muse inspiration

        all i ever wanted was for you to not hate me

          sometimes all i think about is you

          i place my head between my knees        and think “ do you ever have nights like these? ”

          the weight of the world’s on my shoulders           like atlas is crushing me down           we’re not brave, we’re not strong, we’re not soldiers           my heart’s just a drum and damn does it pound

          fuck you, and fuck the government         and fuck me for letting my guard down           which i will never do again

          and i’ll find strength in pain             and i will change my ways

          i wanted to be just like you . . .           how could you have fallen so far?

          “ and what did he die of, dear greta? consumption, wasn’t it? ”         “ i think he died for me, ” she answered.

          i hate you for what you did        and i miss you like a little kid

          well i’ve been afraid of changing             cause i’ve built my life around you           but time makes you bolder             even children get older           and i’m getting older too

          you have to understand that             the one i killed is me           changing what i was              for what you wanted me to be           i followed your direction             did everything you asked           i hope it makes you happy             cause there’s just no turning back

          and you were tossing me the car keys, “fuck the patriarchy”                key chain on the ground, we were always skipping town

          this is when the feeling sinks in                i don't wanna miss you like this           come back, be here                come back, be here

          I was far too scared to hit him                But I would hit him in a heartbeat now.           That’s the thing with anger                It begs to stick around.