i liked being with you. and i don’t regret it.

did you ever love me? at all?

you know that i don’t do the whole love thing.

this sucks.

i hate mondays.

well, this night has been a disaster. 

i remember the first time we met.

don’t try to guilt me.

it’s not your fault.

i do love you, by the way.

i’m a real jerk, huh?

are we friends?

please don’t leave me.

i promise, i’ll never ask anything from you again.

sorry, i left my coat here.

so, what do you think?

i feel like i’m drowning.

i don’t deserve this.

you used to actually care about shit. what happened?

maybe caring about shit got old.

you don’t know anything about me.

i don’t think i’m better than everyone.

stop worrying about the future.

thank god you’re okay.

nothing could make me feel better right now.

you’re my best friend and i need you.

don’t leave me now.

don’t be like everybody else.

i’m not leaving you.

what the hell, man?

i’m sorry, alright? i screwed up.

you can’t keep doing this!

you can’t keep doing shitty things, and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay.

you need to be better.

i know. and i’m sorry, okay?

you are all the things that are wrong with you.

fuck, man.

what else is there to say?

you wanna party?

everything sucks.

this is getting me depressed.

maybe we should go.

i’m hungry and i’m bored.

i’m very drunk and a little nauseous.

how could you leave me like that when i needed you most?

i’m not okay. i’m bored.

i don’t like anything about me.

none of this is me.

isn’t this place amazing?

i am this close to falling off the deep end.

i know i’m smiling right now, but the light inside me is dying.

you know me better than anybody. and you can’t not be a part of my life.