We’ve made it through one of the toughest years yet. I have to say 2022 was one hell of a roller coaster ride for me. The highs were high the lows were hella low. I was mentally, physically, and emotionally overwhelmed trying to process the change that was happening all around me. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much in a year as I did last. I’m laughing about it now because time just flew by but I’m sitting here with joy because that was A LOT! I’m thankful I had a support system that held me accountable through my healing phase. I’d say being surrounded by your tribe where the love and support are reciprocated makes a huge difference. 

In 2022 .....

I ended my almost 8-year relationship. I moved in with my cousin-bestie and beautiful niece. I went to Mexico for the first time. I’ve explored dating apps - never again haha. I’ve established meaningful relationships. My boss gave me the summer off. Floating the river which is my favorite summer activity. I drank too much. Had the best shrooms trip with my favorite people. I dyed my hair multiple times. I got two small tattoos. Partied a lot and then cried a lot. 

2022 was the last year in my twenties, so for it to start off the way it did and then end with such abrupt news broke my heart even more. I was so excited to end the year celebrating my 29th birthday with the people I love. I found out a couple of days before my birthday that one of my good friends had passed. I didn’t want to believe it because it was something that we knew would happen one day but not this soon. All of a sudden that was my reality that felt so unreal. I just remember hearing the news. I shut off my lights and pulled the covers over my face and simply cried myself to sleep. That slowly became my routine until the day of my birthday. I was recovering from being sick. I was in bed all morning being a sad girl. Then I thought to myself “ what would Britt want me to do today?” Knowing her she would motivate me to get the fuck up out of bed, stop crying and go have fun. So that’s exactly what I did. I finally got myself out of bed, took a shower, did my hair, and got dressed. I made an appointment for a mani/pedi then took myself out to dinner. Call me crazy but I really do enjoy my own company and at that exact moment, I felt better. I know Britt would’ve been proud. I remember we were there for each other during both of our break-ups. I remember we were on facetime for hours on Christmas just talking about life and how so much has happened in so little time. If it wasn’t snowing that night we’d probs be together getting fucked up instead of taking shots via facetime. Later that evening while I was out celebrating with everyone I looked around the room and just couldn’t stop thinking that down the line one of us is next. I guess it’s not how anyone should be spending their birthday but that was the reality of it all. I was happy everyone showed up for me that evening but deep down inside I was grieving. I was hella fucking sad but I would say I’m glad I got my ass up out of bed that day to enjoy my 29th birthday. Life is way too short to not be living your best life, even when you’re down in the dumps just try to make the best of it. You’d look back and thank yourself just like I am today.