create : world

improve: express any discomfort that arises without being shy or stressed

My mind is a blade, cuts hot to the world a fat pork roast. Sprint through the day and pace through to its last light, fire to fuel the first hours of the night sky and steam to last an eon. Each task completed to perfection and breached like child’s play, like never before - things are so simple and the universe aglow with raw power of MIND because I am AWAKE and my surround is my chessboard to move along as I wish.

Could this really be a full description of the human experience, formed into one single concerto movement? Yes, absolutely, yes.

My mind returns to it like the tides to a shore - a surreal, distant, perfect night in a bubble. Wanders to him, and me, and the friendship we’re holding suspended in a jar filled with the miles between us. Holds the beauty of it close, longing for this something forever lodged, untouchable, in my memory.

there’s a satisfying warmth to the exhausted respite that’s created in the days following a mental and physical ordeal. Waking up in the morning and dressing for softness, jean jacket over black hoodie and stretchy leggings, comfortable shoes. Glasses and shifting things around on schedules so that I have a bit of time to breathe and settle back into my sense of self. A shift away from emotional turmoil and anxious thoughts running wild, back towards tranquility and a strong self-knowledge. That is to say, today feels like one of the good ones. 

A reminder to myself: I’m here to hold onto those mindsets and thought processes that I can raise myself up with, and I consciously let go of the rest from the present to the next steps of my life journey. I relish the positive and I move on from that which does not serve me.