i can't believe it's not better

I just want to know other people are thinking about me

sucks that some mistakes are obvious and lasting

saw my ex in public and I hope it ruined her day because it sure fuckin ruined mine

I still hate living alone. why is there no one to put their arm around me

hate how the leadup to my period makes me feel deeply destabilized like. this is probably just the menstruation monster, don't crash out don't make any important choices and don't end up in the newspaper and it'll probably be over in a week or two

god I love when someone puts their hand on my body and (this is the important part) compliments me instead of pointedly asking me if I have an eating disorder. god my ex had no tact LMAO

I kind of think I should get a medal or at least a sticker and a high five when I engage in only half as much self destructive behavior as I want to

there's honestly not much that makes me feel more disgusted than my ex's ridiculous attention seeking behavior

I fear that the only thing standing between me and a nervous breakdown is a margarita