peace, hugs & hippie love

ZAYN: that shit works two ways, perrie. i wanted a wife that understood why i couldn’t leave. i wanted someone who didn’t ignore my texts and my phonecalls when i tried to get in touch to explain. u can’t just walk back in here and expect me to take all the blame.

ZAYN: i fucked up but u did too

PEZ: i never asked you to take all of the blame. i walked in here and told you flat out i fucked up. i'm still telling you i fucked up a lot. i could've handled things a lot differently. but i'm here trying. i'm not here trying to put the blame on anyone. i'm here because i love you and none of those things were worth not being with you.

ZAYN: i’m not putting shit on u, pez.

ZAYN: u wanted to go. i let u go.

PEZ: you make a lot of accusatory statements for someone who isn't trying to put shit on me.

PEZ: i didn't want to "go" zayn. i wanted to have a house with my husband. i wanted to share a fucking bed. or at least a fucking room. i wanted to start a family. i didn't want you to let me go.

ZAYN: that’s not what i mean, perrie.

ZAYN: and it’s kinda fucking harsh for u to put that on me. u left. u walked away. maybe you had ur reasons, but u can’t just come back now and expect me to have all the answers

ZAYN: i don't

PEZ: it's also a little harsh for you to put it all on me as well don't you think?

PEZ: i made mistakes and i'm apologizing and owning up to them. what more am i meant to do? build a fucking time machine?

ZAYN: i don’t fucking know what’s an option anymore, pez.

ZAYN: i’m confused

ZAYN: didn't realise it was still an option

ZAYN: i don't want u to feel stuck here

PEZ: well i don't want you to feel forced out

PEZ: so i guess one of us has to give

PEZ: [typing]

ZAYN: neither do i

ZAYN: [ TYPING.. ]

ZAYN: i just don't know how to fucking leave

ZAYN: i've been here since 2014 pez

ZAYN: i used to think about i

ZAYN: leaving

PEZ: but it's always only ever been a thought.

‘Oh, it’s one of those stories. The complicated kind. You wanna talk about it or should I stop asking questions?’

“Something tells me you’re going to find out soon enough whether I like it or not.”

‘Of course I did. I gave him a face too. I like to make fruit friends. And vegetapals! They’re the only people who never judge me.’ Jennifer explained, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. There was a brief pause before she heard her own words. ‘ — Occasionally, I’m a little strange.’ More than occasionally. ‘Well, shit, Perrie. I expected a little more enthusiasm than that. Where’s my hug? Where’s my pizza?’ It would be easy to let things be awkward between them, but Jenn didn’t like to live that life, especially not when she’d been in Perrie’s shoes once upon a time. Returning to Big Brother after her own departure had been nothing short of hell. 

“Has the cast really become that dull?” Perrie joked. “Uh, yeah, Jenn, I know. It’s me. Although, I think even a complete stranger would be aware of that,” she chuckled. “Sorry, sorry, I just don’t really know where I stand with people right now,” the blonde admitted before finally pulling Jennifer in for a tight hug. “Are you going to turn on me when I tell you I don’t actually have any pizza?”

ZAYN: [ TYPING.. ]

ZAYN: didn't know how to leave

ZAYN: wanted to

PEZ: i know.

PEZ: i know i can't hold that against you and i'm trying to be more understanding of that.

‘I guess there’s worse things to accidentally throw at someone. Maybe it’ll inspire them to eat healthy,’ Cameron joked. ‘Nothing major. I was out of a job for a while. Shameless came to an end and we finally aired the last season, but I think being here helped boost my profile a little. I’m already working on some new projects. It’s not as exacting as having babies or finding romance like some other contestants, but sadly, it’s the only update I’ve got. What about you?’

“Not me. It would give me more reason to eat like shit,” Perrie insisted. “Hey, I think that’s a pretty good update. If it makes you feel any better, I haven’t got any babies or found romance so, we’re on the same page. Congratulations! I bet whatever you’re working on is going to be amazing,” she smiled. “Literally nothing. I spent a few months living with my mum and pets and that’s about all I’ve got to say for myself.”

‘He’s pretty difficult to forget. — In general? Probably a few. This place is always moving and the people are always up to something. I’m usually too high to notice either though.’ Zoe chuckled. ‘I think Cody has a boyfriend now, while we’re on the topic. If he doesn’t then him and Tom Holland cuddle a fuck ton more than most friends do. Few people got evicted. Few people are still here. New arrivals, obviously.’

“Yeah, I really refuse to believe anyone who says I haven’t missed anything,” she shook her head. “Wait, Cody and Tom? You mean to tell me that the absolute sweetest person in this house somehow found their way to the biggest asshole? I need more information on this,” Perrie said in disbelief.

“That would be a waste of a perfectly good apple, I also tend not to throw things at people I don’t know.” Tom shrugged before smiling. “I’m Tom by the way.”

“That’s reassuring,” Perrie laughed lightly before holding out her hand. “I’m Perrie.”

“Honestly it’s been pretty quite around here recently which worries me, calm before the storm and all that.”

“Oh god, you’re right. I think the quiet can be worse than the drama. You know something’s coming for sure.”

“A lesson all should learn.”

“I think this place does a fairly decent job of teaching that.”

“Mhmm,”

“Lovely meeting you.”